New beginnings

I wove a little magic for new beginnings and happiness this afternoon.

Moon moves in Libra and Venus into Sagg. Venus has been under the intense gaze of Scorpio for a long while, so this move into Sagg becomes more free and happy. Less drama and more direct fun. It may make us yearn for the 'great love' though and question what we have right now. Expect to hear, 'I don't want to be rude but remind me again why I love you?'
Don't be offended and use the energy to list exactly why you are fabulous in 1000 ways.

Hmmm.
Sun is in Capricorn. Venus is in Sagg. Mercury in Capricorn. Mars in Gemini, Moon in Libra.
Lots of air, fire and earth but no water. Makes sense with the heat that we are experiencing. This is bushfire weather, I am afraid and air only serves to build up the fire that could destroy the earth.


Makes me wary.

Are all my friends are mermaids and mermen

Studying astro charts of nearest and dearest and realised that so many of my dear friends, both present and departed are water signs. As an earth sign, we love the watery types. Water sustains us and nourishes us. It moves obstacles and washed away our toxins. Earth in turn gives Waters sign the stability they crave. Earthy types are the sturdy dam wall to the watery constant flow.

Water types cop it hard in Western society though. Our culture is focussed on academic success, logic, argument and theory. All Air attributes. Never a winner with the Water types.
Watery signs understand feelings. All types of feelings, from the darkest, most murderous thoughts, to sensing joy that they can dissect into a thousand different words.

Water signs often feel isolated though. They are so attuned to to others feelings that their feeling often get washed over. They are not always understood by others and their brilliant gift of sense is not respected anymore. They are witches and soothsayers of the past, where they live. Water is all about the past. They retain memories and are saddled with the burden of lives not lived through their ancestors who visit them often. Trés psychic, BTW.

Waters signs hang on to feelings emotions and often get stuck in the present because of how they feel about the past. If they judge the feeling they are experiencing then they are doomed but if they just experience it, then they will get into the flow once more. They feel so they can understand and share their knowledge and compassion. The most compassionate people I know, are Water signs.

The darkest side though of the water sign is the emotional manipulation , the emotional control. They know what buttons to press because they know how you feel even if you are not fully aware of it yourself. Trés moody and very self destructive with an addiction to the dark side of their own feelings, they self medicate with drugs, alcohol or whatever other addiction is de rigeur. They really rely on these stimulants if their emotional, feeling life is not being fulfilled in anyway.

Cancerians are the babbling brook, the tributary that leads to the river. It is mother and child love. It is caring for the caretaker. It is the water of ancestry.

Scorpios are the still water. The waters of passion, who is seeking its true love. It is the pond that freezes over, dark, powerful and intimate. It is the mystery of water.

Pisceans are the ocean. Tides ebbing and flowing, in and out to indicate that the world is always changing. It is about progress for humanities sake and always about what we leave for our future generations.

Water though is all about endings. Finishing things off. Making sense of the feelings and understanding how and when to let go to move on with your life.

Water signs come and go in my life, some are there for the long haul though. All of them are brilliant and amazing and have Meant more to me than any other signs I know. My greatest lessons have been from Earth. Some of the best conversation have been with Air signs. I haave felt intense passion with Fire signs. But my greatest friendships have been with Water signs.

Both my children are Water signs.

I have my Ascendant and Moon in different water signs.

I understand.

I feel you, mer-peeps.

Is sustainable living a new religion?

Does this mean new Satan is now global warming? It figures with the concept that Earth will soon be as hot as Hades if we don't take immediate action.

Stick with me here. I am hearing more and more people taking up the global challenge to see who can do the most with the least.
Don't get me wrong. I think it is commendable but it is becoming the trés fashionable dinner party conversation, that I have been included in recently.
People, fabulous people, who I thought would have no time for such malarky as the chickens and water tanks are taking country like living with a verve not seen since Marie Antoinette and her country folly, complete with sheep dyed pink and blue.
My question is, will it last?
What I like about the sustainable push is the faith and hope that it inspires in the world. That people can do their bit. Everyone is responsible and even the smallest action matters.

Mercury sextile Uranus today, thus the philosophising.

The Comet Cometh

Comets are bad news. We have Comet Holmes in the skies at the moment. No, not Mrs Cruise, another and if you can believe it, more sinister starlet.

I have been reading about comets today. The Ancients believed them to cause political upheaval and 'foul, demonic deeds'. Losing ones head is quite possible when this particular comet is in the skies, both literally and spiritually. This Comet Holmes is spinning past the cluster of stars that represent 'Royal Families'. The young inheritors of these families will be hurt by acts of rash impulse and careless action.
Benazir Bhutto was the political royalty, The heir apparent. Her father was Zulfikar Ali Bhutto, the country's first popularly elected prime minister, toppled by the military in 1977 and later hanged. He lost his head and now Benazir lost her life. It's all too tragic.

Don't think this will be be the end at all, btw.
Last time we had a Comet in the Skies, Comet McNaught, the world lost Saddam Hussien, by hanging and James Brown, music royalty, as the Godfather of Soul.

This weeks news has been harrowing. So many awful stories about moments of heads being lost and lives lost. Tigers are escaping from the Zoo. Dogs killing new babies. Fathers being killed in front of the children on Christmas Day with a cricket bat.
When you are next asked, 'What is going on in the world?' You can answer, 'It's that Holmes Comet.'

I used to blame Tom Cruise for everything that was wrong in my life, now I blame Holmes.

Stay tuned and if you are royal, lay low!

I award you the Self Protecting Triple Cross

Self protecting like crazy this holiday season. Taking myself out of all potentially difficult and door slamming situations.
The Moon was full over Christmas and on the Eve it was in Cancer, which made us all want to be at home. Cancer drives us home and home. With my ascendant in Cancer, I felt the home drive deeply, so I canceled all events and sat at home with Gandalf and wrapped pressies and was in bed by 10.00 pm. Christmas was spent quietly with Gandalf, the changelings and beloved parents, brother, sister and her poppets.
It was lovely and as my mother handed me more of her amazing food, I was happy. To be taken care of and nurtured. I am blessed.
Laughing with my sister till we nearly vomited, to our parents unintentional French farce. It was complete with multiple doors opening and answering phones. Hilar! Still laughing when I think of it. Highlight!

Moon is in Leo today. All about grand thoughts and courage. I woke thinking of the most exciting events in my life thus far.

• The day after my wedding
• The day I bought Scorpio Daughter home from hospital and she was all mine
  
• The moment Pisces Son was carried to the side of my bed and I knew he was fine
• Buying my house
• Finishing my book.

The Moon in Leo is what has bought upon this dramatic thought. Be mindful of the Leonine Moon though, with being too self defensive and masking how we are feeling. The shadow side of the moon is the Lion from the Wizard of Oz. Major Ego issues.
All shell no filling, so to speak.
Napoleon Bonaparte was a Leo. So was Carl Jung.
Today, channel Jung more than the short man with a hand in his jacket. I shall leave you with this quote before I hit the sales.

