Allegory for August

I am about to launch the fabulous book. It looks amazing and I am immensely proud of it. Everyone who touched it has left their impression on it and for that, it is better than I ever imagined.
The website through which I'll sell the book is special also. It is filled with all the things I want to have at work each day. Daily inspiration, humor and beauty. I will mail all who have registered for their copy of the book, once it is ready to send out. Should be in about one week. Exciting and humbling.

This, however, is tempered by difficult times at work. I am comforted by the fact it is not anything we could have predicted. It is not a staff issues. I have the best team I have ever had.
It is entirely a situation that is out of my control and more a global economic issue. I am careful to not fall into scarcity mindset. There are timing delays, that is all and we will, as we always do, catch up.

It is so, so important that you release the fear. When you release the stress and the worry and fear then you can hook back into what you it is you desire. Releasing the fear clears the path.
Of recent times I have not been able to see the path from the amount of vines and undergrowth that has overwhelmed it.

My job is to respect and honour what has or hasn't come my way lately. I have to learn from it so I can clear the path. How, why and when did these choking vines grow, I ask myself ?

I let them grow because I was spending all my time fearing the path ahead. Worrying about the bears (real or imagined) in the forest. I was so busy looking around me I stopped to keeping my eye on the path in front of me. The yellow brick road that leads me to my own Emerald City - enlightenment.

It is so important we stay on the path. The experiences, people, challenges and opportunities that you meet on this path are there to teach and give you something that will enable you as you head towards your own Oz. The secret is to stay on the bloody path!

So, tonight I am back on the path. A little worn, a little dusty and dirty but I have my scythe and I am clearing the vines. My path is my life's journey. I have been disconnected as I have wandered into the forest.

Tonight on the phone, my lovely Gandalf guided me home. Bringing me back to the safety of the yellow bricks and I now I am headed in the right direction. The only tools I need are my courage, wisdom and heart.

Thank you and goodnight. See on the yellow brick road.

Moon is in Leo

Moon in Leo can bring out your inner child.
My inner child is raring today with some virus and a case of me wanting to call a 'waahbulance.'
Weekend has been given away to 3 events, none of which I am truly thrilled about. A work function, a breakfast and a dinner at which I could get burned at the stake for my beliefs. In the very least, I will be spoken badly of behind my back. Ah yes, good times ahead. Must remember to wear garlic or other strong perfume.

And the beat goes on.

Open wide

Sometimes when things are tough and seem not to be going your way this is because the Universe is shifting things to be able to bring you what you want. Sometimes, the Universe will bring you things that you didn't even know that you wanted until they land in your lap.
I think of it like getting braces. The tiny adjustments can be painful and but the tightening is actually straightening it all out.

Looking back on my life so far, there is nothing that I hasn't eventually worked out. There is no bad times, just hard times and the hard times come with pushing for a better life.
There is only ever one things I would change in my life and it is not about me, it is for my daughter. I want things to be different and easier for her and that thought is with me often, not everyday, but often it is with me throughout the week. Her hard times are always with her and noone but her and I know how hard is is for her at times, throughout her growing up.

Perspective of what is hard and what is just transitional is vital.

Bitch pleaz!

Changed my new sunglasses to different ones as dreamed last night that Gandalf told me the new ones made me look like Elvis in his latter years. Was served by Scott, who had a wall eye and a complex about said eye. He sighed after I had tried on one pair! 'One pair Scott', is what I said. Get over yourself and your outlook on life cut me some slack bitch! Then I tried on as many as possible as I am a pedant and wanted Scott to know he had not got the better of me.

Scott and I became friends. Once we were on enemy lines. Now we love. He caved when I choose the ones he recommended. Scotts my main 'mo now. Snaps Scottie!

Tried to coax Blessed into wagging with me after said eyeshades incident. No dice. She was always more studious than moi at school. I stood in the centre of the movie complex and thought about what movie I wanted to see.

Saw nothing but guilt.
Hauled my arse back to work.

Feeling poorly.
Gonna go home.

A new kind of thrill

Having spent the weekend interstate, I am feeling a little displaced this morning at work. My weekends are vital to my recharging, so today I am showing a low fuel gauge.

As I get older, I am more aware of how much I need structure in my life, almost like a baby.
For me, now, it's all taking care of myself. When did I become a fuddy duddy grown up? I cannot remember a time or place when this event occurred. I only know now that I cannot get on the 'tear' without making myself and all around me suffer beyond belief.
It is not that I judge those who do get on the 'tear' around me, its just that I can longer do it. The thought me having to spend this week recovering and thus holding me from doing all the things I want and have to do, with grace and enthusiasm is enough of a personal preventative.

