Ashes to Ashes

The Good Doctor from WA suggested that my melancholia regarding my birthday is actually related to the parts of myself that I need to reconcile regarding any dashed hopes and dreams that I thought I would have achived by this number that is bearing down on me.
Coming to terms with not being a rockstar or a tennis pro or an actor or anything else that you may have hung onto. Mine is not a career but a feeling, I am coming into a certain age and I wonder if I am ever going to feel a certain way about myself.
I need to release this into the ether and let go and accept what I have and who I am.
So mote it be.