Guilty Pleasures!

Wow, what a self indulgent phucker I was this morning! My apologies.
I didn't work today, I spent the day with kidlets and friends with babies.
T'was quite lovely to get away from it all.
I did pop into work in the morning fo 10 minutes with end of financial year gifts for all staff. Tickets to Bourgeois Class at Village for the movie of their choice for them and a friend.
I recently went to see Indiana Jones at the Louvre [ Da Vinci Code] in one of these cinemas [gift]. Gandalf was taken with the Jason recliner chair and his GIANT burger, fries and beer that arrrived right as Paul Bettany was strapping his chicken wire garter on. Tasty.
I struggled with it all till my cupcakes and latte arrived and I just let go of my Trotskyesque archetype and decided to try to enjoy my red faux velvet stained chair and ignore the interesting combination of smells that the hot suggestions and taste plates were creating.
These cinemas, [I can't really call them what they are as they I have issue with the name. Gold is a tragic, call it Platinum if you are serious and Class is a word I struggle with anyway, having none and not belonging to one] should only be attended if given as a gift, that way you see a movie, make fun of it all and secretly enjoy the experience.

Guilty Pleasures are so in right now.

My Guilty Pleasures:

1]Tragic music on ipod including Lionel Richie and Barbara Streisand [some one once told me that Barbara Streisand is like masturbation, to be enjoyed alone]

2] As Time Goes By- BBC UK TV Series. So ghey with Judi Dench and a bunch of no ones except her husband who I can't remember the name of. I turn my brain off when I watch it.

3] Oprah 20 Year Anniversary DVD set- Laugh, cry, makeovers. It runs the gamut my friends.

4] Pierce Brosnan- I know! So utterly predictable. I bore myself.

5] Country Music Video Channel- The film clips always tell a story and I have to find out what happens at the end !


It's a snapshot, not a portrait, no judgement no praise expected.

Admit to them, own them, its quite releasing.

There was a tense aspect betweem Saturn and Pluto yesterday. Explains much about my day. Saturn is the planet of hard work, limitations, giving us strength and knowledge through lifes lessons. Pluto is the planet of plumbing the depths of your soul until transformation occurs.
I started the day with high hopes and finished my working day 16 hours later with painful truths emerging about the business and the changes that must happen to move forward.
Gandalf tried vainly to jolly me out of my funk at 12.40am but I was having none of it. Things have got to change and change fast. This is is where Pluto does its work. Its turns your world upside down, plunges you into darkness and then leaves you numb but with all the lights finally turn on. I have awoken with a headache, you know the type that lets you know you have been thinking in your sleep. Great!
I posted yesterday about how if you change your beliefs that can change your situation if you allow it to happen. Did I change my beliefs? I thought so. Maybe this is all part of moving forward. I did receive some lightening bolt insights yesterday, always strong when I have been away from the business for a period of time but I feel like I am trying to climb Mount Everest with my only equipment being a can of coke and a big stick. Damn that Saturn and Pluto.

Wish me luck!

Wheel of Fortune

Emails from far and away about the the moon phases we are born under. I have attached the Lunar Phase Wheel for those who are interested. See earlier post- Moonie- for information on the what the hell I am talking about!

Heeeeellloooooo!

“Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.”
Carl Jung


I like this quote, how many times do we enable our beliefs to drive our future. I had an amazing dicussion with Gandalf last night about why we couldn't spend the last $1.6 million in our virtual bank account. It came down to the fact that we did not think our own dreams and desires were important enough to put first. Once we stated what we wanted we had that money spent in a heartbeat.


Change the beliefs and change the situation.

Don't say what you don't want, say what you DO want.

Its that simple.

Example:

*I want business to come to me easily and without stress and obstacles.
*I want a lovely space in which to run my business from.
*I want to be released from the financial struggle and to be able to be prosperous and secure financially.

Select what you want from your life and ask for help from the energy fields, it will work.


OMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Build the tracks

Just watching a film where it is explained that the train tracks were laid from Vienna to Venice over the mountains even though there was no train yet built that was strong enough to go over the top. Its the 'Field of Dreams'- Build it and they will come theory. It is a beautiful idea and fills you with hope for what can become possible one day. I have a friend with no partner on the horizon and no babies yet, but she has a fridge thats bigger than mine, ready to fill with incredible tasty delights and love for family that she will one day create.
Build the tracks I tell her and everything will fall into place.
Which makes me think about what it is that I want for myself, What are my train tracks?
Off to think!

