Sat Chit Ananda

I have a quite a nice day considering I am still trying to climb the equivilant of Mount Everest with a can of coke and big stick.

Still on the Sutras, Tuesday's is Sat Chit Ananda-meaning I am self referred consciousness.

My inner dialogue reflects the fire of my soul.

Alrighty then.

These phrases make it clearer, I hope.

Imagine that you are centered and totally at peace.

Imagine that all beings are your equal.

Imagine that you are detached from the outcome.

Imagine that you are not affected by flattery or criticism.

Imagine that you are looking at the world with knowingness and peace.

Imagine that you exactly what to do in every situation.

Imagine that love radiates from you like light from a bonfire.

Imagine that you are in love with everything and everybody.

Imagine that you are intoxicated with love.

Imagine that the right answer comes to you whenever you are confronted by any question spontaneously.


Sounds lovely, give it a try for the day.

Tat Tvam Asi

I am that.

When I went to Deepak, he recommended repeating a different Sutra everyday.

Monday is Tat Tvam Asi - I am that.

I see the other in myself and myself in the others.

So, for today:

Imagine that your spirit is not only in you but in all other beings and everything that is.

Imagine that everybody is a reflection of yourself.

Imagine that you see what others see.

Imagine that you can feel what others feel.

Imagine that everybody is a reflection of yourself.

And finally- Imagine that you are a person in a hall of mirrors where you can see yourself for miles and every reflection you see is of yourself, but everybody appears different.

Happy Monday to you all: a waxing Moon, Mercury Direct and the blossom is out, filling the air with the promise of possibilities, faeries and magic.


Gratitude is the fairest blossom which springs from the soul.
Henry Ward Beecher

When Violets Appear

I spent some time in the garden today, it's been a long while with Winter demanding gardening be retired till Spring and spell casting be moved indoors for the darker months. I was stunned to find violets springing up in the exact spot where the Sibyls and I had sat spell casting over the Summer and Autumn. I swear on the Goddess, they were not there last year so it has inspired me to look at the meaning of violets from a variety of sources.

When violets appear in your dreams then fortune is not far away.

The Violet is ruled by the planet Venus.

The Violet is associated with Taurus. [I love that, now I know why I adore them!]

The Violet appeared in an ancient Near Eastern myth that probably inspired the Greek and Roman myth of Venus and Adonis. According to this story, the great mother goddess Cybele [Earth Goddess and sounds similar to Sibyl, love it, love it!] loved Attis [Earth God], who was killed while hunting a wild boar. Where his blood fell on the ground, violets grew.

Violets are, significantly, the symbol of mourning, I wonder if they have sprung for one of the Sibyls' devastating and heart wrenching loss she recently has had thrust upon her. Perhaps the Earth Goddess is mourning for her and letting us know she is holding the hands and cradles the vunerable ones who have passed over.

The hopes and fears we experienced as humans is eloquently metaphored by the violet, the bud is so vulnerable and yet so beautiful and when it flowers there is nothing more perfectly sweet.

And finally the Goddess of fertility is Aphrodite and her symbol is the Violet, perhaps she is making her intentions known. I did fertility spells last night in the garden for others, it was dark and under a new moon, so didn't see the violets but it now makes me feel a little more magical in the knowledge of their tender presence.

Carl Jung said: "Meaning makes a great many things endurable, perhaps everything."

He is right, searching for the meaning in Violets at the beginning of this post has bought tears to my eyes for the journey it has taken me on. I now know that with heartbreak comes wisdom, an outpouring of love and compassion from those around you and I know that things will be as they are Meant. Trust in that awareness, trust in the Goddess/Universe/God/ Spirit/or whatever takes your fancy and most of all, trust when miracle violets appear.

A final word from my favorite poet, e.e cummings, whose work was read at the wedding of Gandalf and myself.

yes is a pleasant country:
if's wintry
(my lovely)
let's open the year

both is the very weather
(not either)
my treasure,
when violets appear

love is a deeper season
than reason;
my sweet one
(and april's where we're)

"Possession of the root is punishable by death"

Visits to the spellshop yesterday and today for a major casting weekend, have had a few requests for others so I will see what I can do, meanwhile Gandalf and I are weaving some magic tonight for the business.
I bought some Mandrake root, very expensive but über powerful apparently, it is the root of exorcism, so where there is Mandrake no evil resides. I have to leave it for 3 nights undisturbed in an open vessel then soak it overnight in purified water or wine then use to my hearts content. It is poisonous and can promote psychosis if smoked or ingested. Not planning to any of that, but I am going to charge it then place it in an golden egg that I have bought that opens, Fabergé style and add lodestone and aventurine crystals and place in the office.
So it is -so shall it be!

The Beauty of Knowing

I have had a pile of bills, papers and unopened mail on my study desk for the last few weeks, illness and then a bad case of apathy is to blame for them being ignored for so long.
No judgement, no praise, just the way it has been.

I decided to get on top of it last night and sort, collate, file and move the money around the bank accounts to make do till pay day. Whilst I am not as flush as I would like at the moment, I have experienced more significant financial challenges, so at the end of the sorting session I felt much better. The importance of knowing your financial position, however dire, is the key to moving forward, make yourself become aware, don't judge it and then see what small changes you can make.

I have been reading about 'Money Fears' and how you need to change them on the Money Club.

One of the first things you need to do is write down a list of your money fears, When you see them on paper they will seem improbable and even silly. The ones that could happen, get a plan together to make sure you know what to do if something unexpected happen. I heard a parenting/family expert discussing the breakdown of familes on the radio yesterday and she said the number one factor was no planning for disasters such as job loss, death, accidents.