The word 'belief' is a difficult thing for me. I don't believe. I must have a reason for a certain hypothesis. Either I know a thing, and then I know it, I don't need to believe it. - Carl Gustav Jung

Now, that is Leo Confidence.

Feelgood '08

Inspired by Miss Numerella, I formed the theme for my 2008.
The theme is 'Feelgood'. I think it is possible to feel good most of the time, we just allow ourselves to be bought down by the people, media and environments we expose ourselves to.
If we attract what we feel then 'good' is where it is at for 2008.

So I choose to:

Only spend time with people who I feel good around.
Listen to music that makes me feel good.
Treat my body in a way that feels good.
Banish negative thoughts of the past and focus on thoughts of a positive future.
Read what feels good.
Watch what feels good.


I feel good already.

Today stinks

Yes, a tough astro day.
I certainly felt it, negative energy and internal/external dialogue that could hurt the psyche.
On top of that, I have had a bad smell following me all day. It started at breakfast with friends. The establishment smelt of vomit and dirty nappies at the same time. I am sorry, but that is how it was described to me. The Fraulein I sat next too, insisted on wearing her hair across her nose towards the end, like a lady version of Movember. It was bad. Then home to some sort of smell from my sink that will outlast religion. What is going on, I wondered?

Melbourne has had a deluge of rain for days. Heavy rain that makes you wear a Priceline bag on your head when running to the car to save your hairstyle ( I did this), only to find it saved nothing, least of all your dignity.
The arvo was spent out, then home to pull darts from my back, lucky I had my suit of energy armor on but still, its unsettling.
I watched a serial killer 'sitcom' felt uneasy and then went to bed to have nightmares. What, am I six years old? Now I can't sleep, so thought I would talk to you.

And the smell is still lurking in my kitchen from the arse that is stuck in my drain.

I think the astro forecast, combined with the weather forecast is stirring up the shit, both spiritually and literally.
The astro forecast is all about ducking for cover and if you don't have to see the people that shit you the most then don't, 'cause now is the time that it will all come out, words will be said that will be regretted, decisions will be made that may not be able to be undone, tempers frayed and the whole things seems like a slice of refried crazy.
Not easy to avoid the painful over the stupid season though, I know.

Think of it like transition in labour, the crazy that happens before the moment of peace and bliss when the baby is born. In my transition with Scorpio Daughter, I tried to get the bus home, except my legs did not work from the epidural. I was like Ron Kovic from Born on the 4th of July, lifting my legs off the bed and telling people 'thanks but I had enough and will be finding my own way home.' Still makes my sister laugh when she thinks of it, apparently.

Remember, this too will pass - the smells in the drains, the negative energy the pointed at you, the lady moustache. It will all pass and on the other side will be puppy dogs, rainbows and giggling babies.

P.S A big shoutout to Blessed and Ram - Beau for their wedding anniversary today.
xoxoxo

It's alive!

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Void of Course

The Moon is Void of Course in Taurus today. However, the Moon still has power when Void of Course in Taurus, Cancer, Sagittarius and Pisces.
Mercury enters Capricorn today which is an excellent transit for successful communication but also makes us mindful of how we spend our money. Always good at this time of the year.
I have started my break this week, although still being slightly distracted by the odd work related issue.
Interestingly, I have started to dream this week about things coming to life again. Watering trees and them reviving in front of me. I am also starting to see signs again of syncronicities. This is good. Although it makes me realise how the 'trap of busy' stops the flow and the time to takes to notice the signs.
In 2008, I will take more time to slow down and take a moment to be present and be aware.

The Death Star Cometh

A Death Star galaxy is sending out a powerful jet of particles and magnetic radiation that is likely obliterating any possible life in its broad path, notably in a nearby galaxy, astronomers said on Monday.

They said the two galaxies appear to be merging and the disturbance in the magnetic field caused by this movement may have awakened a dormant, supermassive black hole in one of the galaxies.

This is a movement, that in astrology circles that is associated with a massive fall in the stock market. There are many astrologers that predict the rise and fall of the market by the stars. so todays fall in the market was in noted by those in the know.

I felt the magnetic field shift today, rising to major technology issues that thankfully were solved, though not without stress on my behalf. It is always important to remember to stay calm when faced with techno - shit. Your energy affects machines, combined with the 'Death Star' you are facing quite a battle.

Thinking about the stock market issue, I wonder if in fact it is just trying to balance itself out. There is an equal reaction to every action.
The Universe will always get what it wants in the end, and that is hubris for us humans. Try as we may to build the tower, eventually the foundations will fall. Tides come in and wash away house, mountains shift and wipe away entire villages built on their sides.

You cannot fight nature. We will solve the environmental crisis we are facing because that is what the Universe wants.
Everything rights itself.
Balance will rule.

Belieiving is what takes you there.

The Big Bang

This is what I have felt like as I have had Pluto squaring my moon for 11 months. Not pretty, in fact 'pretty shitty' as my six year old would say.
It has finally gone. It is the most intense of transits, rendering the receiver vulnerable and emotionally defenseless.
It makes you question everything and delve deep into your psyche, particularly around relationships and mothering.
Many people have death in their lives during this transit, especially if it is in Scorpio.
My Moon is in the 8th house, the house of death and regeneration. I have had to learn to let things go this last 11 months. Although I have not had any physical death, relationships have died and for me this year and others have renewed. I have rid myself of dependency and others dependency on me, which is huge for me, huge!
Pluto digs deep, its the astrological archaeologist. Unearthing the past to make enable you to understand your patterns to be able to face your future with confidence.

I finished my Pluto moon transit last night with hideous dreams about my dearest ones being sick or compromised of some sort. Gandalf, changelings, my mother, sister, all hurting in some way. Each malady individual but all interconnected. One story wove into the next and am awake knowing what it is that I fear the most. Now I let it go. The rain falls down and I let it wash away the last parts of Pluto and my fear.

Let it go, let it go, let it go.......

Looking forward to happiness

The three days before we bought our house, a monarch butterfly flew inside our living room and refused to leave. It supped from honey and water that the changelings left out for it, and seemed impervious to my worry that it should be outside.
Then the day after we bought the house, it simply flew out the door.
Butterflies symbolise transformation and embracing the new. There is a Native American legend that says that if you have a secret wish then whisper it to a butterfly and it will take your wish to the Great Spirit. By releasing the butterfly then you are restoring balance to nature and your reward will be your wish being granted.
Thank you to the butterfly and the Great Spirit for granting our wish.

