Greenlights ahead

Hilarious day. This morning started with beyond crazy. Puppies pooing in bedrooms, lost sports uniforms and a car that would not start. I just stood and laughed at the chaos. Moved to the office for an early morning work session, where I fought with a network cable and got a nasty paper cut and a bump on the head for my troubles. All through it, I laughed.

Next was a staff 'love in', with Chinese massages and a banquet at the best Chinese restaurant in town as a celebration of how bloody fabulous we are!

We left early to take the Piscean Son to a party, Gandalf lost his credit card, I lost the car. We picked up the 'Pooing Puppy' who has lost his mind from being alone all day. Went back to the restaurant to pick up the credit card, pick up the Pisces Son and came home for some valium. I swear, it is crazy.

Days like this can make you feel like the world is against you unless you know it is change in motion. I have been asking to get into the 'green light' mode all year. To be into the flow. Finally it is shifting. I know the crazy in my day today is due to our world turning. Turning so slowly, things are a little all over the place. I know we are heading in the right direction, every sign tells me so. My laughter reminds me that none of it is to be taken seriously. We are merging into the fast flow lane and we its green lights ahead.

Blow me down

The wind blew and kept me awake all night. Awake at 5am, I decided to stop lying in bed thinking about all I had to do and just get up and get to it. The day though, started anxiously and went straight to crazy, with two stops at dramasville.
Tough transits today, which has made many of us feel lost in transit. Fire signs in particular seemed to have water thrown on them trying to dampen their spirits. Although Water signs too have copped it today. Ah shit, maybe all the elements copped it.
Ended the day on good news. Had some lovely news yesterday also.
Two days of good news takes some of the pain away. Some but not all. Massages and divine Peking Duck tomorrow with the team should ease the rest of the pain away.

Later.

Soulstice Music

I have a new computer, as I have stated before. I have named her Juno. I like that name, I wanted to name my daughter Juno, now it is associated with a pregnant teenager. I am glad I didn't.
Juno is the Roman Goddess of Marriage. I did an invocation to Juno at Blessed and Ram-Beaus wedding.

Tonight I merged all the photos I cold find on disc or hard drive. A perfect Winter Solstice project. All my music also has come across. I love pictures and music. Such a Taurus.

The magic was thick in the air today. I saw mystery and sparks of brilliance with people all day.
The Solstice brings us magic and wonderment.
It is time to honor the solar year and walk into light. Not surprisingly the 'biz' was doing major cleanup and changes today. Perfectly perfect. Letting go of what did not work and walking towards our future.

Monday it all culminates towards the best year ever for our business. I feel it in my heart. We know where we are going. We have the right team. We have let go of what did not work and what was never going to work and instead are focused on our blindingly bright future.


So mote it be, peeps!

Full Moon Awareness

The Moon was full in Sagittarius today.
A great time to do something different. anything. Give yourself a challenge, take a risk or die, is the theme of the day.
I managed to stop the chattering monkey talk and get some work done. The Sag moon helped me to complete some seriously big tasks today. Well done me!

I wrote the Firestarter and Gandalf a missive tonight about the top ten things that have shifted over the last 2 weeks. I Meant every one of them

Meanwhile, I have a new computer which is exciting, but I shall wait till the weekend to play and upload, until Mercury is really going forward.

I had a fascinating lunch with Fishgirl yesterday, which has given me food for thought.
Great conversations, as usual, things that make you go hmmmm.

More later, when the busy gets ordered.

Shut the hell up!

The book went to the printer on Friday and I promptly lost my voice. I am done. Nothing more to say on that one. Quite symbolic and wretched, since I had The Good Doctor to say and we could talk under setting concrete. Ah well, we just had to talk via our Jedi mind powers. Perfect.
At least it was the Good Doctor and I did not feel I had to entertain. I wore my tracksuit all weekend except for a pleasant interlude at Blessed and Ram-Beaus, from which I went back into my tracksuit again.
I did spend 2 hours online with the divine Fishgirl who talked with me via messenger about all sorts on the weekend. Amazing conversation. Gotta love a water sign. They are my fave elements.

Meanwhile, interesting conversation with The Good Doctor about keeping our thoughts in the middle. Somewhere between optimism and pessimism. It shall be hereafter known as 'reality'. The test is whether you apply positive or negative thinking to the reality you are experiencing.
Your thoughts are like a boomerang, whatever you send out comes right back into your reality.

Might as well make them positive thoughts, huh?

Advice from a caterpillar

* Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some
days you're the statue.

* Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in
case you have to eat them.

* Always read stuff that will make you look good if
you die in the middle of it.

* If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to
be vague.

* If you lend someone $20 and never see that person
again, it was probably worth it.