Talking with the Witty Art Connisseur at the airport yesterday, she told me of her decision to abstain as she knew she had so much work to do this week. Ah yes, I share that decision also.
Now, so much less makes me thrilled.
A clean house. An empty washing basket. Bills paid. Friends at a dinner table. Healthy children. Sleeping children. Holding hands. Kind words. A good book. My lemon tree filled with new growth. Loyalty. Love.

I may be boring to some but I am happy with the little moments and god knows its taken me a long time to get here!

Me - woman

I think it is so easy to become disconnected. When we are in the everyday, feeding children, washing, running households, we easily can get unplugged from the Source. The Source within and around us.
Our intuitive wild selves are always reignited when women spend time with each other.
The best and only way for women to reconnect to the Source is through each other. The energy connection lights the fires within us and we suddenly have perspective and context for our anxieties and worries.
I often pray at the Altar of Worry and it is always the women who get me though.
I have wonderful women friends and last night I spent some much needed hours with a few of them.
I defy any group to laugh as we did last night. Sure, there was wine. There was antipasto and Chris Rock jokes. There were memory lapses of events attended in the years past, only to be howled down that I was in fact there. (I still don't remember btw!)
Conversation swung from raising children to the distant horizon of personal freedom.
Glasses touched over the exciting news of my books progress and squeals as the precious copy handed round. Joy and magic as my cards were pulled giving me joy. I felt so incredibly grateful for the love and support I received from the ladies. Yes, I am recharged.
I am.

Do ya wanna dance?

So, we get all prepared for this big ol' meeting. Massive. We spent 2 weeks on the presentation. I wore makeup and a new knit. The Fire-Starter had her sexy shoes on. Gandalf was rocking a pink shirt.
The only trouble is we were not expected. Yep. crickets were singing in the background. Tumbleweeds rolling through the board room. It was like our prom date had not turned up and we were desperate and dateless. (Their diary had not been updated correctly or something like that!)

I tried hard not to be shitty. Finally we were seen. I spoke upfront and asked if we were wasting peoples time, mostly ourselves. Nope, apparently it was all good. After that the meeting went swimmingly. Honest and upfront. Keeping it real. Keeping it like us.

If they want us after that then we have a chance of making it work. Sometimes the best relationship start out with a spanner thrown in the works. I think it is the universe testing what we would be like together under duress? How we would behave on Survivor Island together?

I don't know the answer to that yet. If they ask us to dance then at least we will know each others groove. If they don't then best want to dance with us, we know it is because we will step on each others toes.

Anyway, in the very least, I got a new knit out of it.

Thorn in the paw

The Lunar Eclipse is asking us to leave something behind. I urge you to let go of something, because if you don't, then the eclipse will make you let go of something and when the stars interfere then it is always brutal. It's the thorn in the paw of the Lion (Remember we are in a Leo Sun.) See above.

Eclipse is partial and on Sunday at 7.19am.

Sun is in Leo
Moon is in Aquarius
It's the war of Ego vs Detachment.
It is up to you who wins.



In my tired grump at lunchtime today I took myself off for a think about what I needed to let go out of my sweaty, emotional grasp. So many things. Really!
I will be shell of my former self if I let all my special/nutty features go but I decided to lose 3 things that are giving me the shits about myself. My lucky number 3.
I will cement these tomorrow when I can remember what I thought about. They seemed so clear this arvo.

Ah, well. Maybe I let go of my memory.


Fight the brave fight my peeps.

Emo Chaser!

The energy has shifted so dramatically at work, I cannot believe it. The drought of this first part of the year, which has drained our spirits have suddenly been replenished and the manna from heaven is starting to fall. Well, in the very least the smell of manna is in the air. Fresh baked mannaloaf waiting to come down and fill our table.

I am always so impressed by the people I work with. Today the energy and intention was so positive and excited and supportive I could barely contain myself and I wanted to jump up and yell, "Group Hug." But that would have been shameful and they may have beaten me down and then resigned. In fact, I nearly called for my own resignation at my lame-arsed, Emo management style!

Blessed told me I was an 'Emo Chaser' for my obsession with the Olympics. She is right of course. She usually is right when it comes to her opinion of me. That's why I love her and hate her in equal part at different times. That's what makes us such good friends, we say it like it is and have to eat it up as it's dished out.
I AM a massive Emo Chaser. It's how I recharge. I blame my Moon in Pisces.
I love to see/watch/listen to people feel.
I am creepy.
I like to feel.

Waiting again

Mercury and Mars have moved into my 2nd house and it was all go, go , go and now its waiting!
Opportunities everywhere and I have to be zen and see which ones come my way. I am patient. I have waited this long, so I will wait some more.

