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Reverse

Fish Girl and I shared lunch and thoughts yesterday.

We talked about her early learning of that which cannot be reversed.
We all learn at some moment in our life that here are things that happen or are said that you cannot reverse.
For some it happens too young. The death of a loved one. An accident that changes everything. I pondered on this subject this morning and I thought of people I know who learned this lesson too early. People who have grown with the legacy of 'final' in their hearts forever.
I know some folks who have not yet been introduced to this harsh and heavy realisation. It is coming. It comes for all of us. Noone is exempt.

I learned mine at 18. I have a friend who learned hers at 6. Another friend at 7. My daughter learned hers at 3.
It is an important lesson though. One which you cannot avoid so accept it is coming if it is not yet come for you. There are somethings that you cannot take back, cannot change and cannot undo.
I know there is not a thing I could have done differently for my lesson. Except maybe spent a few minutes longer on the phone that night the last time I spoke to her. Told her I loved her, what an amazing friend she was. How there were few others that accepted and loved me, foibles and all.
But I didn't know those words to tell till after she was gone. In learning the lesson, I understood her importance in my life. How her decision would shape my path and sit quietly in my heart forever. There is not really a week that she doesn't pop in my head. Most days she comes back to remind me, tell me off, comfort me and love me.

But I cannot reverse it.

It cannot be undone.

Now the lesson is to accept.

555 the number of love

Yesterday it was the number 444 casing me, today it is 555. The number of balance and harmony. Interesting as I move towards the end of one of the biggest experiences in my life, beside having children and making a commitment to my Gandalf. I am beyond freaking myself out now. I trust. The energy at work at the moment is gorgeous. The best ever in the history of the business. It is warm and loving and so, so very funny. Now, I just have to pull the work in for these talented and amazing people. i will do it. It always comes through. I have to finish this project first and clear the energy highways. Sometimes the universe clears your plate for you and whilst it may seem difficult at the times, the more you trust the more it makes sense. There is no way we could have hit our deadline with a crazy amount of other work on. It stopped and went on hold so we could finish. We are close. the website launches next week and I will start to sell my books online. They are already in some stores, with it being launched into major stores next week. Wow, wow, wow!

From Here to Quaternity

Jupiter and Pluto both go direct this week and next after nearly 6 months of contraction from these two planets.
Hallelujah! I felt the shift today. Amazing times!

For the last 8 weeks I have been followed by the number 4.
I see 4's on everything. 4.44pm is a usual time for me to look at the clock. The amount of syncro I have had with 4's is crazy and disturbing. It is beyond a pattern. I was so afraid of the 4.
I would panic whenever I saw it. I asked the universe what it meant. No meaning until today. The message came as my books came up the stairs.

It was so clear I couldn't even believe that I was ever afraid. Jung was fascinated with the number 4. In fact, some folks claim he did to the number 4 what Freud did for sex.

Jung belived the number 4 to be an ordering number. a number that puts everything in its place.
It is the number of completion. Four is the number of creations. Everything comes from the number 4. It is the number of manifestation. Idea + Believe + Create + See.
There are 4 elements in astrology, four seasons, four directions on a compass, it is the only number in the English language for which the letters in its name is equal to the number itself and 4 nobles truths in buddhism.

Jung likened the number 4 to the mandala. Moving from individualtion to whole. The four segments that make up the mandala.
Interestingly the front of my book has a mandala on it. It has come together. It is complete.

Final note: I was watching a show about Nostrodamus tonight. I googled him and learnt his predictions were over a 444 year period.

And so it goes.

What a hoot

These are the owls I saw in a 30 minute period this morning after a successful Spiritual Business meeting this morning. The owls never fail me. They show me I am on my yellow brick road.

Owls show you your way through the dark. Their night vision goggles work a treat for those who seems a little lost in the woods. Owls bring symbols and messages. Owls are my friend.

Here are my pictures of the owls I saw this morning.

The owl is my totem and for that I am protected.

Allegory for August

I am about to launch the fabulous book. It looks amazing and I am immensely proud of it. Everyone who touched it has left their impression on it and for that, it is better than I ever imagined.
The website through which I'll sell the book is special also. It is filled with all the things I want to have at work each day. Daily inspiration, humor and beauty. I will mail all who have registered for their copy of the book, once it is ready to send out. Should be in about one week. Exciting and humbling.

This, however, is tempered by difficult times at work. I am comforted by the fact it is not anything we could have predicted. It is not a staff issues. I have the best team I have ever had.
It is entirely a situation that is out of my control and more a global economic issue. I am careful to not fall into scarcity mindset. There are timing delays, that is all and we will, as we always do, catch up.

It is so, so important that you release the fear. When you release the stress and the worry and fear then you can hook back into what you it is you desire. Releasing the fear clears the path.
Of recent times I have not been able to see the path from the amount of vines and undergrowth that has overwhelmed it.

My job is to respect and honour what has or hasn't come my way lately. I have to learn from it so I can clear the path. How, why and when did these choking vines grow, I ask myself ?

I let them grow because I was spending all my time fearing the path ahead. Worrying about the bears (real or imagined) in the forest. I was so busy looking around me I stopped to keeping my eye on the path in front of me. The yellow brick road that leads me to my own Emerald City - enlightenment.

It is so important we stay on the path. The experiences, people, challenges and opportunities that you meet on this path are there to teach and give you something that will enable you as you head towards your own Oz. The secret is to stay on the bloody path!

So, tonight I am back on the path. A little worn, a little dusty and dirty but I have my scythe and I am clearing the vines. My path is my life's journey. I have been disconnected as I have wandered into the forest.