* It may be that your sole purpose in life is
simply to be kind to others.

* Never put both feet in your mouth at the same
time, because then you won't have a leg to stand on.

* Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up
and dance.

* Since it's the early worm that gets eaten by the
bird, sleep late.

* The second mouse gets the cheese.

* When everything's coming your way, you're in the
wrong lane.

* Birthdays are good for you. The more you have,
the longer you live.

* You may be only one person in the world, but you
may also be the world to one person.

* Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.

* We could learn a lot from crayons. Some are
sharp, some are pretty and some are dull. Some have weird names,
and all are different colours, but they all have to live in the same box.

*A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the
scenery on a detour.

Lemonade anyone?

Today I am grateful for:

My daughter, who is safely tucked up on the couch
Being able to come home and take care of her
My husband ,who holds the fort
My son, who is safe at school
My business, that always helps me learn and looks after me
My health
Opportunities, realised and still coming
Love
Loving
My cardigan
My slippers (yes, I sound 100 and today i feel every year of it!)
The colour of the pear trees leaves as they turn.
My brain with which I can plan and solve
My book being close
The Good Doctor winging her way towards me.

Coasting

I have been out of the flow all year at work. There are many reasons why, they are not important to this post but, now I am not. It is green lights ahead for me and the business.
All day, 'syncromoments' with Eagles. Now I find out that the symbolic meaning of eagles is connection and raising your level of consciousness. Spiritual vision. Nice one!

I am beyond busy at work but so happy as I can see what I always hoped for the business this week. Small things are making large differences. Finally the business is in the flow, in every sense of the word.

Soar on.

Neptune sux in Uranus

Mercury is retrograde, hence crazy arse techie dramas. Neptune, the planet of illusion and magic went retrograde at the end of May. For those who don't know, this means that the energy is kinda reversed. Illusion going backwards.
Magic can turn on you and basically things are not what they seem. Its the ol' Wizard of Oz- "Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain "scenario.
Uranus went retrograde also. Uranus the planet of Power. Uranus going backwards gives us lesson on how to live an authentic life.
As a perfect lesson for Neptune Mercury and Uranus going backwards, on Sunday night, I wiped 11 years of photos from my computer, never to be seen again. All my childrens' pictures, my friends children, wedding, parties, anything!
The grief was palpable. Yes, I cried. I cried at my own stupidity and my lack of backing up. I cried for all the times I thought I should have backed up and didn't. Neptune teaches us to not attach to anything we see, material things. Mercury made my computer go haywire and Uranus? Well, Uranus is just a shit.
The planets were trying to teach me that memories are the real photos. The feelings, the love not the pieces of paper with images burned on them.

Still....I should have backed them up!
Neptune sux in Uranus!

Looming Moon

The Dark Moon hung over the biz this morning, like a thunder cloud. It was hard to rein in the disappointment and the murky perspective. 'Time to refocus', I called in the morning meeting. 'Time to be robust. Time to be resilient. Time to learn. Time to let go'. All perfect for a balsamic moon period. I was born under a balsamic moon, so the concept of surrender is easily understood. There is only so far you can push before you have to let go. Hence, the Gary Larson cartoon above.

Thankfully a meeting with the Divine Mrs Underhill, took some of the pressure off. God, she makes me laugh. A perfect friend in every way. Interested in everyone, funny, kind and always with a snazzy accessory. I spent a lovely birthday lunch with her and Blessed. Finer company you could not find, than with the two funniest women I know.

There is a new Moon in Gemini on Wednesday. A great time to commit to new plans, particularly creative plans. Also, personal plans are supported by Gemini, so dust of your action plan and wish list. What was it you wanted to do? Paint? Write? Sing? Decoupage? Embroider? Learn to play the harp? Felting anyone?

Geminis are the most the creative of all the signs. So harness your creative spirit to the Moon and see where it takes you. We are capable of amazing things, if we allow ourselves to find out what they are.

Rules of the Game

Today we lost a game. Losing hurts sure, but I was damn proud of how we played. A new team, new ideas and a new level of skills have been required.
Everyone put in 100%, so I am proud of the score. We lost by only a one point, we will win next time.
I spoke at length to the fire starter about the practise required. These small pitches have only been the pre-season games. The real season starts on the 1st July and we will be ready!

Moon is in Aries, thus the fire in the belly.

Bring it on, bring it on, bring it on!

Last call from the Moon Goddess

Last quarter moon. Time to let go. What is it you need to release?
If you are into casting magic, then now is the time to do you banishment spells. ( If you are getting rid of unwanted house guests, for example, always try to send them somewhere nice).

