Rules of the Game

Today we lost a game. Losing hurts sure, but I was damn proud of how we played. A new team, new ideas and a new level of skills have been required.
Everyone put in 100%, so I am proud of the score. We lost by only a one point, we will win next time.
I spoke at length to the fire starter about the practise required. These small pitches have only been the pre-season games. The real season starts on the 1st July and we will be ready!

Moon is in Aries, thus the fire in the belly.

Bring it on, bring it on, bring it on!

Last call from the Moon Goddess

Last quarter moon. Time to let go. What is it you need to release?
If you are into casting magic, then now is the time to do you banishment spells. ( If you are getting rid of unwanted house guests, for example, always try to send them somewhere nice).

This is a perfect time in business to look at the last few weeks and see what is working. Think about where you want to put your attention and energy when the new moon come to light.
Look over your action plans, did you get done what you hoped over this last cycle ?
Now is not the time to start new projects, particularly with the Mercury Retrograde energy. Instead look at old projects that you have not finished. Use this energy to gently revisit, without guilt or shame and see your plans are still relevant to you now.



P.S A candle meditation is always lovely during this phase of the moon.
( Also a glass of wine or other relaxer of choice. No judgment , no praise, whatever gets you through the night.)

Mercury Retrograde sux in the Uranus

Too funny. I swear Mercury retro throws things up when we need to get the hell on with it, forcing us to reflect and process and wait.
Yesterday, I tried to get my digital/connective issues at home sorted. Another month, the little techie hobbit told me. Of course, why would I even try to do this before then? Mercury is taking care of it for me.
Word from the skies is, don't make any serious decisions right now. No, really. If you have to make one then cross your fingers.
I having trouble with what to write about. Neptune is giving a me a serious case of the illusions.
I have nothing to say and everything going on.


More later if something brilliant comes.

Merc alert

No, I do not mean the car, I mean the planet. Mercury is going backwards on the very day I am trying to negotiate a contract. I should just stall. I wonder if I can do anything to offset it ?

Meanwhile, in the thick of it at HQ! Looking for a rock star at work! Hard to get but great when we do! Then we will be ready to tour the world!

Pop on your party hat!

It is my birthday and Full Moon in Scorpio to boot. My Moon is opposing Saturn, which requires me to do nothing. Stay protected and have a good long think as to why every year I feel lonely and isolated on my birthday.
Why? Because every year bloody Saturn opposes my Moon.
Ha!
I used to be envious of those who could have a festival for a week on their birthday.
Now I know that this is not for me in my chart. My birthdays are about lessons. About shining a light on what I have learned over the past year.
My astrological birthday was actually yesterday, when my sun conjunct my sun. So today is actually only my calendar birthday. This makes it easier. I felt like I got away with my birthday and no one knew. Now I get to work on my book and lunch with The Contessa and Blessed. Perfect!

The Full Moon today is in Scorpio. Usually a notoriously hard times for Taureans.
Scorpios are about own their merde. They never blame, instead probably self blame a little too much.
Using this energy, this is a great time to look at what you want to change about yourself?
Perfect, if you are having a birthday!
There are lots of people using the phoenix rising from the ashes as a metaphor. I think of it has losing everything you own and possess in a fire. Who would you be? What would you wear? Are you being true to yourself ? Give yourself a chance to start again.

The Scorpio Full Moon gives you an opportunity to be this person. Even if you make one change, one truth.

Let the Scorpio Moon set you free.

I am going to think on this. Where am I not living my truth?
I may or may not get back to you on this. Depending how ugly the Scorpio truth!

Playing nice in the sandpit

Venus ( love and good times) is doing wonderful things in our skies, making it a super, duper time to have meetings. Venus is sharing some gorgeous energy with Jupiter (luck) and Uranus
(power).

If you are planning to talk turkey with someone or shake your money maker then hop to it peeps. Now is the time to make it happen!
Think group hugs without the awkward silence after the release.

I have so many things to do I am laughing at the ridiculousness of it all. I have piles of papers around me in a quasi-managed state. What I have to next is write my list of priorities. One of them was to blog, of course. No, I do not have time to do this post but without it I would be chasing my tail all day. This is like a promise to myself.
I want to walk out of today satisfied that I am on top of my worklife.

So I embrace the challenge and with the power of the planets on my side, I cannot fail.
So I will, in this order:

• Get a coffee
• Write a list of what I have to do
• Write next to them the dates I want them done by
• Get a move on!
  

That old devil Chiron

Chiron is a shit. No, really!

Chiron was a centaur ( half man- half horse), who, unlike the other centaurs was a righteous dude. He knew all sort of things about medicine and astrology and was also a parttime soothsayer.
Chiron and the other half horsies were wounded in the leg with a poisoned arrow during a battle over raw foods and organic wine. (This is my version and I am sticking to it!)
Chiron gave up immortality so he could save the god Prometheus, the god of fire. This is celebrated in astrology with the constellation of Sagittarius.
Yadayadayada.

Chiron in astrology symbolises the wound that we come to this lifetime with. Depending on where it is placed in your chart. In which house, which aspect and which signs, Chiron can make you hurt in places you didn't even know you had!
Today my Moon opposed my Chiron. Of course it did. My Sun, Saturn and Chiron are all holding hands and stirring up shit. So all the old wounds reopened and every little crappy thought, fear and nagging voice, came up and said "Hi!"
Good times huh?
My chart said it was half the day. I got through this morning with ease, thinking I had waited it out in my lovely home. But no! It was the second half of the afternoon when Chiron came and bit me in my Moon!
Seriously you name it, I went there this afternoon!
And then suddenly it stopped. There was peace. And the birds sung again.