Tonight on the phone, my lovely Gandalf guided me home. Bringing me back to the safety of the yellow bricks and I now I am headed in the right direction. The only tools I need are my courage, wisdom and heart.

Thank you and goodnight. See on the yellow brick road.

Moon is in Leo

Moon in Leo can bring out your inner child.
My inner child is raring today with some virus and a case of me wanting to call a 'waahbulance.'
Weekend has been given away to 3 events, none of which I am truly thrilled about. A work function, a breakfast and a dinner at which I could get burned at the stake for my beliefs. In the very least, I will be spoken badly of behind my back. Ah yes, good times ahead. Must remember to wear garlic or other strong perfume.

And the beat goes on.

Open wide

Sometimes when things are tough and seem not to be going your way this is because the Universe is shifting things to be able to bring you what you want. Sometimes, the Universe will bring you things that you didn't even know that you wanted until they land in your lap.
I think of it like getting braces. The tiny adjustments can be painful and but the tightening is actually straightening it all out.

Looking back on my life so far, there is nothing that I hasn't eventually worked out. There is no bad times, just hard times and the hard times come with pushing for a better life.
There is only ever one things I would change in my life and it is not about me, it is for my daughter. I want things to be different and easier for her and that thought is with me often, not everyday, but often it is with me throughout the week. Her hard times are always with her and noone but her and I know how hard is is for her at times, throughout her growing up.

Perspective of what is hard and what is just transitional is vital.

Bitch pleaz!

Changed my new sunglasses to different ones as dreamed last night that Gandalf told me the new ones made me look like Elvis in his latter years. Was served by Scott, who had a wall eye and a complex about said eye. He sighed after I had tried on one pair! 'One pair Scott', is what I said. Get over yourself and your outlook on life cut me some slack bitch! Then I tried on as many as possible as I am a pedant and wanted Scott to know he had not got the better of me.

Scott and I became friends. Once we were on enemy lines. Now we love. He caved when I choose the ones he recommended. Scotts my main 'mo now. Snaps Scottie!

Tried to coax Blessed into wagging with me after said eyeshades incident. No dice. She was always more studious than moi at school. I stood in the centre of the movie complex and thought about what movie I wanted to see.

Saw nothing but guilt.
Hauled my arse back to work.

Feeling poorly.
Gonna go home.

A new kind of thrill

Having spent the weekend interstate, I am feeling a little displaced this morning at work. My weekends are vital to my recharging, so today I am showing a low fuel gauge.

As I get older, I am more aware of how much I need structure in my life, almost like a baby.
For me, now, it's all taking care of myself. When did I become a fuddy duddy grown up? I cannot remember a time or place when this event occurred. I only know now that I cannot get on the 'tear' without making myself and all around me suffer beyond belief.
It is not that I judge those who do get on the 'tear' around me, its just that I can longer do it. The thought me having to spend this week recovering and thus holding me from doing all the things I want and have to do, with grace and enthusiasm is enough of a personal preventative.

Talking with the Witty Art Connisseur at the airport yesterday, she told me of her decision to abstain as she knew she had so much work to do this week. Ah yes, I share that decision also.
Now, so much less makes me thrilled.
A clean house. An empty washing basket. Bills paid. Friends at a dinner table. Healthy children. Sleeping children. Holding hands. Kind words. A good book. My lemon tree filled with new growth. Loyalty. Love.

I may be boring to some but I am happy with the little moments and god knows its taken me a long time to get here!

Me - woman

I think it is so easy to become disconnected. When we are in the everyday, feeding children, washing, running households, we easily can get unplugged from the Source. The Source within and around us.
Our intuitive wild selves are always reignited when women spend time with each other.
The best and only way for women to reconnect to the Source is through each other. The energy connection lights the fires within us and we suddenly have perspective and context for our anxieties and worries.
I often pray at the Altar of Worry and it is always the women who get me though.
I have wonderful women friends and last night I spent some much needed hours with a few of them.
I defy any group to laugh as we did last night. Sure, there was wine. There was antipasto and Chris Rock jokes. There were memory lapses of events attended in the years past, only to be howled down that I was in fact there. (I still don't remember btw!)
Conversation swung from raising children to the distant horizon of personal freedom.
Glasses touched over the exciting news of my books progress and squeals as the precious copy handed round. Joy and magic as my cards were pulled giving me joy. I felt so incredibly grateful for the love and support I received from the ladies. Yes, I am recharged.
I am.

Do ya wanna dance?

So, we get all prepared for this big ol' meeting. Massive. We spent 2 weeks on the presentation. I wore makeup and a new knit. The Fire-Starter had her sexy shoes on. Gandalf was rocking a pink shirt.
The only trouble is we were not expected. Yep. crickets were singing in the background. Tumbleweeds rolling through the board room. It was like our prom date had not turned up and we were desperate and dateless. (Their diary had not been updated correctly or something like that!)

I tried hard not to be shitty. Finally we were seen. I spoke upfront and asked if we were wasting peoples time, mostly ourselves. Nope, apparently it was all good. After that the meeting went swimmingly. Honest and upfront. Keeping it real. Keeping it like us.

If they want us after that then we have a chance of making it work. Sometimes the best relationship start out with a spanner thrown in the works. I think it is the universe testing what we would be like together under duress? How we would behave on Survivor Island together?

I don't know the answer to that yet. If they ask us to dance then at least we will know each others groove. If they don't then best want to dance with us, we know it is because we will step on each others toes.

Anyway, in the very least, I got a new knit out of it.

Thorn in the paw

The Lunar Eclipse is asking us to leave something behind. I urge you to let go of something, because if you don't, then the eclipse will make you let go of something and when the stars interfere then it is always brutal. It's the thorn in the paw of the Lion (Remember we are in a Leo Sun.) See above.