Shut up aleady!

Back at work again and feel like shit, I am ready to go home for a sleep. I think I will only work till lunchtime.

I did read something interesting on the weekend in Vanity Fair mag, this Über smart New Yorker, you know Rhodes Scholar at 11 or something close, says that he never speaks about anything socially or professionally that is not about his area of expertise. I like this idea, I have lots to say about crap that I know nothing about, kind of like this blog really!

But really, is there nothing worse than being forced to sit next to a bore at a dinner party who claims to be an expert on everything? I watched a documentary on psychopaths recently and an expert on social behaviors said that social psychopaths are those who can discuss lots of things but without much depth. They know amazing amount of surface facts but are not really masters of anything. I actually know a few people like this and yes, when I think about it they are slightly unhinged, not that I am expert or anything. Maybe I am one of them?

Realisation: I know pretty much nothing about everything, so I guess will be the mute at any dinner party from now on. Make a pleasant change. As a Taurean I struggle with knowing the BEST places for everything. If someone wants a facial, hairdresser, pair of shoes, obstetrician then I am your girl! I really think I know the best of everything and I am not afraid to tell people what they "should" do. Man, I want to slap myself sometimes.
New plan: Only offer information, help and advice if actually asked. Ask and I will help, but otherwise I am keeping my trap shut!
For those who know me, I am sure they are reading this and falling of their chairs and wiping the tears from their eyes but I am serious. I am fighting Ego and Taurus nature but this is my test and I am working on it!







To my friends, you can stop laughing now!

Saraswati

This is my new screen wallpaper from here.
I like them, I like you, I want you share them with you.

I am creepy.


No really, they are quite beautiful.

Saraswati is the Goddess of knowledge and all literary arts including music, arts, and speech. She is also worshipped as the Goddess of thoughts of truth and forgivings.

Also I really like the blue colour.

Have uploaded Lakshmi, the Goddess of Wealth, Light, Wisdom and Fortune to the accounts machine, I am hoping that she will bestow all of the above. Bless and honour the Goddess!

News from the Crib

At home with kids and a box of tissues. I have been thinking about the cold issue. I usually get one a year, I am going to work on no colds next year. Bored of it.
Meanwhile. I finished the Millionaire Money Game yesterday for the business. Interesting. Not as easy as doing it for yourself. Mainly because to invest that amount of money you need to become more financially educated around what is possible in business with money and how to get the most bang for your buck so to speak.
Gandalf and I hit a few roadblocks trying to work out what we were going to do with the money and we still have a $1.6 million to spend. Virtual money is not as easy to get rid of as you would think. It really does make you plan though, which I am a huge fan of BTW. Planning, planning, planning. I may plan to plan this afternoon.

Moonie

I am back from sleeping, weird dreams about Geraldo Rivera. Odd, Mystic Medusa explains that it because of the Moon in Cancer maning us all soppy and psychic. I discovered this afternoon that I was born under a Balsamic Moon! For those who read this blog, you will know I like this term in fact I would like to own a restuarant called as such. I have no other desire to own a restaurant other than to name it 'Balsamic Moon'. In fact I am non plussed about retauarnts, but I do like a quippy name. I digress.
Those born under a Balsamic moon are attracted to other Balsamic Moonies, interesting, Blessed and Gandalf are both Balsamic Moonies. Balsamic Moonies are the 'black sheep' makes sense. A lovely explanation about Balsamic Moonies below:

The Balsamic Phase is the last phase of the Moon's cycle. This is the time of adjustment from one cycle to another. It is the bridge between the past and the future. People born at this time are finishing an eight phase cycle of lifetimes. Therefore, this lifetime is a very karmic one. There is a pattern of very intense, all-consuming although short term relationships with people from the past including other lifetimes. These karmic ties are in need of resolution before continuing on into the next new cycle. These people often have pronounced psychic abilities. They are the visionaries seeing years ahead of their times. As children they often feel apart from their peers; they are loners. Balsamic Moon people are able to take the true meaning of a situation, distill it into its wisdom essence and plant it into the awareness of others. Their job is the transmission of essential knowledge which will germinate at the next level during the next Lunation Cycle.