This is a perfect time in business to look at the last few weeks and see what is working. Think about where you want to put your attention and energy when the new moon come to light.
Look over your action plans, did you get done what you hoped over this last cycle ?
Now is not the time to start new projects, particularly with the Mercury Retrograde energy. Instead look at old projects that you have not finished. Use this energy to gently revisit, without guilt or shame and see your plans are still relevant to you now.



P.S A candle meditation is always lovely during this phase of the moon.
( Also a glass of wine or other relaxer of choice. No judgment , no praise, whatever gets you through the night.)

Mercury Retrograde sux in the Uranus

Too funny. I swear Mercury retro throws things up when we need to get the hell on with it, forcing us to reflect and process and wait.
Yesterday, I tried to get my digital/connective issues at home sorted. Another month, the little techie hobbit told me. Of course, why would I even try to do this before then? Mercury is taking care of it for me.
Word from the skies is, don't make any serious decisions right now. No, really. If you have to make one then cross your fingers.
I having trouble with what to write about. Neptune is giving a me a serious case of the illusions.
I have nothing to say and everything going on.


More later if something brilliant comes.

Merc alert

No, I do not mean the car, I mean the planet. Mercury is going backwards on the very day I am trying to negotiate a contract. I should just stall. I wonder if I can do anything to offset it ?

Meanwhile, in the thick of it at HQ! Looking for a rock star at work! Hard to get but great when we do! Then we will be ready to tour the world!

Pop on your party hat!

It is my birthday and Full Moon in Scorpio to boot. My Moon is opposing Saturn, which requires me to do nothing. Stay protected and have a good long think as to why every year I feel lonely and isolated on my birthday.
Why? Because every year bloody Saturn opposes my Moon.
Ha!
I used to be envious of those who could have a festival for a week on their birthday.
Now I know that this is not for me in my chart. My birthdays are about lessons. About shining a light on what I have learned over the past year.
My astrological birthday was actually yesterday, when my sun conjunct my sun. So today is actually only my calendar birthday. This makes it easier. I felt like I got away with my birthday and no one knew. Now I get to work on my book and lunch with The Contessa and Blessed. Perfect!

The Full Moon today is in Scorpio. Usually a notoriously hard times for Taureans.
Scorpios are about own their merde. They never blame, instead probably self blame a little too much.
Using this energy, this is a great time to look at what you want to change about yourself?
Perfect, if you are having a birthday!
There are lots of people using the phoenix rising from the ashes as a metaphor. I think of it has losing everything you own and possess in a fire. Who would you be? What would you wear? Are you being true to yourself ? Give yourself a chance to start again.

The Scorpio Full Moon gives you an opportunity to be this person. Even if you make one change, one truth.

Let the Scorpio Moon set you free.

I am going to think on this. Where am I not living my truth?
I may or may not get back to you on this. Depending how ugly the Scorpio truth!

Playing nice in the sandpit

Venus ( love and good times) is doing wonderful things in our skies, making it a super, duper time to have meetings. Venus is sharing some gorgeous energy with Jupiter (luck) and Uranus
(power).

If you are planning to talk turkey with someone or shake your money maker then hop to it peeps. Now is the time to make it happen!
Think group hugs without the awkward silence after the release.

I have so many things to do I am laughing at the ridiculousness of it all. I have piles of papers around me in a quasi-managed state. What I have to next is write my list of priorities. One of them was to blog, of course. No, I do not have time to do this post but without it I would be chasing my tail all day. This is like a promise to myself.
I want to walk out of today satisfied that I am on top of my worklife.

So I embrace the challenge and with the power of the planets on my side, I cannot fail.
So I will, in this order:

• Get a coffee
• Write a list of what I have to do
• Write next to them the dates I want them done by
• Get a move on!
  

That old devil Chiron

Chiron is a shit. No, really!

Chiron was a centaur ( half man- half horse), who, unlike the other centaurs was a righteous dude. He knew all sort of things about medicine and astrology and was also a parttime soothsayer.
Chiron and the other half horsies were wounded in the leg with a poisoned arrow during a battle over raw foods and organic wine. (This is my version and I am sticking to it!)
Chiron gave up immortality so he could save the god Prometheus, the god of fire. This is celebrated in astrology with the constellation of Sagittarius.
Yadayadayada.

Chiron in astrology symbolises the wound that we come to this lifetime with. Depending on where it is placed in your chart. In which house, which aspect and which signs, Chiron can make you hurt in places you didn't even know you had!
Today my Moon opposed my Chiron. Of course it did. My Sun, Saturn and Chiron are all holding hands and stirring up shit. So all the old wounds reopened and every little crappy thought, fear and nagging voice, came up and said "Hi!"
Good times huh?
My chart said it was half the day. I got through this morning with ease, thinking I had waited it out in my lovely home. But no! It was the second half of the afternoon when Chiron came and bit me in my Moon!
Seriously you name it, I went there this afternoon!
And then suddenly it stopped. There was peace. And the birds sung again.