Conversation with a dear friend who spoke of having something to look forward to. Her old friend, who has struggled with a difficult life and some bad choices for her lifestyle has only just discovered this concept through some therapy and self discovery.
I have heard it said that happiness is something to do, something to love, and something to look forward to.
Right now I have all of those in abundance. There is always something to do in the silly season, and lots of loved ones to catch up with and I have wonderful things to look forward to - parties, holidays, a new house. All in that order.
If you have any of the three things I listed then you are doing okay- people to love, things to do and joyous occasions on the horizon. Look around you and take stock of what is in your life.
Choose to be happy. Happiness does not mean your life is perfect, perfect does not exist.
Instead it means you have made the choice to overlook the imperfections and the flaws and focus on what is wonderful.

I read this affirmation for happiness- 'My happiness draws an overwhelming amount of blessings into my life.' If your thoughts create your future then create something amazing for yourself. I will be using this till then end of next week, just to give me the extra emotional fuel to get me through.

Can you feel it?

The air is ripe with tension and emotions are positively volcanic. yes, its the Jupiter/Pluto conjunction.
If you are sensitive then manage who and what you expose yourself to over the next while.
Esteemed astrologer told me this morning that expect family fights at Christmas this year.

Buckle your seatbelts peeps.

Shine a light on me

Dreams about my house plunged into darkness last night.
Jung believes the house in your dreams represent the Self. Different rooms are different parts fo yourself. Kitchen is nourishment, bathroom -cleansing, living room-social aspects etc.
Last night I was in the hallway of my house. As a metaphor in dreaming, This is the passage between the unconscious and conscious self.
In my dream, none of the light switches worked and I had to find a torch and then make my way to fix them. I managed to get to the fuse box and then switch it on.
This dream came after a session with Domonique to understand why I am so bone tired.
An enlightening dream in every way.

New Moon Mojo

The new Moon in Sagg is in the sky. The New Moon brings us renewed energy and focus on what we want. Early breakfast conversations with the Grecian Goddess gave me clarity and laughter before 8.00am. Bless the kitchen table psychology of the Greeks, such pragmatism and honesty is to be treasured.

Anyone got my mojo?

This afternoon, after an overwhelmingly exciting and amazing weekend, where Gandalf and I made a long held dream come true, a cloud of despair wrapped around me. I didn't want to go to work tomorrow. This feeling grabbed me by my heart and I became tired with the burden of responsibility.
I felt like a fraud. Have I not been the poster girl for working with Spirit in business? Yet here I was feeling angry and without passion for the business which I have loved and nurtured.
Thinking long and hard I placed myself on the imaginary shrinks couch and self diagnosed.
Inital diagnosis:

1) No holiday in 2 years. Never a wise decision to martyr yourself. You will end up tired, stressed, unwell and not at all helpful to your business.

2) I got caught up in the small stuff. There is an old saying, 'The main thing is to make sure that the main thing is the main thing.' This year I have constantly been distracted from the vision by small details. These details have taken so much of my time that I did not keep 'the main thing' in mind. The main thing for me is to create a successful business that I enjoy going to each day.

3) Not having or making any time to learn. This year I have been caught up in writing an book, running a business and managing a household. The year before, when I started this blog I dedicated myself to learning. This year, I didn't make time to actively learn and so the Universe thought it best that I learn on the job. We never stop learning but sometimes it is best choose your learning instead of trial by fire as I have discovered over the last 12 months.

I am nearly there, I only have 3 days left of work, but as I near the finish line I am dragging my feet. Each step seems like I am pulling my leg from quicksand. Fishgirl says this is my Scorpio year, next year will be more Capricorn. This year will be soon be finished. I will honour the next 3 days and then I will enjoy my time off to regenerate.
I look forward to my holiday where I shall spend time with my beloved Gandalf and precious changelings. Talking about our new house, our plans for our business, our future, recharging from loving each other.

Bring it on, bring it on, bring it on.

Pluto it up your Uranus

Yesterday was dark.
I popped my mask on and punched through yet the energy was thick and murky.
Yesterday afternoon I helped a sick friend out with her kids. Intensely ill, she has only arisen from the maze of test and hospitals to be able to make the short trip from bed to front door. She took my breath away with her thin frame and positive attitude.
More power to her.

Venus is in Scorpio today till December the 30th. Moon moves into Scorpio this afternoon. I always have a hard time when the Moon in Scorpio. Not today though. I have decided to transcend the pattern and use freewill to make Moon in Scorpio a positive transit for me. The positive aspect of the Moon in Scorpio is finding the ability to embrace your power. Use the intensity to overcome the FEAR that stops us from manifesting the BEST in our lives. Fear has recently over taken my week. Such a typical Pluto aspect. Scorps fear very little. I need to embrace this more. Hook into the Scorp part of self.
True balance is acheived when we take part of all the signs and bring them into our being.
Each sign carries on from the next:

•Aries has the BIG idea.
•Taureans plan how to make it happen.
•Geminis make the idea fly and become real.
•Cancerians make everyone feel great about it.
•Leos sell it.
•Virgos make sure its all working in perfect order
•Librans bring balance and peace to the idea.
•Scorpios find all the information and secrets about the ideas and keep them locked away safe from prying eyes.
•Sagittarians sets goals and plans a future for the idea.
•Capricorns make the idea more successful than could be imagined.
•Aquarians make the idea work independently and freely from any individual.
•Pisceans make the idea helpful for the collective for generations to come.

Each signs takes over from the last. So important to recognize if you are struggling with a particular sign. They are important, you are important, we all have a job to do and so let go and go and do it!

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Converting to Spirit

As a spiritual seeker, I have dipped in and out of living with spirit according to how my life was progressing. This is less and less, certainly since I started this blog, but I know I have yet to fully immerse myself in my bliss.
I have been trying more of late, to connect with the higher vibrations and the Truth in my life.
It feels like climbing Mount Everest with a can of coke and a big stick though, with the year I have had.
In numerology, every year has a theme that applies to the year ahead for you. These years are bundled into nine year cycles. Looking at the year I have been through, my trusty hindsight spectacles give me great insight into what has been and what have learned.
I look forward to the year ahead and push myself to live my Truth and be who I want to be. I forgive myself for all my mistakes, even if others do not, and know what I am trying everyday to be better than I was the day before. I cannot change the past, cannot order my future, I can only be as I am now.
Moon in in Virgo, moving to Libra later today. Moving from perfectionism to emotional balance.
Let it all go and accept where you are. All is as it should be and you are where you should be.

I am writing my professional and personal plans this week with a well earned retreat at the end of the week planned. Spiritual connection awaits me. I couldn't sleep last night with relief of knowing this is soon to be. A retreat for the mind, body and soul.

Bring it on, bring it on, bring it on.

Push me, pull you

Sick of being pulled in directions that cause me stress and concern, I decided to push myself in another direction and to take action. I decided to tear up the business today and have a close look at everything financial. I surrounded myself with beans and then I counted them, sorted them and banked them.
It was eye opening, encouraging and scary all at the same time.
All finished with a management meeting to share the news.