Eclipse is partial and on Sunday at 7.19am.

Sun is in Leo
Moon is in Aquarius
It's the war of Ego vs Detachment.
It is up to you who wins.



In my tired grump at lunchtime today I took myself off for a think about what I needed to let go out of my sweaty, emotional grasp. So many things. Really!
I will be shell of my former self if I let all my special/nutty features go but I decided to lose 3 things that are giving me the shits about myself. My lucky number 3.
I will cement these tomorrow when I can remember what I thought about. They seemed so clear this arvo.

Ah, well. Maybe I let go of my memory.


Fight the brave fight my peeps.

Emo Chaser!

The energy has shifted so dramatically at work, I cannot believe it. The drought of this first part of the year, which has drained our spirits have suddenly been replenished and the manna from heaven is starting to fall. Well, in the very least the smell of manna is in the air. Fresh baked mannaloaf waiting to come down and fill our table.

I am always so impressed by the people I work with. Today the energy and intention was so positive and excited and supportive I could barely contain myself and I wanted to jump up and yell, "Group Hug." But that would have been shameful and they may have beaten me down and then resigned. In fact, I nearly called for my own resignation at my lame-arsed, Emo management style!

Blessed told me I was an 'Emo Chaser' for my obsession with the Olympics. She is right of course. She usually is right when it comes to her opinion of me. That's why I love her and hate her in equal part at different times. That's what makes us such good friends, we say it like it is and have to eat it up as it's dished out.
I AM a massive Emo Chaser. It's how I recharge. I blame my Moon in Pisces.
I love to see/watch/listen to people feel.
I am creepy.
I like to feel.

Waiting again

Mercury and Mars have moved into my 2nd house and it was all go, go , go and now its waiting!
Opportunities everywhere and I have to be zen and see which ones come my way. I am patient. I have waited this long, so I will wait some more.

I don't mind waiting sometimes. It is nice to have hope in the wait, but detached hope, if that makes sense. The possibilities in the waiting are wonderful. This could be the moment, the time it all comes together and everything falls into place. Who knows?

I know people say we should attack and make it happen but you cannot change freewill when other people make decisions. When you have done all you can and are happy with your performance you have to let go. Be in the gap. Be present and let go of what you want to happen and accept that the Universe has your back.
It will take care of you.

"Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known.' Carl Sagan

Twinkle, twinkle little quantum cell particle

I am all about writing the content for my new website for the Spiritual Business book at the moment. It is SO the website I want to visit everyday. I wrote the book and built the website simply because they did not exist yet and I wanted them to. Why? Because I was supposed to bring them into existence.
We all have this ability. Be it through art or sport or finding money for people who are in need.
We create because we can.
Now, quantum physics is hard to understand. I read a great quote from a scientists once who said that if anyone tell you they understand quantum physics probably doesn't understand a damn thing about it. Such is the complexity and everchanging nature of it, but this much I understand.
In quantum physics, particles are always manifesting something, somewhere. There is a teeny tiny little particle of energy waiting for you to attach your intention to it like a wagon to a train engine. The potential for this little 'quantum train-ride' is unlimited, as unlimited as your dreams.

So for a moment allow youself to go into the field and wait for the particle to attach itself to you.
Come back and nurse the particle, the hope, the dream the glimpse of potentialthat you know is yours to create and fulfill.

Happy manifesting my darlings.

Manifesting tip 1 from Yoda

Get off the couch!
Do something!

It always makes me think of someone Blessed knew years ago who wanted to be one of those retire by 40 years of age types. One particular day she walked past his bedroom and he was in bed reading a 'Ten Steps to Retiring Young and Rich' at 1pm on a weekday.
She stood in his doorway and yelled, 'Step one - get out of bed!'
Good point, she should be a life coach. Telling it like it is!

It is not enough to want, one must do.

Yoda and Out!

Mandy?

Still no movement on The Manilow Code.

Waiting for Godot

For weeks I have been waiting for good news. Anything will do. Any sort of good news.
I have spent too long waiting or news that has not come. Today, while I walked the dog, I decided to let go of the waiting. I cannot hasten good news. Perhaps there is none for me in the Good News bank at the moment.
This is the paradox of spirituality and creating your own life. Do I have to create my own good news?
Have I received good news and not recognised it as I did not believe it first?
Ah, the questions are endless and I find it puzzling, deeply puzzling.
This is why I have decided to be all about the manifesting. I create the good things in my life. I am the source of all that is wonderful and amazing. I am making good news happen baby!

P.S Still trying to bust The Manilow Code, thought I had it last night but not so sure today.

The Manilow Code

How's the manifesting?
Today I had a syncro moment with Barry Manilows ballad - Mandy. Not sure what that's about.
Also asked for a star park at Borders so Changeling could buy her newly released Vampire book and suddenly a women ran out and jumped into her car, which I was next to and left. STARPARK!
I am making miracles happen baby!

Small steps, but am waiting for big ones soon.
Still trying to understand wtf Barr Manilow means in my life.

Bippity, boppity, boo!

Time to dust of your manifestation wand my friends. For the entire month of August I am going to be focusing on manifesting, wanna join me?
I did some spectacular work last Wednesday night and since then things have been going well. I had forgotten to plug in my manifesting wand. It needed charging and it seems to be better than ever.

So to get things started.

1) Write down everything that is shitting you about your own life. What is giving you the pip right now? e.g. I am always a stress bunny!

2) Now write out in present tense what your life looks like as if you have conquered these bugbears. e.g. I am chilling like a snow cone!
Make the description snazzy! You want this life, don't hold back.