This is a very karmic lifetime in which you are meeting all those with which you have unfinished business from the previous seven lifetimes before this one. Therefore, you may encounter many brief, but intense relationships. There is a need for completion, a sense of closure to occur concerning these individuals. This can be confusing at times. [Huh?] It may be helpful to ask the question either to the person or to yourself, "Is there anything I've ever needed to say, do or give to you, let me do it now. If there is anything you've needed to say, do or give to me let's not put it off any longer, let us complete it now." If you cannot finish something in person, you need to ask in meditation to be released, possibly to forgive or to be forgiven. Having a full past of prior lifetimes to reflect upon, you are a born visionary, a natural psychic with a bridge to the future.

You realized at an early age that you were different and may have pretended to be like everyone else to fend off alienation from peers. You may have been described as an unusual child, and may have even been regarded as the black sheep of the family. Others will recognize your special-ness. [most often called 'weird-ness'] One of your unique qualities is to be able to take the key meaning of all situations and distill it into its wisdom essence. You can then transfer this awareness and consciousness in others to live beyond this physical life. Your commitment is to the future. By reckoning with the past, you can consciously make a break with it. You sense that something larger than yourself can manifest through you if you make the commitment to allow it to do so. For one to understand you at all one needs to look at what is happening THROUGH you. The transmission of essential knowledge is your purpose.


If you want to know your phase of the moon at your birth, let me know your date of birth and I will get onto it for you, took a bit of messing around to get it right, but got it sorted now.
I am into this. Made my day!

New Moon in Cancer

This New Moon in Cancer is where the Moon feels most comfortable, it is also a fertile Moon and is the Moon of new beginnings. This Moon rules the breasts, stomach, digestion, womb and lactation, so check your boobs for lumps ladies, trés important, if trying to have a baby now is the time and it is a great time start new healthy eating habits. This is also the Moon to look at your early family relationships. Do you project unfulfilled emotional needs onto your present relationships? No judgement, just a question, I am sure we all do it to some extent.

Things to do over the next 3 days-
•Look at yourself and see what you can give yourself in the form of emotional security. Have an intention to love yourself the way others love you.
• Write down your intentions for this new moon phase in the way you will create a healthy, happy environment for the new life you are starting this Moon.
• Write down what you are grateful for. An 'Attitude of Gratitude' creates an abundance mentality and you you will see how much more things will come to you when you do this.

I am back to bed to sleep this cold off.

Theory

Is the common cold, hubris in action? I think so, we can't cure it, reminds us that we must stop and that we aren't as clever as we think!

Paying the emotional debt

I have been in a whirl for the last 2 weeks, with news about engagements, babies, cancer evaporation and then the death of my beloved Nanny. I have never worked harder last week, with a relentless schedule, deadlines and school holidays, I have worked most nights over the last 3 weeks. This meant when I finally got a day off on Thursday I got sick. Then Friday at the funeral for Nanny, I cried like an 8 year old girl, tragic really, it didn't register she had died until I went into the service.
It made me think about that elusive thing, work/life balance.
How long did I think I could hammer myself before something gave? It is usually health that gives first and I am frankly disappointed that I didn't respect that, I know better, instead I thought I was immortal [and clearly I also thought my Nanny was also] and ignored all signs.
Clearly, I will be dressed by the new designer Hubris this season.
I have a theory that grief is like tax, you have to pay it eventually otherwise it grows interest and the longer you leave it the higher the debt you have to pay. I didn't pay this week as early as I should and so now here I am with razor blades in my throat and the threat of something nasty coming my way.

i chingy, how 'bout you?

I introduced the Sibyls to i Ching the other night. As the Piscean Princess called out the coins, Blessed laughed with mirth at her pronunciation "yang, yang, yin- yin, yin, yang."
i Ching is becoming a fave of mine. I know I dissed it some time back but I mocked because I feared . I understand it more now and I see when it could be helpful.
The i Ching is based on the Chinese theory that underpins their whole culture, that there is a balance of opposites and a natural transformation and development of events that progress and process as they are meant to, change is inevitable and neccessary.
I like this, it supports the theory that I love from Deepak that to move forward we must process our Karma and to do this we change the things that no longer work for us.
All of the readings were spot on, Blessed and the Piscean Princess received lovely hexagrams about marrying maidens and nourishment for little persons growing.

