What are you looking at?

This Mercury Retrogarde is a bitch.

What is coming up for you?

Taxes, death, breakdown, breakups?
Fatigue, weariness, the desire to escape?
Crisis, challenges, emotional exhaustion?
Power struggles, soul wrenching truthful admissions?
Contract not coming through?
Garbage bags splitting and the revolting contents spilling onto the floor?

Whatever it is, this Mercury retrograde is pushing us hard. It is nearly over. It goes direct on the 1st November and then will completely out of the shadow zone by the the 16th of Nov.

What have your learned from this Mercury Retro period ?
I am working on letting go of old patterns that are holding me back and showing themselves in horrible physical reactions to anxiety. I hope to solve this with an energy healing asap and a good old fashioned talking to myself.

Meanwhile....Strike a pose, there's nothing to it!

Signs and promises

Owls appear when I supposed to take notice. They ask me to follow them. They have never let me down yet.

Today I have an epiphany regarding someone that owls sent to work for me. I hired this person based partly on the fact that they seemed right for a job and they had owls around them. In the broader sens of the job it didn't work out but in the scheme of them helping me with my book, they were invaluable and brilliant. The owls lead them to me for this reason alone. I tried to make this person right for the job but now I see she was only here for the job she was Meant to do and this was help me with my book. What her take is on this time spent with me and the business, I am not sure, but we are still on good terms and she helps still helps me with the book.

Today the owls headed me off on the path and sent me in another direction to what I previously thought I wanted. They cemented an idea and showered me with the stardust of possibilities. What once seemed lost now has hope.

The owls are good to me.

Solar return

Scorpio Daughters 11th birthday today.
Your childs birthday can be bittersweet. The inevitability of them growing older sticks in my throat. This morning she chose to sleep instead of immediately rising for her presents. Sleep is a gift and this morning she recognized it.
At every milestone of my childrens development I have at time wanted to bonsai them, make then stay just as they are so I can enjoy that perfect stage.
But, alas, no, just I am enjoying the view they whisk me away again to unchartered lands that offer bountiful gifts and challenges as they grow into new stages.
I thought today how much I like the person my daughter is maturing into. She is truly one of the funniest people I know and worries about none of the crap that kept me awake at her age.
She benefits greatly from Gandalf and my mutual self development and she is learning lessons so early that took me 35 years to understand.
What great ordnance she has in her tremendous understanding of the world and the people in it. Her ability to sit and watch and wait and then take the lead is the stuff of female legends in history.

It is an honour to be her mother.

"Hey I like you. whats not to like? But you need to access your uncrazy side a little more."

I am getting flakier and flakier and loving it!

Exhibit A: Sometimes, I get messages by a tingling feeling on my head. Bear with me.....I know....come back. I really do get these messages. A person will be telling me about their plans or wondering what to do and I will get this feeling tingling on my scalp. It tells me what is going on or what decision that the querent should go with.
Lately though it has gone to the dogs. Its is tingling at odd times, sending me messages that make no sense. I must have wire loose. I blame Mercury retrograde. It is interfering with my Contact.


Yep, crazier than a June bug!

Can't see for looking

I am not a professional astrologer but I love nothing more than to break down the astro info and try to make sense of it. Today: Mercury (Communication) semi squares ( small obstacle) Jupiter (Intellect) today.
Small details are easily overlooked today. Already this rings true for me as I have emailed clients the wrong estimates and proposals each! Cripes.
So disappointed in myself. This is what happens when we rush.
Now I have to go and write lame arse emails to both parties to prove my comptence when I am clearly very incompetent this morning !
Moon enters Pisces later today, with a heavy dose of Uranus. So fasten your seatbelt for big ideas to save the planet and then Uranus who actually can make it happen.

Off to write sucky emails.........

Wait a minute, Mister Postman

When I came home tonight I was delighted to receive a card in the mail from a new but instantly dear friend who wrote me such sweet words, I giggled aloud in the street.