3) Get rid of the depressing list. Throw it away, tear it into little pieces and let the winds carry it away, burn it and let the air transmute the energy into something great. Do anything, just get rid of it.

4) Read your fabulous life list twice a day or even more. Whenever you freak out or freak in, then read your future. You create it lovelies.

5) Speak positively about your direction and life. Even if you tell no one of your secret manifesting plans then at least be positive. You get more bees with honey. Don't send away great things with negative energy.

6) Believe in your list and the way you want your life to be. Don't limit yourself, others are only too happy to do that for you!

7) Say thank you. To anyone. The latte wench in the morning. The bus dude. Your mum. Your partner. Your pet. The person who created Project Runway (my obsession). Whomever who makes a difference to you life.

This is Augusts theme. Let me know how you go and happy manifesting my friends!

Perfect Eclipse in Leo Metaphor = Letting Go!

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Here's the thing

I am tired of negative astrology talk! There is ALWAYS a positive part to any placement or transit. That is what is brilliant about astrology, there is good and hard. Notice I did not say bad, only hard. The hard transit is what forces us to change, be more truthful and honest.
This is why I love Robert Wilkinson. He keeps it real. Astrology for the evolved.
I think it is irresponsible to think of astrology anyway but as an opportunity to grow ointo the person we are supposed to be.

This afternoon I wrote a tender. I swear it was all I could do to not play with the stars. Lots going on at the moment in the skies.

There is a Solar eclipse on the 1st of August. A sexy, craxy eclipse that falls in the sign of Leo. A new moon and an eclipse.
Have a look at where Leo falls in your chart and ask for celestial assistance in this area of you life. Expect movement, letting go, endings and transformation.

Bring it on bring it on, bring it on.

Hey you up there!

Sometimes you can feel the engine whirring and the cogs turning at a metaphysical level. You know there are things happening out there for you but you are not yet ready to know about them.
I feel that way at the moment. I can feel things happening in the ether yet I do not know what they are. I know they are good. I am know I am excited. I know.

Meanwhile, I sit and I trust.
I surrendered yesterday with a few tears to the Goddess Bookkeeper. Tired and detoxing from everything bad in my life, I was clearly at a low point. No judgment, no shame. I just needed a quick weep with the Goddess and I was right as rain today. In fact, I had a great day. I laughed.
I worked on good things. My new Spiritual Business website is nearly ready to launch and I tell ya it looks the biz! It's 'dead posh' and I frankly could not be a happier little human.

Of course dear ones, I will let you know if anything eventuates. Just thinking about the possibilities makes my head tingle. The thing about expectation is to NEVER imagine what it will look like. Why? Because it will look nothing like you imagined. Kinda like love.
If you think you know what is coming and only look for that then you will deny yourself other opportunities and wonderful things. The best days have been when I happenstanced across something or someone.
My Gandalf came to me that way. One minute dropping of a video (yes, it was the 90's) and next minute meeting the man who was The One!
I think that is why we are better are seeing opportunities when we are younger. We have fewer expectations.
Expect nothing and you will never be disappointed.

Right time to climb off my high horse.

Later.

Heave, ho!

Balance at work is important. I think of the business like a boat.
You need people to make sure that the vessel is moving forward with the right weight on the right side, so as to not get maximum speed and momentum and not capsize and sink!
I have struggled to get the right balance for a while. I was wondering yesterday why it seems so hard, and realised it was because we were dragging and plodding through the water, not churning it up and riding the waves. Why? Because the balance wasn't right!
The balance seems right now, so we are sailing into new seas.
Wish us luck!

Listen up peeps

A week off. Thus I will be blogging here instead.
My blog about transforming a house into a home.

Later.

Get up lazy head!

Today was my last day doing 3 jobs of late. It took all I had to crawl to work this morning, I didn't want to go. So much for being Spiritual, huh?
I wonder if great leaders ever feel that? (Not, BTW, that I consider myself a great leader!)
No, really. Does Nelson Mandela ever say- 'Nah I'm going to take a doona day'.
Did Marie Curie ever say, 'No work for me today! I am going to eat brioche and paint my toenails.'
Do captains of industry have a sick day?
Well, this Captain of a small industry wanted to wag so badly it hurt. Gandalf pushed me out the door wth one stern look. I snarled at him and ended up having a pretty good day. In my heart, I knew I had to go. I had to finish what I started and put a full stop on the last few weeks.

Today was historic in a number of ways. Clarity came to visit on the back of the new moon. Calmness, perspective and lots and lots of laughter again at work!

I am happy I worked today.

No more drama

So here's the thing. What you focus on is what you get. Today I made the conscious choice to only focus on what we have, not what we have lost.
I feel good. I am good. It's all good. Good.

Turning down the drama dial takes courage and no better time to take arms and fight the drama than now with the New Moon in Cancer. No more drama and create some emotional boundaries, goddamit.

Today I have the loveliest interactions with women all day. From all the gorgeous Goddesses I work with, to dear friends who called me or rang me for no particular reason: The Contessa, The Scribe, Fishgirl, The Grecian Goddess, The Good Doctor and a surprise phonecall from a lovely Sydney friend of a friend. So special.
Sometimes it is the women in our lives who are the icing.
They all made me feel much loved.
I love it when peeps contact me for no reason other than 'Wat up?' I don't trust chicks with no friends. Women are the reason.

No more drama in our lives!

Greenlights ahead

Hilarious day. This morning started with beyond crazy. Puppies pooing in bedrooms, lost sports uniforms and a car that would not start. I just stood and laughed at the chaos. Moved to the office for an early morning work session, where I fought with a network cable and got a nasty paper cut and a bump on the head for my troubles. All through it, I laughed.