To break out of Groundhog Day, a cheeky lunch was had at the divine Cafe Di Stasio with new friends and collegues. Our 'mantatstic' waiter with the best eyebrows wax this side of the Yarra, expertly guided us through a alcohol soaked lunch and things have never looked rosier. This being said while looking through through Róse coloured glasses.

Things are shifting and the new is coming.

Groundhog Day

It is nigh on the end of the year and I have the distinct feeling that I am in groundhog day.
Everyday seems to be blending in with another, the same jobs, the same people, the same routine, same clothes to wear. Same, same, same.

Thank god for the break that I am about to have. 8 weeks off. What a blast. Chatting with the Contessa, we likened it to severe case end-of-yearitis. Another friend mentioned to me that they were feeling the same way. I think we are in the grip of an epidemic.
No holidays for 2 years. Not good for anyone and it will NEVER happen again.

New Moon in Sagittarius at the beginning of December. This is the time to focus on personal goals and aim high and strong. Its is also a great time to increase your understanding of the world and look at the whole picture.
Saggis do not like the everyday, the like the extraordinary and the positive, so hook into this moon energy. This New Moon in Sagittarius conjunct Mercury (mind, insight) and Sun (identity), and the Jupiter/Pluto conjunction in Sagittarius (blissful transformation through release). Insight into your mind about who you are and what you stand for, what others perceive about you and then let go and allow yourself to be transformed. Let the gentle cosmic waves wash you clean and now that when this moon is over you have done your work and move onto the next phase. That is where I am at right now. Readying myself for the next phase and stage of my life.
I look forward to it.

By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond the winning.
-- Lao Tzu

Excuse me waiter......

I know, bad blogging of late. Doing two jobs at the moment till staff replacement starts next week.
Lots going on, lots and lots, but all good. Pluto has left my chart, feel like it has been there forever. Anyway he's gone and let the good times roll.
Full moon in Gemini on Sunday. The moon of "freedom of speech". Good moon influence for an election this weekend in Australia.

Firestarter is having intuitive dreams about work. Elephant and clients in forests and Gandalf cleansing the elephant and bathtubs as modes of transport.
Fascinating dream and spot on for where the business is at. She is most unaware of her intuition and brilliance in this area. What a gift it is to even understand this part of yourself, even for a moment.
The insight is life changing. I hoep she frees herself to experience it. I think this comes with age though and not every one wants to understand. It's a bloody big gift to ignore though.

The proverbial elephant in the room.

Ready, ok!

Fishgirl, now Stateside, tells me that in there is a thought in Kabbalah that when your world gets a little difficult, then you say, "Bring it on 3 times. The Universe will then send you what reflects your attitude.

So sing it loud my friends, "Bring it on, bring it on, bring it on!"

And may the Universe send you what you can handle, celebrate and learn from.

Later.

By Jupiter

Blesseds birthday today. Happy Birthday!
I have been thinking about the planet Jupiter, which comes around every 12 years. Jupiter is the planet of expansion, joy, good times. Optimism.
Jupiter is important and mostly you will find your world will grow in some way when Jupiter is hanging around. For some, it can be the expansion of psyche, or finances or house and home.

I had my first baby the last time Jupiter returned. Blessed is in her Jupiter return and marks it with her baby.
Jupiter is on the cusp of my 4th and 5th house, the houses of home and creativity. I have activity in both areas at the moment.
Jupiter often marks major life transitions and if we work with the energy, not against it then we can set sail on a smooth course over the next 12 years until we mark the next return.

Mother love

I spent some time with the Piscean Princess today and her beautiful baby. She is still overwhelmed with love for her baby boy. I thought later this afternoon that the love just gets more intense. Last week the Grecian Goddess and I cried and laughed through the Scorpio Daughters school play. She came on stage and we grabbed each other like old grandmothers, the tears were there but we managed to keep them at bay.
The joy at her two small scenes bought whoops of joy from all of her family and our friends in the audience when she came on stage.
Love was in the air. She did not shy from it, her beaming face when The Grecian Goddess handed her bunch of peony roses by the stage door made me remember that children grow strong from love. It is the fertilizer of the soul. He face was like on of the peonie, pink, pretty and round. I wanted to eat her.
I hope that never leaves.

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Dance of the Seven Veils

Neptune has been retrograde for a while now, making everything seem confusing and what you think is happening is not at all as it seems.
This is certainly certain for me. Many things that have been difficult to fathom and solve are starting to become clearer. What once seemed lost is now found. Answers are starting to come and often there is chaos before the calm. The dust has risen and let it settle where it may.

Creativity that has been stuck in the mud is staring to get a firm foothold to push itself to the surface and start to soar again. The light from the Moon in Cancer shines in the emotional wounds and instead of licking them, now is the time to rub salve on them and cover them to allow natural healing to occur.

A hell of a week for me and I have asked The Good Doctor if I maybe allowed a temporary retirement from my own life for a while. I am weary and soulful.
I life the veil and shift slightly.'Onwards' is the word of the day.

What are you looking at?

This Mercury Retrogarde is a bitch.

What is coming up for you?

Taxes, death, breakdown, breakups?
Fatigue, weariness, the desire to escape?
Crisis, challenges, emotional exhaustion?
Power struggles, soul wrenching truthful admissions?
Contract not coming through?
Garbage bags splitting and the revolting contents spilling onto the floor?

Whatever it is, this Mercury retrograde is pushing us hard. It is nearly over. It goes direct on the 1st November and then will completely out of the shadow zone by the the 16th of Nov.

What have your learned from this Mercury Retro period ?
I am working on letting go of old patterns that are holding me back and showing themselves in horrible physical reactions to anxiety. I hope to solve this with an energy healing asap and a good old fashioned talking to myself.

Meanwhile....Strike a pose, there's nothing to it!

Signs and promises

Owls appear when I supposed to take notice. They ask me to follow them. They have never let me down yet.

Today I have an epiphany regarding someone that owls sent to work for me. I hired this person based partly on the fact that they seemed right for a job and they had owls around them. In the broader sens of the job it didn't work out but in the scheme of them helping me with my book, they were invaluable and brilliant. The owls lead them to me for this reason alone. I tried to make this person right for the job but now I see she was only here for the job she was Meant to do and this was help me with my book. What her take is on this time spent with me and the business, I am not sure, but we are still on good terms and she helps still helps me with the book.

Today the owls headed me off on the path and sent me in another direction to what I previously thought I wanted. They cemented an idea and showered me with the stardust of possibilities. What once seemed lost now has hope.

The owls are good to me.