I, however have some work to do, I know what I need to do and as a result I awoke with a general malaise that has involved a headache and a sore neck all day, yes all day.
Feeling ultra crap and after the Solstice also. Shame.
The metaphysical reason for headaches is self criticism and fear. I have no argument for this, I am fearful and self critical a lot of the time. The sore neck represents inflexibility and not being able to see both sides of the question. How does your client plead? Guilty, your honor!

Did I create this? Did I allow the protective walls to come down for a brief moment thus I am starting to process my Karma? How much of my Ego can I fit into my mouth at one time?

Change is hard, especially for us Taureans, I tried to placate myself with buying myself a useless beautiful object from Manon, my fave Frenchie homewares store, typical Taurean reaction but settled instead for a curling wand from the hairdressers.
Facing change with curls, can only be good for the soul.

Can you feel it?

I spent a lovely evening with the Sibyls bringing in the light and new dreams. We spoke of what we wanted to leave behind and what we wanted to draw to us in the next 6 months.
We discussed how far we have come and how much we have changed in the last 12 months. There are parts of myself that I don't even regcognise, habits and attitudes that are no longer within me. It was cathartic to release these back into the universe and ask for new tools to help me on my journey.
We burnt the wishes, sending them into the universe, transmuting them as Blessed said, Pisecean Princess suggested that we ring the bell over the wishes to clear away any negative energies, then the smoke alarm went off. I am pretty positive there were no negative energies left with how loud it was!
There was an amazing energy in the air last night, things are out in the open and on the the universe is weaving her magic to make things happen !

Emotional rescue

Sun's in Cancer, Moon is in Taurus, making me want better things for all and turning into Peppermint Petty! Emotions run deep today, part Winter Solstice, part general astro transit.
Blessed Seraph is guiding myself and the enceinte Piscean Princess in a Winter Solstice ritual, moving from the dark into the light, letting go of all the things we have grown out of and welcoming in the energies of our future.
Hurrah!

Musings

Is there such a thing as a perfect client? Not sure, I don't think so, they are people and have their own goals and dreams and sometimes what they do will not fit into your business plan, accept and realise that it is the complexities that make us interesting.
Like any relationship the rosy hue wears off after a while, then you settle in, getting to know each other deeper and deeper. At least thats how it is for me.
Last year I looked at all my clients and realised there were similarities between all of them and myself and the businesses. I know why they buy from me, I know what it is that they do differently, I know that the heads of the companies we work for are the usually black sheep, either in their families or amongst their peer group. I know that the staff we hire are the blacksheep like Gandalf and I.
We do things differently, earlier, bigger and more crazy than some people around us. I have slowly pruned the people away from our lives who question why I do this or that, how can I have the time to be doing so many things, why do we not have this or that or have children and blah, blah, blah. Yawn, I tuned out after a while.
It reminds me of the quote when someone asked Phillip Adams why he does so much and he answered, "Why do you do so little?"
This is it kids, one chance, don't waste it listening to others naysay or try to confine you to their own opinions of you, Happiness is when you let things happen and do not fight change. Keep saying yes and see what happens!

Winter Solstice Thought For The Day

Well, what would you like tonight, sex, mysticism or revolution?
Kenneth Rexroth [Poet] to an audience

What’s the difference?
Woman in the audience

A Midsummer Nights Wedding

Blessed Seraph is planning the wedding for MidSummer, just after the Summer Solstice, which is particulary syncro since it is the Winter Solstice tomorrow night. Perhaps Blessed is becoming a Divine Goddess and is intuitively becoming in touch with the rhythms of the Earth. A MidSummer Nights Wedding, it makes me think of fireflies, faeries, candles, lace and wine.
Oh, it's heady times!

It gets better!

I smell, no I really do, wow!

Mars Saturn Conjunctivitis in my eye!

I am not sure if its the death of my Nana, Mars conjunct with Saturn or the fact I lost an important document, but one of these things is making me feel like a ten pound bag of shit in a five pound bucket !