Next was a staff 'love in', with Chinese massages and a banquet at the best Chinese restaurant in town as a celebration of how bloody fabulous we are!

We left early to take the Piscean Son to a party, Gandalf lost his credit card, I lost the car. We picked up the 'Pooing Puppy' who has lost his mind from being alone all day. Went back to the restaurant to pick up the credit card, pick up the Pisces Son and came home for some valium. I swear, it is crazy.

Days like this can make you feel like the world is against you unless you know it is change in motion. I have been asking to get into the 'green light' mode all year. To be into the flow. Finally it is shifting. I know the crazy in my day today is due to our world turning. Turning so slowly, things are a little all over the place. I know we are heading in the right direction, every sign tells me so. My laughter reminds me that none of it is to be taken seriously. We are merging into the fast flow lane and we its green lights ahead.

Blow me down

The wind blew and kept me awake all night. Awake at 5am, I decided to stop lying in bed thinking about all I had to do and just get up and get to it. The day though, started anxiously and went straight to crazy, with two stops at dramasville.
Tough transits today, which has made many of us feel lost in transit. Fire signs in particular seemed to have water thrown on them trying to dampen their spirits. Although Water signs too have copped it today. Ah shit, maybe all the elements copped it.
Ended the day on good news. Had some lovely news yesterday also.
Two days of good news takes some of the pain away. Some but not all. Massages and divine Peking Duck tomorrow with the team should ease the rest of the pain away.

Later.

Soulstice Music

I have a new computer, as I have stated before. I have named her Juno. I like that name, I wanted to name my daughter Juno, now it is associated with a pregnant teenager. I am glad I didn't.
Juno is the Roman Goddess of Marriage. I did an invocation to Juno at Blessed and Ram-Beaus wedding.

Tonight I merged all the photos I cold find on disc or hard drive. A perfect Winter Solstice project. All my music also has come across. I love pictures and music. Such a Taurus.

The magic was thick in the air today. I saw mystery and sparks of brilliance with people all day.
The Solstice brings us magic and wonderment.
It is time to honor the solar year and walk into light. Not surprisingly the 'biz' was doing major cleanup and changes today. Perfectly perfect. Letting go of what did not work and walking towards our future.

Monday it all culminates towards the best year ever for our business. I feel it in my heart. We know where we are going. We have the right team. We have let go of what did not work and what was never going to work and instead are focused on our blindingly bright future.


So mote it be, peeps!

Full Moon Awareness

The Moon was full in Sagittarius today.
A great time to do something different. anything. Give yourself a challenge, take a risk or die, is the theme of the day.
I managed to stop the chattering monkey talk and get some work done. The Sag moon helped me to complete some seriously big tasks today. Well done me!

I wrote the Firestarter and Gandalf a missive tonight about the top ten things that have shifted over the last 2 weeks. I Meant every one of them

Meanwhile, I have a new computer which is exciting, but I shall wait till the weekend to play and upload, until Mercury is really going forward.

I had a fascinating lunch with Fishgirl yesterday, which has given me food for thought.
Great conversations, as usual, things that make you go hmmmm.

More later, when the busy gets ordered.

Shut the hell up!

The book went to the printer on Friday and I promptly lost my voice. I am done. Nothing more to say on that one. Quite symbolic and wretched, since I had The Good Doctor to say and we could talk under setting concrete. Ah well, we just had to talk via our Jedi mind powers. Perfect.
At least it was the Good Doctor and I did not feel I had to entertain. I wore my tracksuit all weekend except for a pleasant interlude at Blessed and Ram-Beaus, from which I went back into my tracksuit again.
I did spend 2 hours online with the divine Fishgirl who talked with me via messenger about all sorts on the weekend. Amazing conversation. Gotta love a water sign. They are my fave elements.

Meanwhile, interesting conversation with The Good Doctor about keeping our thoughts in the middle. Somewhere between optimism and pessimism. It shall be hereafter known as 'reality'. The test is whether you apply positive or negative thinking to the reality you are experiencing.
Your thoughts are like a boomerang, whatever you send out comes right back into your reality.

Might as well make them positive thoughts, huh?

Advice from a caterpillar

* Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some
days you're the statue.

* Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in
case you have to eat them.

* Always read stuff that will make you look good if
you die in the middle of it.

* If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to
be vague.

* If you lend someone $20 and never see that person
again, it was probably worth it.

* It may be that your sole purpose in life is
simply to be kind to others.

* Never put both feet in your mouth at the same
time, because then you won't have a leg to stand on.

* Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up
and dance.

* Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the
bird, sleep late.

* The second mouse gets the cheese.

* When everything's coming your way, you're in the
wrong lane.

* Birthdays are good for you. The more you have,
the longer you live.

* You may be only one person in the world, but you
may also be the world to one person.

* Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.

* We could learn a lot from crayons. Some are
sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names,
and all are different colours, but they all have to live in the same box.

*A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the
scenery on a detour.

Lemonade anyone?

Today I am grateful for:

My daughter, who is safely tucked up on the couch
Being able to come home and take care of her
My husband ,who holds the fort
My son, who is safe at school
My business, that always helps me learn and looks after me
My health
Opportunities, realised and still coming
Love
Loving
My cardigan
My slippers (yes, I sound 100 and today i feel every year of it!)
The colour of the pear trees leaves as they turn.
My brain with which I can plan and solve
My book being close
The Good Doctor winging her way towards me.

Coasting

I have been out of the flow all year at work. There are many reasons why, they are not important to this post but, now I am not. It is green lights ahead for me and the business.
All day, 'syncromoments' with Eagles. Now I find out that the symbolic meaning of eagles is connection and raising your level of consciousness. Spiritual vision. Nice one!