Solar return

Scorpio Daughters 11th birthday today.
Your childs birthday can be bittersweet. The inevitability of them growing older sticks in my throat. This morning she chose to sleep instead of immediately rising for her presents. Sleep is a gift and this morning she recognized it.
At every milestone of my childrens development I have at time wanted to bonsai them, make then stay just as they are so I can enjoy that perfect stage.
But, alas, no, just I am enjoying the view they whisk me away again to unchartered lands that offer bountiful gifts and challenges as they grow into new stages.
I thought today how much I like the person my daughter is maturing into. She is truly one of the funniest people I know and worries about none of the crap that kept me awake at her age.
She benefits greatly from Gandalf and my mutual self development and she is learning lessons so early that took me 35 years to understand.
What great ordnance she has in her tremendous understanding of the world and the people in it. Her ability to sit and watch and wait and then take the lead is the stuff of female legends in history.

It is an honour to be her mother.

"Hey I like you. whats not to like? But you need to access your uncrazy side a little more."

I am getting flakier and flakier and loving it!

Exhibit A: Sometimes, I get messages by a tingling feeling on my head. Bear with me.....I know....come back. I really do get these messages. A person will be telling me about their plans or wondering what to do and I will get this feeling tingling on my scalp. It tells me what is going on or what decision that the querent should go with.
Lately though it has gone to the dogs. Its is tingling at odd times, sending me messages that make no sense. I must have wire loose. I blame Mercury retrograde. It is interfering with my Contact.


Yep, crazier than a June bug!

Can't see for looking

I am not a professional astrologer but I love nothing more than to break down the astro info and try to make sense of it. Today: Mercury (Communication) semi squares ( small obstacle) Jupiter (Intellect) today.
Small details are easily overlooked today. Already this rings true for me as I have emailed clients the wrong estimates and proposals each! Cripes.
So disappointed in myself. This is what happens when we rush.
Now I have to go and write lame arse emails to both parties to prove my comptence when I am clearly very incompetent this morning !
Moon enters Pisces later today, with a heavy dose of Uranus. So fasten your seatbelt for big ideas to save the planet and then Uranus who actually can make it happen.

Off to write sucky emails.........

Wait a minute, Mister Postman

When I came home tonight I was delighted to receive a card in the mail from a new but instantly dear friend who wrote me such sweet words, I giggled aloud in the street.

I don't want to go on about the lost art of letter writing but receiving this little card in the mail thrilled me more than any email or phone call. I think a letter brings with it incredible intention. Making the effort to find or in this instance, make a nice card, write a few perfectly measured sentences that induce joy and then stick a stamp on it and send it on its way takes thought. With thought goes intention and with intention, energy.

I used to receive letters from The Good Doctor, before the rise and rise of email. I would be thrilled and leave the letter till I knew I would be uninterrupted. I would make a cup on tea and on warm days sit on the front steps and read in the sun. Nothing was quite so comforting except having her near me to tell me herself.

Some of my most defining moments so far in my life, involve letters received and sent. Letters between Gandalf and I for a full year while separated, that kept our flame alight. It was letter from England from Blessed Seraph that propelled Gandalf and I into marrying.

I have received awful letters from people in my past who sent me the letters that you are supposed to burn after writing. These letters have enabled me to grow as a person and restructure my friendships and the way I spend my energy, but these days are long since passed. Now I received joyous letters in the post, letters that make me giggle.

The Pisces Son always runs to the letter box to see if there is a letter for him. I always say, "You have to write a letter to get a letter." He writes to Grandparents, they write back. He giggles when he spies their letters.

Yes. Letters are lovely.
Thank you for mine today!


To send a letter is a good way to go somewhere without moving anything but your heart. ~Phyllis Theroux

The Da DVD Code

I have cracked the code.
The code for my DVD that is. I have managed to work out and recode my DVD player so I can now play DVD's from all regions. This came from my desperation on Saturday night with nothing to watch on TV and the only medicine was to watch Bell, Book and Candle again, but, alas, my copy is from the USA, which does not play nice with the Australian region DVD players.
I knew that watching Jack Lemon play bongos and the styling of Kim Novak and her bare feet would make everything better. Gandalf scoffed at me, which in turn made me more determined to crack the code.
My exaltation upon seeing the opening credits of the movie came from the feeling of being able to create my own rules. It's my DVD player and it shall play what I want, dammit!
I struggle with authority and rules at the best of times, so having my entertainment options curbed was too, too much.
I have Uranus in my third house, the house of communication. People with this placement love to solve mysteries. It's true. It is also the placement of the astrologer.
For now, I can add code cracker to my list of skills.


P.S Moon is in Capricorn and Venus is playing nice with Mars. So make hay while the sun shines my friends.

Don't you worry 'bout a thing!

Yes, Mercury is retrograde and people are whinging and moaning everywhere I turn, including myself.
The greatest weapon against astrology is willpower.
Why do we have to do what the chart says?
What can we change about ourselves or out situation to create a different outcome?

Mercury Retrograde sends most people in the know into a tailspin. Taking into account the fact that this is in one is in Scorpio, some are moving to the dark side quicker than you can say,"Quincunx".

I am taking a different view on Mercury Retrograde.It runs from the 12th October till 1st November when Mercury will go Direct. Let's split it into 2 parts. 10 days in each period.
The first 10 days of the period you get to see what needs to be fixed or broken. The second 10 days of the period is to work out how to fix it.


P.S There is a full moon in Taurus on the 26th October, which of course will highlight solutions to problems that are proving hard to remedy. Stay tuned.

Venus in the fourth

The Piscean Princess is a mother. Her baby boy is here, safe and sound. All perfect and peachy keen.
Sun in Libra, Moon in Scorpio. Ascendant Gemini. Numerology 6. Charming and charismatic, apparently, according to Miss Numerella, upon consultation.
She has been in my thoughts all day and with joy in my heart. I trod a little lighter and smiled a little more for her happiness and her wishes coming true.

Baby time

Shiteful week, hideous and taxing. The only highlight is waiting for The Piscean Princesses baby. I am as nervous as a grandmother, can't even believe how excited I am. Imagine what I will be like when Blessed's little Sultana arrives?
I have been using the scopes for baby birth day prediction, as I have been so hopelessly wrong so far. Finally, Venus is in the 4th house - House of Home and Family tomorrow. Love with family.
Astrology is a very useful tool when applied with hindsight. Stay tuned, I will let you know when the baby Libran arrives.

The Chosen One

The Piscean Princess is due to give birth any moment now. I have not been this excited since Blessed's wedding.
I am fit to bursting with the thrill of the Sibyls reaching out for their their emotional prosperity.
Interestingly the skies have shown The Piscean Princesses baby in the astral. Jupiter, the planet of children has been in her chart since mid January this year. Jupiter left the day the baby was due. Now the the "Maternal Instincts" transit (Moon trine Ascendant) comes into her chart tomorrow and tomorrow only.
I am not promising, I am just sayin' is all.

The baby will come when the baby is ready. I read that babies who are late, don't want to leave the womb, as they miss the sound of their mothers heartbeat. My daughter was late, so late, 10 days.
I don't think it was my heartbeat though, I think she wanted to become a Scorpio by 1 day! Cheeky little thing she is!