I don't want to go on about the lost art of letter writing but receiving this little card in the mail thrilled me more than any email or phone call. I think a letter brings with it incredible intention. Making the effort to find or in this instance, make a nice card, write a few perfectly measured sentences that induce joy and then stick a stamp on it and send it on its way takes thought. With thought goes intention and with intention, energy.

I used to receive letters from The Good Doctor, before the rise and rise of email. I would be thrilled and leave the letter till I knew I would be uninterrupted. I would make a cup on tea and on warm days sit on the front steps and read in the sun. Nothing was quite so comforting except having her near me to tell me herself.

Some of my most defining moments so far in my life, involve letters received and sent. Letters between Gandalf and I for a full year while separated, that kept our flame alight. It was letter from England from Blessed Seraph that propelled Gandalf and I into marrying.

I have received awful letters from people in my past who sent me the letters that you are supposed to burn after writing. These letters have enabled me to grow as a person and restructure my friendships and the way I spend my energy, but these days are long since passed. Now I received joyous letters in the post, letters that make me giggle.

The Pisces Son always runs to the letter box to see if there is a letter for him. I always say, "You have to write a letter to get a letter." He writes to Grandparents, they write back. He giggles when he spies their letters.

Yes. Letters are lovely.
Thank you for mine today!


To send a letter is a good way to go somewhere without moving anything but your heart. ~Phyllis Theroux

The Da DVD Code

I have cracked the code.
The code for my DVD that is. I have managed to work out and recode my DVD player so I can now play DVD's from all regions. This came from my desperation on Saturday night with nothing to watch on TV and the only medicine was to watch Bell, Book and Candle again, but, alas, my copy is from the USA, which does not play nice with the Australian region DVD players.
I knew that watching Jack Lemon play bongos and the styling of Kim Novak and her bare feet would make everything better. Gandalf scoffed at me, which in turn made me more determined to crack the code.
My exaltation upon seeing the opening credits of the movie came from the feeling of being able to create my own rules. It's my DVD player and it shall play what I want, dammit!
I struggle with authority and rules at the best of times, so having my entertainment options curbed was too, too much.
I have Uranus in my third house, the house of communication. People with this placement love to solve mysteries. It's true. It is also the placement of the astrologer.
For now, I can add code cracker to my list of skills.


P.S Moon is in Capricorn and Venus is playing nice with Mars. So make hay while the sun shines my friends.

Don't you worry 'bout a thing!

Yes, Mercury is retrograde and people are whinging and moaning everywhere I turn, including myself.
The greatest weapon against astrology is willpower.
Why do we have to do what the chart says?
What can we change about ourselves or out situation to create a different outcome?

Mercury Retrograde sends most people in the know into a tailspin. Taking into account the fact that this is in one is in Scorpio, some are moving to the dark side quicker than you can say,"Quincunx".

I am taking a different view on Mercury Retrograde.It runs from the 12th October till 1st November when Mercury will go Direct. Let's split it into 2 parts. 10 days in each period.
The first 10 days of the period you get to see what needs to be fixed or broken. The second 10 days of the period is to work out how to fix it.


P.S There is a full moon in Taurus on the 26th October, which of course will highlight solutions to problems that are proving hard to remedy. Stay tuned.

Venus in the fourth

The Piscean Princess is a mother. Her baby boy is here, safe and sound. All perfect and peachy keen.
Sun in Libra, Moon in Scorpio. Ascendant Gemini. Numerology 6. Charming and charismatic, apparently, according to Miss Numerella, upon consultation.
She has been in my thoughts all day and with joy in my heart. I trod a little lighter and smiled a little more for her happiness and her wishes coming true.

Baby time

Shiteful week, hideous and taxing. The only highlight is waiting for The Piscean Princesses baby. I am as nervous as a grandmother, can't even believe how excited I am. Imagine what I will be like when Blessed's little Sultana arrives?
I have been using the scopes for baby birth day prediction, as I have been so hopelessly wrong so far. Finally, Venus is in the 4th house - House of Home and Family tomorrow. Love with family.
Astrology is a very useful tool when applied with hindsight. Stay tuned, I will let you know when the baby Libran arrives.