Chiron is our greatest wound. The void that remains unfulfilled within us. The half man half horse who represents the human and animal that dwells within us. It is through these voids that we seek out the values that define our lives. These values are what fuels our drive towards our destiny. Once we live that destiny then we are living on purpose and doing the Plan right!
So in fact, without these Chiron wounds inflicted on us then we would not push ourselves to heal. When we heal, we make our unconscious conscious and then we get onto our path in life.
I could crap on about Chiron being the dichotomy between senses and heart, time and space and unconscious and conscious. But what I really want to say is...

Chiron is a shit.

Chop wood, carry water

Seriously, before enlightenment chop wood and carry water. after enlightenment, chop wood and carry water.
I thought about this yesterday, while I lay in an operating suite waiting for a minor procedure to get underway. As I stared at the rows of tapes and gauzes and wondered about enlightenment. Enlightenment did not stop me from under the knife. Enlightenment was not currently topping up my bank balance. Enlightenment was not going make a dinner when I got home and put the washing in the dryer. So, Enlightenment means what, exactly?
Bliss?
Understanding we are all part of the microcosm and together we are amazing?
A collection of cells in a petri dish thinking we are better than all the other cells out there in other petri dishes?

Choosing to be conscious of our experience can be tiring. Always trying to put together the signs and the 'accidents'. Trying to remember what we did last time when in hard times and trying to process it faster , so as to get through the experience better.
I mentioned recently to someone that there is a part of me that was envious of those who never questioned. Those who lived unconsciously. Accepted the news and the TV. Accepted less than they deserved and accepted living with their fears, day in and day out.
Yet, I know I would rather be as I am. Questioning. Out of line. Stirring the pot and setting my own bottom line.

Buddha says that the greatest gift we can give to others is our enlightenment. This is what I try to do with this blog. Share with my readers my small steps towards my bliss. Each step I take,
I move towards something amazing inside me. Unveiling part of myself and popping it like a house plant, into the sunshine. Shining the light on my darkest self has been enlightenment.

As I sit in my study, staring out at the glorious day. I am thankful for health, love and laughter and most of all I am thankful for the chopping wood and carrying water. The Vietmanese activist and Monk wrote that 'There is no enlightenment outside of daily life.'
He is right. He is a monk. Who am I to argue? Just lying on the table yesterday gave me time to ponder. Pondering has bought me to this post. This post has bought me to understanding this - I am always learning. I am always trying to do better wherever I can. I am flawed. I am perfect.
I am.

So are you.

Off to chop wood and carry water.

The New Moon

The New Moon has washed onto shore new challenges and new opportunities on our shore. This is why I have been off the radar for a few days. I have many, many things happening at the moment, all of it wonderful and crazy.
I read a quote today from Michael Gerber, author of The E-Myth that inspired me,

"The difference between great people and everyone else is that great people create their lives actively, while everyone else is created by their lives, passively waiting to see where life takes them next. The difference between the two is the difference between living fully and just existing."

No chance of that happening to me anytime soon. When we had a large opportunity taken from us earlier this year, that thew all our plans into array, we chose to face it down and take action. There was no way that this moment was going to define who we are and what we wanted to achieve as company.

So now, here we are in the middle of the all the hard work from us staring down the drama of the beginning of 2008. Naturally, all the work has come in at once and this is a contest in itself. So we have taken the dare, placed our bets and rolled the dice.

Let the cards fall where they may.

Support

Conversations with The Archer at work about how we only exist as a unit. We are much more powerful as a company, when we all pull together. This togetherness allows us to be able to move forward as a collective in the desired direction. Working together requires understanding and trust. I always happy for independent initiative but not with the exclusion of thinking about others in the team.

The Archer and I wondered if it was immaturity as he, Gandalf and I are the old people in the building. Maturity cannot be forced. Sometimes people are not ready and the readiness can only come with age.

Maturity is what makes you react with the appropriate emotion or behaviour to what is happening around you. We all have lapses when we revert. Certain emotions can force reverting and the inner child reappears. Nothing triggers old childhood wounds and shitty behaviours like workmates who drive us potty. I suppose because we cannot always choose who we work with. Workmates can have as much as an affect on us as our family can have, another set of relationships we can't choose.

Maturity comes in different ways and in different guises. Anytime you are responsible for something, someone, then you begin to mature. Especially if things do not always go according to plan.

I am off to mother as Gandalf is at the coalface.

What did you say?

Embrace the Moon in Gemini and talk your way out of it.
The Moon in Gemini enables you to communicate. What is it you want to talk about? Is there a conversation that you need to have? Want to have? Should have?
Draw down the Gemini moon and speak your truth.

Side effects of a Gemini Moon are: Swinging wildly from conversation to conversation. Flirting. Lack of direction. Ants in your pants.

The Moon is in Pisces and all through the Genie bottle......

Whenever the Moon is in Pisces the dreams are more potent. Last night I dreamed Blessed was a fully functioning, out of the broom closet witch. Blessed wrote me a spell and she told me that the way to bring magic into your life is to ask the energy to stand by your side. Not to have it behind you or in front of you but to invite it to walk with you on your journey.

Then Blessed got into her giant oyster shell, closed it and I woke up.
There also seemed to be many special FX in the dream, like a Stevie Nicks video clip and Blessed was wearing a green 'I Dream of Jeannie' outfit, like Jeannies naughty sister. It made sense in the dream. It always make sense in the middle of the dream.

Makes sense as I think about it. Will hold run it up Blesseds' flagpole and see what flies.