Dreams

Insane dreams last night, none of them pleasant. Panic, people from the past and drowning, were the themes. Nice one! I blame the tiredness from an insane week of working whilst the changelings have been away.
Highlight: inspired by Aries accountant that my business plans can be done and done well, so I am feeling the verve for life my ideas coming back. Strange, just a small word from the bean counter and off I go trekking into the land of opportunity.
I have a lovely transit of Mars sextile Mercury for the next 5 months, which is all about having a passion for mental work and being disciplined and confident enough to see it through.

Note to self: Make my waking dreams come true, not the ones from last nights slumber.

Wasting time ?

Moon is in Gemini. Get on with your work. Stop reading people.com or perezhilton.com.
Stop facebooking old sex partners. Stop self-googling. Stop photocopying your face or arse or anything else that tickles your fancy.
Work it out and pay attention to the detail. Try to have actions come from all your conversations.
This is my plan and yet here I am blogging about doing it it. Stop talking start doing......prepare for the future, it is already here.

Mystery School

I am reading about the Mystery Schools. Mystery School?
Isn't that Nancy Drew's Alma Mata, you ask?
No.

A mystery school is a center of learning for spirituality. Or University for the Soul. A place where we study the mysteries of the universe. Universal University, so to speak.
Sufi's had a mystery school, and most of their learnings and understandings were not written down, but taught through the oral teaching method. So did Buddhists and Mayans and many other religions.

I think that each of us have own own mystery schools inside ourselves, we learn when we question, feel inspiration and exhilaration and wonder where it came from. We do not need to belong to a religious order to be part of the great learning mystery. Every time we ask ourselves to try harder, be better and forgive ourselves and others we are showing up to the mystery class. I suppose we never graduate from mystery school, we just get better at trusting and hopefully when we die we graduate with flying colours in Faith.

I like attending Mystery School, I like to look and listen, experience and philosophise. There are many others in my world who also attend mystery school. Laughing with Blessed and The Piscean Princess during our Dark Arts classes. Swapping crib notes with Fishgirl. Comparing teachers with Gandalf. Pontificating and debating with the Good Doctor about the yin and yang of the soul. And spending time with my beloved astrology charts and sharp pencil is more enjoyable than any traditional learning I have done at traditional school or University.

Yes, I like going to mystery school. Show up or don't, its entirely up to you, there is no roll call. But if you do, chances are you will find what you learn more useful than anything else you have learned previously.
Knowing others is wise, knowing yourself is enlightenment, the Chinese proverb says.

School's in!

Get to the point

Full Moon in Aries and for most people, they are are run off their feet, over committed and living by their lists, that seem to get longer with each tick of the clock.

The Moon in Aries is always about intent and doing it, doing it! An immature or wounded Aries energy, we will be doing 50 things at once, mostly to feed the ego. A mature or healed Aries, when they have healed their emotional wounds they came to earth with, will be doing one thing and doing it well. They will have intent and clarity about the end goal they are striving for.
Look at where Aries is in your chart. Issues around this at the moment?

The polar opposite of Aries is Libra, the balance and the self reliant. To do best through the full moon, decide to do one thing, one things I repeat. Then use the Libran energy to do it well and with a sense of boundary. What will you do and not do in this time? Stop being over committed. Learn to say 'no' without an explanation.

Just say no.

Leaving the Womb

I am getting insight into this Mercury Retrograde that start on the 11th of October is going to be a doozy. We are in the shadowzone and man, ain't we feeling it!
Already computers are being bitches and the field of energy is being affected. Why? Well Mercury Retro is in Scorpio this time. A difficult sign if not stroked gently. Scorpio are so secretive its crazy, they are like the vault and terribly discreet and lethal. Expect communication to be veiled and possibly destructive. I think the Smiling Assassin was a Scorp.

Said best here:

Scorpio is ruled by Mars, Pluto, and Chiron. Mars stirs up anger. Pluto takes out the garbage in your life. Chiron brings you the tools to heal wounds. When Mercury goes retrograde in the sign Scorpio we are faced with issues of death and rebirth. It's a shaman's death. Surrender. Eventually floating in your mother’s womb the waters became toxic, you had to push out to be born into this world.

Scorpio’s energy represents that same water energy that you had to break through in order to be born into this world. Again our conscious mind is out to lunch, so we may be called to release an old pattern or habit that is fueled by the black and white thinking of our past. Emotional energy may be fixated on the past- holding up, holding on, holding back. The energy of Scorpio calls us to break down to break through. There may be intense emotions related to this release. It may be a time to reach out, get support and ask for help.

Best.

Slowing down

Alert from Fishgirl that the Saturn is reaching the point where Venus went retrograde. As a result, Taureans and Librans are burning the candle at both ends and something, somewhere will give. It could be an accident, things breaking down or a breakdown. For me it is my heater. So boring, so I won't even go there.
I am burning the candle though, juggling, whilst on a tightrope and calling the fourth at the greyhounds. I know it makes no sense but then neither does my life at the moment.
It is crazzzzzyyyy and funny at the same time. Just as I get rid of one thing another creeps up on me. I remind myself to take it slow, check and double check and push through. I have blown out the candle at one end and I know that this too will pass.

Waiting for the moment

I let it go and then I wait. This is my lesson. As a forceful and driven person, I like to "make it happen" but not everything comes to fruition, even though I do what I can to bend the will of the Universe.

The Universe is stronger than I and she pops me back in my chocolate box. "Sit, be patient" she whispers to me in my in dreams, sending me symbols to interpret when I awake. My symbol this week has been moths. Moths have featured in this blog before, having made an early appearance on my journey. Moths symbolise moving towards illumination, enlightenment and conscious transformation. The Moth is attracted to the flame, just as the soul is attracted to the light. But like Icarus, sometimes we fly a little close to the flame and these singings are our trials. With every burning comes new growth and more fertile fields.

This weekend I have to let go of something I wanted to happen. I wanted it very much but it was not Meant to be. The Universe has popped me back into my box and so here I sit. Waiting.
Waiting till I am ready.

And so it is.


“We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” Joseph Campbell

Your number is up

I profess to know little about numerology. I like it but it doesn't speak to me like astro or tarot does. Thus I am also happy to learn from others who know more and genuinely love their interest.
This new blog is a bunch of fun and interestingly bought me a syncrodestiny moment today involving a bee. I shan't bore your with my bee story, this reference is much more interesting, so link and read away.

Meanwhile, amazing dreams last night involving washing lines, pink towels and the tips of dogs ears that turned into moths.
Interpretation: Hanging out my emotional dirty laundry, cleansing myself with love, my guardian and protectors giving me messages and in turn transforming me.
Not sure I feel transformed but certainly had a better day today.

What's going on?