I am beyond busy at work but so happy as I can see what I always hoped for the business this week. Small things are making large differences. Finally the business is in the flow, in every sense of the word.

Soar on.

Neptune sux in Uranus

Mercury is retrograde, hence crazy arse techie dramas. Neptune, the planet of illusion and magic went retrograde at the end of May. For those who don't know, this means that the energy is kinda reversed. Illusion going backwards.
Magic can turn on you and basically things are not what they seem. Its the ol' Wizard of Oz- "Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain "scenario.
Uranus went retrograde also. Uranus the planet of Power. Uranus going backwards gives us lesson on how to live an authentic life.
As a perfect lesson for Neptune Mercury and Uranus going backwards, on Sunday night, I wiped 11 years of photos from my computer, never to be seen again. All my childrens' pictures, my friends children, wedding, parties, anything!
The grief was palpable. Yes, I cried. I cried at my own stupidity and my lack of backing up. I cried for all the times I thought I should have backed up and didn't. Neptune teaches us to not attach to anything we see, material things. Mercury made my computer go haywire and Uranus? Well, Uranus is just a shit.
The planets were trying to teach me that memories are the real photos. The feelings, the love not the pieces of paper with images burned on them.

Still....I should have backed them up!
Neptune sux in Uranus!

Looming Moon

The Dark Moon hung over the biz this morning, like a thunder cloud. It was hard to rein in the disappointment and the murky perspective. 'Time to refocus', I called in the morning meeting. 'Time to be robust. Time to be resilient. Time to learn. Time to let go'. All perfect for a balsamic moon period. I was born under a balsamic moon, so the concept of surrender is easily understood. There is only so far you can push before you have to let go. Hence, the Gary Larson cartoon above.

Thankfully a meeting with the Divine Mrs Underhill, took some of the pressure off. God, she makes me laugh. A perfect friend in every way. Interested in everyone, funny, kind and always with a snazzy accessory. I spent a lovely birthday lunch with her and Blessed. Finer company you could not find, than with the two funniest women I know.

There is a new Moon in Gemini on Wednesday. A great time to commit to new plans, particularly creative plans. Also, personal plans are supported by Gemini, so dust of your action plan and wish list. What was it you wanted to do? Paint? Write? Sing? Decoupage? Embroider? Learn to play the harp? Felting anyone?

Geminis are the most the creative of all the signs. So harness your creative spirit to the Moon and see where it takes you. We are capable of amazing things, if we allow ourselves to find out what they are.

Rules of the Game

Today we lost a game. Losing hurts sure, but I was damn proud of how we played. A new team, new ideas and a new level of skills have been required.
Everyone put in 100%, so I am proud of the score. We lost by only a one point, we will win next time.
I spoke at length to the fire starter about the practise required. These small pitches have only been the pre-season games. The real season starts on the 1st July and we will be ready!

Moon is in Aries, thus the fire in the belly.

Bring it on, bring it on, bring it on!

Last call from the Moon Goddess

Last quarter moon. Time to let go. What is it you need to release?
If you are into casting magic, then now is the time to do you banishment spells. ( If you are getting rid of unwanted house guests, for example, always try to send them somewhere nice).

This is a perfect time in business to look at the last few weeks and see what is working. Think about where you want to put your attention and energy when the new moon come to light.
Look over your action plans, did you get done what you hoped over this last cycle ?
Now is not the time to start new projects, particularly with the Mercury Retrograde energy. Instead look at old projects that you have not finished. Use this energy to gently revisit, without guilt or shame and see your plans are still relevant to you now.



P.S A candle meditation is always lovely during this phase of the moon.
( Also a glass of wine or other relaxer of choice. No judgment , no praise, whatever gets you through the night.)

Mercury Retrograde sux in the Uranus

Too funny. I swear Mercury retro throws things up when we need to get the hell on with it, forcing us to reflect and process and wait.
Yesterday, I tried to get my digital/connective issues at home sorted. Another month, the little techie hobbit told me. Of course, why would I even try to do this before then? Mercury is taking care of it for me.
Word from the skies is, don't make any serious decisions right now. No, really. If you have to make one then cross your fingers.
I having trouble with what to write about. Neptune is giving a me a serious case of the illusions.
I have nothing to say and everything going on.


More later if something brilliant comes.

Merc alert

No, I do not mean the car, I mean the planet. Mercury is going backwards on the very day I am trying to negotiate a contract. I should just stall. I wonder if I can do anything to offset it ?

Meanwhile, in the thick of it at HQ! Looking for a rock star at work! Hard to get but great when we do! Then we will be ready to tour the world!

Pop on your party hat!

It is my birthday and Full Moon in Scorpio to boot. My Moon is opposing Saturn, which requires me to do nothing. Stay protected and have a good long think as to why every year I feel lonely and isolated on my birthday.
Why? Because every year bloody Saturn opposes my Moon.
Ha!
I used to be envious of those who could have a festival for a week on their birthday.
Now I know that this is not for me in my chart. My birthdays are about lessons. About shining a light on what I have learned over the past year.
My astrological birthday was actually yesterday, when my sun conjunct my sun. So today is actually only my calendar birthday. This makes it easier. I felt like I got away with my birthday and no one knew. Now I get to work on my book and lunch with The Contessa and Blessed. Perfect!

The Full Moon today is in Scorpio. Usually a notoriously hard times for Taureans.
Scorpios are about own their merde. They never blame, instead probably self blame a little too much.
Using this energy, this is a great time to look at what you want to change about yourself?
Perfect, if you are having a birthday!
There are lots of people using the phoenix rising from the ashes as a metaphor. I think of it has losing everything you own and possess in a fire. Who would you be? What would you wear? Are you being true to yourself ? Give yourself a chance to start again.