I don't mind waiting sometimes. It is nice to have hope in the wait, but detached hope, if that makes sense. The possibilities in the waiting are wonderful. This could be the moment, the time it all comes together and everything falls into place. Who knows?

I know people say we should attack and make it happen but you cannot change freewill when other people make decisions. When you have done all you can and are happy with your performance you have to let go. Be in the gap. Be present and let go of what you want to happen and accept that the Universe has your back.
It will take care of you.

"Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known.' Carl Sagan

Twinkle, twinkle little quantum cell particle

I am all about writing the content for my new website for the Spiritual Business book at the moment. It is SO the website I want to visit everyday. I wrote the book and built the website simply because they did not exist yet and I wanted them to. Why? Because I was supposed to bring them into existence.
We all have this ability. Be it through art or sport or finding money for people who are in need.
We create because we can.
Now, quantum physics is hard to understand. I read a great quote from a scientists once who said that if anyone tell you they understand quantum physics probably doesn't understand a damn thing about it. Such is the complexity and everchanging nature of it, but this much I understand.
In quantum physics, particles are always manifesting something, somewhere. There is a teeny tiny little particle of energy waiting for you to attach your intention to it like a wagon to a train engine. The potential for this little 'quantum train-ride' is unlimited, as unlimited as your dreams.

So for a moment allow youself to go into the field and wait for the particle to attach itself to you.
Come back and nurse the particle, the hope, the dream the glimpse of potentialthat you know is yours to create and fulfill.

Happy manifesting my darlings.

Manifesting tip 1 from Yoda

Get off the couch!
Do something!

It always makes me think of someone Blessed knew years ago who wanted to be one of those retire by 40 years of age types. One particular day she walked past his bedroom and he was in bed reading a 'Ten Steps to Retiring Young and Rich' at 1pm on a weekday.
She stood in his doorway and yelled, 'Step one - get out of bed!'
Good point, she should be a life coach. Telling it like it is!

It is not enough to want, one must do.

Yoda and Out!

Mandy?

Still no movement on The Manilow Code.

Waiting for Godot

For weeks I have been waiting for good news. Anything will do. Any sort of good news.
I have spent too long waiting or news that has not come. Today, while I walked the dog, I decided to let go of the waiting. I cannot hasten good news. Perhaps there is none for me in the Good News bank at the moment.
This is the paradox of spirituality and creating your own life. Do I have to create my own good news?
Have I received good news and not recognised it as I did not believe it first?
Ah, the questions are endless and I find it puzzling, deeply puzzling.
This is why I have decided to be all about the manifesting. I create the good things in my life. I am the source of all that is wonderful and amazing. I am making good news happen baby!

P.S Still trying to bust The Manilow Code, thought I had it last night but not so sure today.

The Manilow Code

How's the manifesting?
Today I had a syncro moment with Barry Manilows ballad - Mandy. Not sure what that's about.
Also asked for a star park at Borders so Changeling could buy her newly released Vampire book and suddenly a women ran out and jumped into her car, which I was next to and left. STARPARK!
I am making miracles happen baby!

Small steps, but am waiting for big ones soon.
Still trying to understand wtf Barr Manilow means in my life.

Bippity, boppity, boo!

Time to dust of your manifestation wand my friends. For the entire month of August I am going to be focusing on manifesting, wanna join me?
I did some spectacular work last Wednesday night and since then things have been going well. I had forgotten to plug in my manifesting wand. It needed charging and it seems to be better than ever.

So to get things started.

1) Write down everything that is shitting you about your own life. What is giving you the pip right now? e.g. I am always a stress bunny!

2) Now write out in present tense what your life looks like as if you have conquered these bugbears. e.g. I am chilling like a snow cone!
Make the description snazzy! You want this life, don't hold back.

3) Get rid of the depressing list. Throw it away, tear it into little pieces and let the winds carry it away, burn it and let the air transmute the energy into something great. Do anything, just get rid of it.

4) Read your fabulous life list twice a day or even more. Whenever you freak out or freak in, then read your future. You create it lovelies.

5) Speak positively about your direction and life. Even if you tell no one of your secret manifesting plans then at least be positive. You get more bees with honey. Don't send away great things with negative energy.

6) Believe in your list and the way you want your life to be. Don't limit yourself, others are only too happy to do that for you!

7) Say thank you. To anyone. The latte wench in the morning. The bus dude. Your mum. Your partner. Your pet. The person who created Project Runway (my obsession). Whomever who makes a difference to you life.

This is Augusts theme. Let me know how you go and happy manifesting my friends!