“It's spring fever.... You don't quite know what it is you DO want, but it just fairly makes your heart ache, you want it so!”

Mark Twain

Pensées Privées

Parfois je suis si fatigué et parfois je me demande si je suis égal ici. Je me demande ce qu'est mon contrat dans le monde et comment et si je l'accomplirai. Je remets en cause mes choix et où je suis aujourd'hui. Quelques jours, je me demande si je suis aussi terrible que je pense que je suis. Je me demande si les gens savent dur je travaille pour le faire se produire pour nous, pour eux.

D'autres jours, quand le soleil brille et jazz dans le jeu sur mon stéréo de voiture il semble que la vie ne peut pas obtenir d'améliorer. Quand j'ai nulle part pour aller mais où je veux, un plein réservoir d'essence. Un livre pour lire au soleil. Argent à la banque et choix qui sont les miens seul à faire et extraire. Un déjeuner solitaire avec un magasin et aucun horaire. Baisers et compliments, amour et sexe. C'est quand la vie est bonne.

Il est tout au sujet du reflux et l'écoulement, reflux et écoulement.

Plans awry

Scorpio Sister is back in hospital unexpectedly. So my Friday night spent was sitting bedside at RMH, as she has no one in town and as a sister this is my job. This is what family is, sitting pushing doctors for answers, as she is too tired to do so herself.
You want me by your bedside when the shit goes down ppl!

I am the least intimidated person I know around doctors. I am not anti western medicine but the best doctors I know, and I know a few, are the ones who allow a measure of miracle into their work and are touched by hope.

I once lectured 100 5th year students at RCH on relating to parents with sick children, it was fascinating, you could see who was going to be the healer or the hero. The heart surgeon or go into sports medicine. One 'rockstar' Doc talked though my speech. A while into it, I stood at the lectern and waited for him, I stood there a full minute before he realised I had stopped. I asked if he was ready and his embarrassed tip of the head told of his acquiescence. I then directed the rest of the lecture to him and only him. Bless. His supervising doctor bought me lunch as he thought it was so funny.

I have seen doctors cry with frustration and joy, I have had them laugh with me and share my hope and joy for many years with my child. They are people and sometimes they are rude and careless with their responsibility but occasionally they are brilliant humans who do what they can and leave the rest up to the Universe. They know when is Enough.

Thus last night, when I questioned and cajoled, argued and fought for my sister, with my velvet tracksuit as my only armor, the registrar looked at me with such dislike that I laughed out loud in his face. I said, "You are never going to see me again, so hate me, some do, but most want me on their side for this very moment that we are now having. So do your job and look after my sister and stop treating her like she is interrupting your evening."

As he swung around in his pale blue scrubs and crocs [god I hate those shoes!] I waved and sang "Goodbye."Just like Doris Day.
He scowled but later my Sis rang to say she got everything she needed.

I am donning my tracksuit again to board my invisible plane and get back in bedside for when she comes out of surgery. Hope Doc is there, could be fun, I love a battle and with Jupiter, Neptune and Scorpio in my 4th house [home and family] nobody trifles with me when it comes to my loved ones.

Dreams

Deep emotions are always so intensely felt in dreams, they often knock me slightly the day after I have them.

Love however is the most divine feeling to have in a dream, I have had a few dreams in my life where I have loved, so deeply, intensely and perfectly that it was heartbreak to awaken. I tried to lie with my eyes tightly closed to stay there, in dreamland.

Once I dreamed I was in Maine, looking at autumn leaves and antiques with a man I have never met, the feeling between us was not earthly. I have not been to Maine, I have not met this man yet I wonder, past life, future life? Not this life. I still think about this dream years later. I think I traveled there, in the astral, and met him under the changing leaves. I knew that I had to go back at some stage, it was moment in time that never really existed.

All my girlfriends admit to these dreams and concur with my hesitancy to move on while I am in dreamland. I wonder if men dream about strange women this way or is it just sex dreams?: )
Do men awake and say, "I dreamed last night I loved more deeply than I have ever felt in this lifetime and my soul is somehow changed. Does this love exist on earth?"
Ha, I am funny!

The Way

This evenings moon looks like the moon in this painting, "Evening Mood". My Pisces Son said stated 'The moon is upside down."

My evening mood has me thinking tonight about my lessons in business. I am writing a massive business proposal and have another begging for my attention, yet I am easily diverted with my thoughts and with men dancing on television. There is something so sexy about men who can dance but I digress in this dress.

My lesson in business in no particular order:

1] Don't try and change someones personality, if they are nutters then let them go with the least ripples possible. You are their employer not their therapist.

2] Know as much as you can about your finances. Hope is not a strategy.

3] If you like the person in a meeting and they like you, chances are you will work together.
Try to make yourself as likeable as possible!

4] Doubt means Don't.

5] When you lose then there is ALWAYS a bigger reason, trust in this.

6] If you have so much then give something back to the Universe. There is a reason you have it, so don't hang onto it.

7] Love what you do and everything will fall into place.

8] Let go of your ego at work. Together we all make it happen, it does not depend on one person.

9] It should be easy when you talk to people you work with. Easy, peasy, lemon squeezy!

10] It's just a job. Nobody lies on their deathbed and thinks about their career. They think about love, whether they had it, have it, want it, need it. Love.

Intuit this

The Fire Starter Leo at work was freaking out at my powers of perception today. I think most of us are perceptive but few of us voice it for fear of being burnt at the stake. Intuition in business is all you have to base your final decision on after all the talking and number crunching.
Every time I denied my intuition I rued the decision. Your gut talks and so listen.

Rally

The dog rallied and has bought some time from the Handsome Vet.
This Virgo moon has some powerful healing energies I tell ya. Stories pouring in from peeps with new of miracle healing and changes in attitudes.
I love a new moon, with all its possibilities and potential.

More than anything

Yes, it is September 11th and a new Moon in Virgo and a solar eclipse.
Time for a healing perhaps?
I asked myself what has changed globally since 9/11? Not a lot, still bombings and hysteria and Bush in power. Time for a change perhaps? No judgement, no praise, just observing.

I am nursing my dog at the moment who looks unsure whether she will last the week out. She is fighting us and the vet and rallies periodically through sheer will and determination. Thinking about euthanising her has been too hard a decision to make, so the vet said that he will make it for me.

I keep thinking about Holiday the family dog in The Lovely Bones, when he reunited with his beloved owner Susie in heavan. Il était très regrettable.

The Secret Life of Me

This is my confession.
Sometimes, when I read about a person with a certain level of celebrity doing something, interesting, amazing or wrong then I like to look at their astro charts. Sometimes its a car crash, like Britney and other times it the incredible ride that is the life of Kate Walsh at this moment.

For the uninitiated, Kate Walsh is a star of Grey's Anatomy, who got a role as the ex- wife of the spunky lead doctor. The viewers were supposed to hate her. They didn't. They lurrrvved her! They loved her more than the heroine, with her pinched face and her sinusitis, affected twang.