The Scorpio Full Moon gives you an opportunity to be this person. Even if you make one change, one truth.

Let the Scorpio Moon set you free.

I am going to think on this. Where am I not living my truth?
I may or may not get back to you on this. Depending how ugly the Scorpio truth!

Playing nice in the sandpit

Venus ( love and good times) is doing wonderful things in our skies, making it a super, duper time to have meetings. Venus is sharing some gorgeous energy with Jupiter (luck) and Uranus
(power).

If you are planning to talk turkey with someone or shake your money maker then hop to it peeps. Now is the time to make it happen!
Think group hugs without the awkward silence after the release.

I have so many things to do I am laughing at the ridiculousness of it all. I have piles of papers around me in a quasi-managed state. What I have to next is write my list of priorities. One of them was to blog, of course. No, I do not have time to do this post but without it I would be chasing my tail all day. This is like a promise to myself.
I want to walk out of today satisfied that I am on top of my worklife.

So I embrace the challenge and with the power of the planets on my side, I cannot fail.
So I will, in this order:

• Get a coffee
• Write a list of what I have to do
• Write next to them the dates I want them done by
• Get a move on!
  

That old devil Chiron

Chiron is a shit. No, really!

Chiron was a centaur ( half man- half horse), who, unlike the other centaurs was a righteous dude. He knew all sort of things about medicine and astrology and was also a parttime soothsayer.
Chiron and the other half horsies were wounded in the leg with a poisoned arrow during a battle over raw foods and organic wine. (This is my version and I am sticking to it!)
Chiron gave up immortality so he could save the god Prometheus, the god of fire. This is celebrated in astrology with the constellation of Sagittarius.
Yadayadayada.

Chiron in astrology symbolises the wound that we come to this lifetime with. Depending on where it is placed in your chart. In which house, which aspect and which signs, Chiron can make you hurt in places you didn't even know you had!
Today my Moon opposed my Chiron. Of course it did. My Sun, Saturn and Chiron are all holding hands and stirring up shit. So all the old wounds reopened and every little crappy thought, fear and nagging voice, came up and said "Hi!"
Good times huh?
My chart said it was half the day. I got through this morning with ease, thinking I had waited it out in my lovely home. But no! It was the second half of the afternoon when Chiron came and bit me in my Moon!
Seriously you name it, I went there this afternoon!
And then suddenly it stopped. There was peace. And the birds sung again.

Chiron is our greatest wound. The void that remains unfulfilled within us. The half man half horse who represents the human and animal that dwells within us. It is through these voids that we seek out the values that define our lives. These values are what fuels our drive towards our destiny. Once we live that destiny then we are living on purpose and doing the Plan right!
So in fact, without these Chiron wounds inflicted on us then we would not push ourselves to heal. When we heal, we make our unconscious conscious and then we get onto our path in life.
I could crap on about Chiron being the dichotomy between senses and heart, time and space and unconscious and conscious. But what I really want to say is...

Chiron is a shit.

Chop wood, carry water

Seriously, before enlightenment chop wood and carry water. after enlightenment, chop wood and carry water.
I thought about this yesterday, while I lay in an operating suite waiting for a minor procedure to get underway. As I stared at the rows of tapes and gauzes and wondered about enlightenment. Enlightenment did not stop me from under the knife. Enlightenment was not currently topping up my bank balance. Enlightenment was not going make a dinner when I got home and put the washing in the dryer. So, Enlightenment means what, exactly?
Bliss?
Understanding we are all part of the microcosm and together we are amazing?
A collection of cells in a petri dish thinking we are better than all the other cells out there in other petri dishes?

Choosing to be conscious of our experience can be tiring. Always trying to put together the signs and the 'accidents'. Trying to remember what we did last time when in hard times and trying to process it faster , so as to get through the experience better.
I mentioned recently to someone that there is a part of me that was envious of those who never questioned. Those who lived unconsciously. Accepted the news and the TV. Accepted less than they deserved and accepted living with their fears, day in and day out.
Yet, I know I would rather be as I am. Questioning. Out of line. Stirring the pot and setting my own bottom line.

Buddha says that the greatest gift we can give to others is our enlightenment. This is what I try to do with this blog. Share with my readers my small steps towards my bliss. Each step I take,
I move towards something amazing inside me. Unveiling part of myself and popping it like a house plant, into the sunshine. Shining the light on my darkest self has been enlightenment.

As I sit in my study, staring out at the glorious day. I am thankful for health, love and laughter and most of all I am thankful for the chopping wood and carrying water. The Vietmanese activist and Monk wrote that 'There is no enlightenment outside of daily life.'
He is right. He is a monk. Who am I to argue? Just lying on the table yesterday gave me time to ponder. Pondering has bought me to this post. This post has bought me to understanding this - I am always learning. I am always trying to do better wherever I can. I am flawed. I am perfect.
I am.

So are you.

Off to chop wood and carry water.

The New Moon

The New Moon has washed onto shore new challenges and new opportunities on our shore. This is why I have been off the radar for a few days. I have many, many things happening at the moment, all of it wonderful and crazy.
I read a quote today from Michael Gerber, author of The E-Myth that inspired me,

"The difference between great people and everyone else is that great people create their lives actively, while everyone else is created by their lives, passively waiting to see where life takes them next. The difference between the two is the difference between living fully and just existing."