The Chosen One

The Piscean Princess is due to give birth any moment now. I have not been this excited since Blessed's wedding.
I am fit to bursting with the thrill of the Sibyls reaching out for their their emotional prosperity.
Interestingly the skies have shown The Piscean Princesses baby in the astral. Jupiter, the planet of children has been in her chart since mid January this year. Jupiter left the day the baby was due. Now the the "Maternal Instincts" transit (Moon trine Ascendant) comes into her chart tomorrow and tomorrow only.
I am not promising, I am just sayin' is all.

The baby will come when the baby is ready. I read that babies who are late, don't want to leave the womb, as they miss the sound of their mothers heartbeat. My daughter was late, so late, 10 days.
I don't think it was my heartbeat though, I think she wanted to become a Scorpio by 1 day! Cheeky little thing she is!

Dreams

Insane dreams last night, none of them pleasant. Panic, people from the past and drowning, were the themes. Nice one! I blame the tiredness from an insane week of working whilst the changelings have been away.
Highlight: inspired by Aries accountant that my business plans can be done and done well, so I am feeling the verve for life my ideas coming back. Strange, just a small word from the bean counter and off I go trekking into the land of opportunity.
I have a lovely transit of Mars sextile Mercury for the next 5 months, which is all about having a passion for mental work and being disciplined and confident enough to see it through.

Note to self: Make my waking dreams come true, not the ones from last nights slumber.

Wasting time ?

Moon is in Gemini. Get on with your work. Stop reading people.com or perezhilton.com.
Stop facebooking old sex partners. Stop self-googling. Stop photocopying your face or arse or anything else that tickles your fancy.
Work it out and pay attention to the detail. Try to have actions come from all your conversations.
This is my plan and yet here I am blogging about doing it it. Stop talking start doing......prepare for the future, it is already here.

Mystery School

I am reading about the Mystery Schools. Mystery School?
Isn't that Nancy Drew's Alma Mata, you ask?
No.

A mystery school is a center of learning for spirituality. Or University for the Soul. A place where we study the mysteries of the universe. Universal University, so to speak.
Sufi's had a mystery school, and most of their learnings and understandings were not written down, but taught through the oral teaching method. So did Buddhists and Mayans and many other religions.

I think that each of us have own own mystery schools inside ourselves, we learn when we question, feel inspiration and exhilaration and wonder where it came from. We do not need to belong to a religious order to be part of the great learning mystery. Every time we ask ourselves to try harder, be better and forgive ourselves and others we are showing up to the mystery class. I suppose we never graduate from mystery school, we just get better at trusting and hopefully when we die we graduate with flying colours in Faith.

I like attending Mystery School, I like to look and listen, experience and philosophise. There are many others in my world who also attend mystery school. Laughing with Blessed and The Piscean Princess during our Dark Arts classes. Swapping crib notes with Fishgirl. Comparing teachers with Gandalf. Pontificating and debating with the Good Doctor about the yin and yang of the soul. And spending time with my beloved astrology charts and sharp pencil is more enjoyable than any traditional learning I have done at traditional school or University.

Yes, I like going to mystery school. Show up or don't, its entirely up to you, there is no roll call. But if you do, chances are you will find what you learn more useful than anything else you have learned previously.
Knowing others is wise, knowing yourself is enlightenment, the Chinese proverb says.

School's in!

Get to the point

Full Moon in Aries and for most people, they are are run off their feet, over committed and living by their lists, that seem to get longer with each tick of the clock.

The Moon in Aries is always about intent and doing it, doing it! An immature or wounded Aries energy, we will be doing 50 things at once, mostly to feed the ego. A mature or healed Aries, when they have healed their emotional wounds they came to earth with, will be doing one thing and doing it well. They will have intent and clarity about the end goal they are striving for.
Look at where Aries is in your chart. Issues around this at the moment?