So now, Ms Walsh has got her own show, a spin off from Grey's Anatomy and is suddenly married after finding her soul mate after a few months. When you know, you know huh?

Well, I did her chart a good 6 weeks ago after seeing her Hollywood Land house in a magazine. She is living the life and loving it I tell ya! I was so fascinated with her rise from transvestite on CSI Miami to super sexy hetro TV gal. I have not seen this sort of a trajectory since George Clooney went from being Jacquie's boss in Roseanne to the stud doc on E.R.

I let my confession out tonight, as I just read in a magazine that she ponders where her good luck is astrological as she is turning 40 in October.
Well, she is right! From March this year till January next year she has Neptune trine Sun = dreams becoming realities. Bless this transit, it sure is nice.
She also has Jupiter trine Jupiter in December- I suspect she will be in the Blessed state by then. The stars are on her side, no point fighting it!

See, sad huh?
We all have our secrets. No judgement , no praise.

Baby love

Four of my girlfriends are in the blessed state, including my partners in all things pagan, The Piscean Princess and Blessed Seraph. The Blessed is blessed. It has a certain ring to it.

So today, for a diversion from writing, I decided to go on the hunt for matching blue and pink outfits for the first babies to be born in 2 weeks. Such fun I had at my fave childrens' wear shop! I emerged with outfits for all, including the the twins 2 year old sister. There were birds and butterflies, dots, pirates. cottons, wools and silks. Ribbons and bows, and buttons. So many options and such fun sorting through them all.
I have kept small outfits for each of my children when they were babies. Little things for them to share if they have children.

Spring is coming and so are the babies. I see pregnant women everywhere at the moment. Blooming , beautiful and smug in their weariness as the time moves towards the birth day. Their smile holds the secret of what is to come, their babies inside them, sitting under their heart, safe and protected. The pregnant women knowing in what we perceive to be unknown. They know what's going on, what really matters. There is no one more connected to Spirit than a pregnant woman.

I shall share the best pregnant poem I know with you. My sisters most loved poem.

Woman to Man
The eyeless labourer in the night
the selfless, shapeless seed I hold,
builds for its resurrection day -
silent and swift and deep from sight
forsees the unimagined light.

This is no child with a child's face;
this has no name to name it by;
yet you and I have known it well.
This is our hunter and our chase,
the third who lay in our embrace.

This is the strength that your arm knows,
the arc of flesh that is my breast,
the precise crystals of our eyes.
This is the blood's wild tree that grows
the intricate and folded rose.

This is the maker and the made;
this is the question and reply
the blind head butting at the dark,
the blaze of light along the blade.
Oh hold me, for I am afraid.

 -- Judith Wright

Well done me!

I am a good cook, sometimes even great. It's all about the Taurus and Cancer ascendant.
Sometimes I will put a meal in the freezer and later, when I am at home, too lazy to head out to eat, I will dig around and find the pleasure of food past.
Todays find was a Spring Vegie and Lamb Risotto. It was good. I was happy that I cooked it once and thrilled to find it today.

Coming Home

Yes, I have been away with the fairies, literally. Locked down with work and book looming over me. Highlights have included lunch dates with Blessed Seraph and The Contessa. Always good conversation from both ladies.

I have been fully committed to Wayne Dyers 6 CD set, There's a Spiritual Solution for Every Problem, which is playing in my car. I usually do a Wayne or Deepak CD when I am going on a long drive, where I can listen without interruption.
I have been a little disconnected lately and thought listening to Wayne might help me board the astral plane. So, with no long daytrips planned, I have had to do a little bit of Wayne listening time everyday. In the morning for 20 minutes, in the evening for 30 mins.

What is happening in between the AM and PM car trips is astonishing. These small listening times have enabled me to process what I have absorbed for those moments in the car.
I am taking a few topics at a time and have started to understand more than ever before.

As a Student of the Universe, as The Good Doctor calls me, I often overstimulate and hyper-educate myself but I don't take the time to process and apply the knowledge. I have had more connection and signposts this week than I have had in the longest time, not since I was at the start of my journey.

The astonishment and the joy is back. The surprised feeling, combined with the deep knowing when signs and syncrodesstiny connect to the bigger picture and I still have 3 CD's to go.

I might just pop up the shop for a KitKat and a quick dose of Wayne.......

Open Garden

Blessed and I were talking about Facebook and the fact a friend of ours updates their profile every hour or so. I will never need to speak to her again since she updates when she is bathing, drinking or even weeping. Like any new techie fad, I jumped on board early but soon fell of the wagon, as I am wont to do. It also violates my code of overusing the word 'friend'. We are not friends, only friendly acquaintances. Keep it real!

Blessed pointed out that Facebookers equates popularity by how many 'friends' they have. This is true of the younger Facebookers, I believe. They become lifelong buddies on Big Brother or hug desperately in the semifinals of Idol.
They are the generation of "Insta-Friend. Just add water!"

For me and Blessed and others of our generation, we want longer conversations, deeper thoughts and a suggestion of caring. Not a virtual, private walled garden where only the special few can share the spoils.
Maybe its the socialist in me, but I am more for sharing my love and light in a public way.
It reminds me of the classic story by Oscar Wilde, The Selfish Giant.
The first book I ever cried at when I was 9 years old.

Open your garden, share your love and light and lose the selfish and the ego gene.

Expose yourself

I have recently bought some pretty amazing artwork for the walls in my office.
Creativity supporting the creativity that comes out of the business.
The first one went up yesterday to sighs from all of us standing around for the great unveiling.
I have more going up on the walls in the next few weeks.
I met with an artist last week, from whom I have bought an amazing painting. We talked about the art being in peoples spaces and how the artist will never know what different works mean to the people who have them hanging in their lives.
The silent, visual language of the artists intention is an honour and a responsibility to have on my walls. To stand in an artists studio, with them nervously presenting their works is humbling. As I left she said thankyou as I handed her a cheque. I stopped and touched her arm and said, "No the honour is mine. Thank you for parting with your a little of your Spirit and Soul and allowing me to have this in my life."

All true artists, whether they know it or not, create from a place of no-mind, from inner stillness.
::: Eckhart Tolle

Between the shadow and the soul

The eclipse tonight brings changes. I am already seeing them happen around me.
The weak are so vulnerable in this phase. Where there are breaks that have healed, the eclipse threatens to snap them exposed once again. The emotional wounds will weep with a type of deeply felt pain that only memory brings.
It is because of the moon that some so tender at this time. Emotions, faith, spirituality and bringing what lies in your souls shadow up to the light. Whatever is lurking between your soul and your shadow will rise to the top begging for attention.
No decisions should be made till after an eclipse.
Tomorrow threatens to be emotional but with a dash of epiphany and insight.