No chance of that happening to me anytime soon. When we had a large opportunity taken from us earlier this year, that thew all our plans into array, we chose to face it down and take action. There was no way that this moment was going to define who we are and what we wanted to achieve as company.

So now, here we are in the middle of the all the hard work from us staring down the drama of the beginning of 2008. Naturally, all the work has come in at once and this is a contest in itself. So we have taken the dare, placed our bets and rolled the dice.

Let the cards fall where they may.

Support

Conversations with The Archer at work about how we only exist as a unit. We are much more powerful as a company, when we all pull together. This togetherness allows us to be able to move forward as a collective in the desired direction. Working together requires understanding and trust. I always happy for independent initiative but not with the exclusion of thinking about others in the team.

The Archer and I wondered if it was immaturity as he, Gandalf and I are the old people in the building. Maturity cannot be forced. Sometimes people are not ready and the readiness can only come with age.

Maturity is what makes you react with the appropriate emotion or behaviour to what is happening around you. We all have lapses when we revert. Certain emotions can force reverting and the inner child reappears. Nothing triggers old childhood wounds and shitty behaviours like workmates who drive us potty. I suppose because we cannot always choose who we work with. Workmates can have as much as an affect on us as our family can have, another set of relationships we can't choose.

Maturity comes in different ways and in different guises. Anytime you are responsible for something, someone, then you begin to mature. Especially if things do not always go according to plan.

I am off to mother as Gandalf is at the coalface.

What did you say?

Embrace the Moon in Gemini and talk your way out of it.
The Moon in Gemini enables you to communicate. What is it you want to talk about? Is there a conversation that you need to have? Want to have? Should have?
Draw down the Gemini moon and speak your truth.

Side effects of a Gemini Moon are: Swinging wildly from conversation to conversation. Flirting. Lack of direction. Ants in your pants.

The Moon is in Pisces and all through the Genie bottle......

Whenever the Moon is in Pisces the dreams are more potent. Last night I dreamed Blessed was a fully functioning, out of the broom closet witch. Blessed wrote me a spell and she told me that the way to bring magic into your life is to ask the energy to stand by your side. Not to have it behind you or in front of you but to invite it to walk with you on your journey.

Then Blessed got into her giant oyster shell, closed it and I woke up.
There also seemed to be many special FX in the dream, like a Stevie Nicks video clip and Blessed was wearing a green 'I Dream of Jeannie' outfit, like Jeannies naughty sister. It made sense in the dream. It always make sense in the middle of the dream.

Makes sense as I think about it. Will hold run it up Blesseds' flagpole and see what flies.

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I spent time with the Fire Starter at a new business pitch today. Interesting. We were relaxed and fabulous. I realised when we left that it was not actually as to whether we could do the work for the client but in fact whether we would enjoy working with each other doing the project.
Everything in business is built on relationships. We can find anyone that can provide a particular service but we want the relationship that leaves the least marks. The connection where feel understood and taken care of. That is what we want in any relationship, business or personal. To be protected.

I also wouldn't mind a clay sculpture of myself, like Lionel received from his blind
potential lover/student. I wonder if he told her that she made him look like a character from the Harlem Globetrotter cartoon. Probably not, then he wouldn't be able to dance on the ceiling with her or whatever metaphor Lionel has for 'relationship connection'.

Meanwhile, Venus enter Taurus tomorrow. Venus is the natural home of Taurus so expect all relationships to become easier and more special. Taureans desire harmony and stability so do something to honour the skies.

Tell someone you love them, spend time in art galleries or in nature - somewhere that surrounds you with your idea of beauty or make someone a clay sculpture of themselves like Lionels girlfriend did for him.


Hello and goodbye.

Being a leader can be a bitch

The new puppy has had a session with a dog trainer. I was a little distracted at the beginning as he reminded me of Harlan Pepper from 'Best in Show', so for the purposes of this post, I will hereafter refer to the trainer as 'Mr Pepper.'

What I liked about Mr Pepper, was his no nonsense approach to training dogs and his theory and understanding of wolf pack behaviour. Mr Pepper explained to me that a dog will naturally step up top the leaders podium if no one else in the house takes the position.
However, being a leader is stressful and a leader with no real responsibilities becomes a stressed out dog with crazy arse behaviors. This is what happened to my last dog. Sure we loved her but we let her be the boss and then created and continued outrageous dog neurosis.

In the pack, the Alpha dog, who becomes the leader is not the biggest or the strongest, but in fact the calmest and the most alert. The strongest one is usually the Beta dog, the wingman of the Alpha dog. I was thinking about this in relation to leading a business or being in a leadership position in a company. Often, the ones who are the worst leaders are the ones who can't handle the responisbility. Or those who don't have any real power to be responsible, so they act out and chase their tail and snap and growl at others in the pack.

The lowest in the pack is the Omega dog, the court jester of the pack, the one we all laugh at and who we allow to eat last. I hope there are no Omegas in my company. I know of Omegas in other organisations, though. Omegas are important, they keep the team spirit us, hence my need to hire people with a sense of humour!

Mr Pepper explained that being the Alpha is hard and the whole survival of the entire pack depends on the Alphas knowledge and cunning. It's future forward thinking and protection from outside dangers. I understand this feeling. It is hard being the leader at times. Sometimes I feel weighed under from the responsibility to keep the cogs turning, the running on the mouse wheel can be very, very tiring.

When times are good and the caribous are running then we can play but when the famine comes then the leader has to make hard decisions. The weakest and most vulnerable must be left behind. The strong eat first and there are no new puppies to join till the grass is green again. Exactly the same in business. We have made some hard decisions over the last 12 months, but we know now that the caribou and moose are running again and so I am confident for a comfortable winter.

I am off to howl at the moon.