Chiron is our greatest wound. The void that remains unfulfilled within us. The half man half horse who represents the human and animal that dwells within us. It is through these voids that we seek out the values that define our lives. These values are what fuels our drive towards our destiny. Once we live that destiny then we are living on purpose and doing the Plan right!
So in fact, without these Chiron wounds inflicted on us then we would not push ourselves to heal. When we heal, we make our unconscious conscious and then we get onto our path in life.
I could crap on about Chiron being the dichotomy between senses and heart, time and space and unconscious and conscious. But what I really want to say is...

Chiron is a shit.

Chop wood, carry water

Seriously, before enlightenment chop wood and carry water. after enlightenment, chop wood and carry water.
I thought about this yesterday, while I lay in an operating suite waiting for a minor procedure to get underway. As I stared at the rows of tapes and gauzes and wondered about enlightenment. Enlightenment did not stop me from under the knife. Enlightenment was not currently topping up my bank balance. Enlightenment was not going make a dinner when I got home and put the washing in the dryer. So, Enlightenment means what, exactly?
Bliss?
Understanding we are all part of the microcosm and together we are amazing?
A collection of cells in a petri dish thinking we are better than all the other cells out there in other petri dishes?

Choosing to be conscious of our experience can be tiring. Always trying to put together the signs and the 'accidents'. Trying to remember what we did last time when in hard times and trying to process it faster , so as to get through the experience better.
I mentioned recently to someone that there is a part of me that was envious of those who never questioned. Those who lived unconsciously. Accepted the news and the TV. Accepted less than they deserved and accepted living with their fears, day in and day out.
Yet, I know I would rather be as I am. Questioning. Out of line. Stirring the pot and setting my own bottom line.

Buddha says that the greatest gift we can give to others is our enlightenment. This is what I try to do with this blog. Share with my readers my small steps towards my bliss. Each step I take,
I move towards something amazing inside me. Unveiling part of myself and popping it like a house plant, into the sunshine. Shining the light on my darkest self has been enlightenment.

As I sit in my study, staring out at the glorious day. I am thankful for health, love and laughter and most of all I am thankful for the chopping wood and carrying water. The Vietmanese activist and Monk wrote that 'There is no enlightenment outside of daily life.'
He is right. He is a monk. Who am I to argue? Just lying on the table yesterday gave me time to ponder. Pondering has bought me to this post. This post has bought me to understanding this - I am always learning. I am always trying to do better wherever I can. I am flawed. I am perfect.
I am.

So are you.

Off to chop wood and carry water.

The New Moon

The New Moon has washed onto shore new challenges and new opportunities on our shore. This is why I have been off the radar for a few days. I have many, many things happening at the moment, all of it wonderful and crazy.
I read a quote today from Michael Gerber, author of The E-Myth that inspired me,

"The difference between great people and everyone else is that great people create their lives actively, while everyone else is created by their lives, passively waiting to see where life takes them next. The difference between the two is the difference between living fully and just existing."

No chance of that happening to me anytime soon. When we had a large opportunity taken from us earlier this year, that thew all our plans into array, we chose to face it down and take action. There was no way that this moment was going to define who we are and what we wanted to achieve as company.

So now, here we are in the middle of the all the hard work from us staring down the drama of the beginning of 2008. Naturally, all the work has come in at once and this is a contest in itself. So we have taken the dare, placed our bets and rolled the dice.

Let the cards fall where they may.

Support

Conversations with The Archer at work about how we only exist as a unit. We are much more powerful as a company, when we all pull together. This togetherness allows us to be able to move forward as a collective in the desired direction. Working together requires understanding and trust. I always happy for independent initiative but not with the exclusion of thinking about others in the team.

The Archer and I wondered if it was immaturity as he, Gandalf and I are the old people in the building. Maturity cannot be forced. Sometimes people are not ready and the readiness can only come with age.

Maturity is what makes you react with the appropriate emotion or behaviour to what is happening around you. We all have lapses when we revert. Certain emotions can force reverting and the inner child reappears. Nothing triggers old childhood wounds and shitty behaviours like workmates who drive us potty. I suppose because we cannot always choose who we work with. Workmates can have as much as an affect on us as our family can have, another set of relationships we can't choose.

Maturity comes in different ways and in different guises. Anytime you are responsible for something, someone, then you begin to mature. Especially if things do not always go according to plan.

I am off to mother as Gandalf is at the coalface.