The polar opposite of Aries is Libra, the balance and the self reliant. To do best through the full moon, decide to do one thing, one things I repeat. Then use the Libran energy to do it well and with a sense of boundary. What will you do and not do in this time? Stop being over committed. Learn to say 'no' without an explanation.

Just say no.

Leaving the Womb

I am getting insight into this Mercury Retrograde that start on the 11th of October is going to be a doozy. We are in the shadowzone and man, ain't we feeling it!
Already computers are being bitches and the field of energy is being affected. Why? Well Mercury Retro is in Scorpio this time. A difficult sign if not stroked gently. Scorpio are so secretive its crazy, they are like the vault and terribly discreet and lethal. Expect communication to be veiled and possibly destructive. I think the Smiling Assassin was a Scorp.

Said best here:

Scorpio is ruled by Mars, Pluto, and Chiron. Mars stirs up anger. Pluto takes out the garbage in your life. Chiron brings you the tools to heal wounds. When Mercury goes retrograde in the sign Scorpio we are faced with issues of death and rebirth. It's a shaman's death. Surrender. Eventually floating in your mother’s womb the waters became toxic, you had to push out to be born into this world.

Scorpio’s energy represents that same water energy that you had to break through in order to be born into this world. Again our conscious mind is out to lunch, so we may be called to release an old pattern or habit that is fueled by the black and white thinking of our past. Emotional energy may be fixated on the past- holding up, holding on, holding back. The energy of Scorpio calls us to break down to break through. There may be intense emotions related to this release. It may be a time to reach out, get support and ask for help.

Best.

Slowing down

Alert from Fishgirl that the Saturn is reaching the point where Venus went retrograde. As a result, Taureans and Librans are burning the candle at both ends and something, somewhere will give. It could be an accident, things breaking down or a breakdown. For me it is my heater. So boring, so I won't even go there.
I am burning the candle though, juggling, whilst on a tightrope and calling the fourth at the greyhounds. I know it makes no sense but then neither does my life at the moment.
It is crazzzzzyyyy and funny at the same time. Just as I get rid of one thing another creeps up on me. I remind myself to take it slow, check and double check and push through. I have blown out the candle at one end and I know that this too will pass.

Waiting for the moment

I let it go and then I wait. This is my lesson. As a forceful and driven person, I like to "make it happen" but not everything comes to fruition, even though I do what I can to bend the will of the Universe.

The Universe is stronger than I and she pops me back in my chocolate box. "Sit, be patient" she whispers to me in my in dreams, sending me symbols to interpret when I awake. My symbol this week has been moths. Moths have featured in this blog before, having made an early appearance on my journey. Moths symbolise moving towards illumination, enlightenment and conscious transformation. The Moth is attracted to the flame, just as the soul is attracted to the light. But like Icarus, sometimes we fly a little close to the flame and these singings are our trials. With every burning comes new growth and more fertile fields.

This weekend I have to let go of something I wanted to happen. I wanted it very much but it was not Meant to be. The Universe has popped me back into my box and so here I sit. Waiting.
Waiting till I am ready.

And so it is.


“We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” Joseph Campbell

Your number is up

I profess to know little about numerology. I like it but it doesn't speak to me like astro or tarot does. Thus I am also happy to learn from others who know more and genuinely love their interest.
This new blog is a bunch of fun and interestingly bought me a syncrodestiny moment today involving a bee. I shan't bore your with my bee story, this reference is much more interesting, so link and read away.

Meanwhile, amazing dreams last night involving washing lines, pink towels and the tips of dogs ears that turned into moths.
Interpretation: Hanging out my emotional dirty laundry, cleansing myself with love, my guardian and protectors giving me messages and in turn transforming me.
Not sure I feel transformed but certainly had a better day today.

What's going on?

“It's spring fever.... You don't quite know what it is you DO want, but it just fairly makes your heart ache, you want it so!”

Mark Twain