Another one is to write down you money messages you have received from your parents, was it good or bad? Did you receive a financial education? If not, then you need to educate yourself now as an adult about money and budgeting and planning for the future. Reparenting is always a winner, speak to someone who is good with money and ask for their help.

Do you have a money secret that keeps you awake at night? Tell someone close to you, its amazing how much smaller it seems and they might be able to help you!

Keep a copy of your receipts and see where you spend you cash, scary huh? But good!

There are a heap more, some of them very good. Go here to read more.

May you all be prosperous and your lives filled with good fortune!


P.S Slept like a lamb, sáns sleeping tablet.

Affirmation for Friday

My beliefs create my reality.
I believe in my unlimited prosperity.

From Creating Money.

Thanks again Fish Girl!

The Power of Intention

Todays card from The Power of Intention deck-

By banishing doubt and thinking in no-limit ways, you clear a space for the power of intention to flow through. The Power of Intention is so doubt-deficient that when you're connected to it you see what you'd like to have as already being present.


Nice one Wayne!

Void

I pulled a Rune this morning and pulled Wyrd, the rune with no pattern, the void rune. This rune reprsents the rune of fate, accept whatever come my way, whether unpleasant or pleasant. It is the rune of fate and the unknown. I also just read it is a Void moon today, fan-bloody-tastic, advice is do not start anything new or expect too much except delays and dissappointments, you can override the effects by going all out in your effort and cross your fingers but it really is only good to meditate during this time.

Contingency planning

I have been wishing, writing spells and casting them, burning oils and "omm"ing but there is nothing like action! I have decided to take action and move forward with confidence, courage and bravery, maybe all this spiritual work is just giving me the confidence to actually take action.
A few things have happened today to those around me and to do with wishes I asked for on Tuesday night that are out of the ordinary and the timing is too spectacular for me not to see it as auspicious and significant, connected? I hope so, I choose to think so.
However, I have learnt that it is all very well to Trust but helping the Universe perform miracles by actually taking action is the key, meet halfway and see what extraordinary things will occur!
I will let you know what miracles emanate today.

The Day of Resistance

I started with such high hopes after my spell casting session today but all day I have met with resistance, everywhere. Struggling! It has been almost, almost I say, funny. Got it from staff, clients, accounts, children, the dog, bloody hell!
I did look at my transit, I won't bore you with the details, but needless to say I have more Mars in it than a girl actually needs. All Squaring off against Neptune and Jupiter which means I come across lots of questioning, and things get blown out of proportion. Also the Trines with Mercury and Venus means I am seeing the big picture but I need to get planning.
I have been planning, lots of it and reporting, I have a firm understanding of what I need to do to get through the next few weeks but all the same, the resistance is wearing me down a little.

Wednesday

Finally slept after taking a sleeping tablet courtesy of the Brave Lioness, friend and now, drug dealer.
I did a major spell casting last night around wishes for myself and those nearest and dearest.
A lovely evening for intention and I swear I could feel the energy swirling around me. Whatever it is, it works and I know that to be true now.
I received my Creating Money book last night as recommended by Fish Girl. I am so looking forward to reading it, will start this Friday night while Gandalf goes to his Gladiator match.
Speaking of Gandalf, this morning we discussed the eternal struggle at work this year, 2 steps forward, one step back, it hard to get fired up about work sometimes, I need to wrap my thinking gear around this one and move onto another level of consciousness about letting go of needing to feel the struggle to feel alive.

Leave it with me.

More Moon info

New Moon comes in at 2.31pm. I was reading in the book that to create the best possible wish energy then ask within 8 hours of the new moon coming in. Todays moon arrives at 2.31pm. I will ask then but I will prepare this morning though.
Trés exciting!

"Magic is believing in yourself, if you can do that, you can make anything happen."
Goethe

More Leo Action

Wishes from New Moon Astrology as promised.
To be written by hand on the day of the New Moon, keep in your journal, Book of Secrets or diary and date them for reference.
Some examples are:

Heart Connections:
I want to attract and experince a healthy, happy, romantic relationships.
I want to easily find myself spending time with my children.
or
A Pregnancy Spell and Wish-

Caste a circle, call the four elements and the Goddess down to join me.
Repeat 5 times, once to each direction and once looking down at your cradled arms.

To you my child, my body is open.
To you my child, my mind is open.
To you my child, my heart is open.
By earth, wind, fire and sea
Happy and healthy,
Into my arms you will be.



Creativity:
I want to easily find myself beginning each day with a feeling of enthusiasm
I want to be filled with creative, new ideas.
I want to easily find mnyself involved in activities that evoke my passion and vital interest.

Creativity Spell:

In a bottle, add water, one teaspoon of lavender flowers, five tablespoons of orange zest, one teaspoon of rosemary, one teaspoon if dired geranium flowers. let it steep overnight.
Add to a sacred bath and visualise yourself partaking in a bast source of possibility. If it happens to rain the next day then you will be very lucky!


The wishes are from the book, the spells are not but I think they are fun, embracing my inner pagan!

Happy New Moon!

New Moon in Leo

Grab your broomsticks readers, New Moon in Leo tomorrow, so caste for leadership, courage, money, fame and career improvements. Do not caste for love as Leo could counteract it. But it is a good time to cast for fertility, healing of the upper back, spine and heart.
Tuesdays represents Mars. Courage, energy and physical strength, a perfect day for a spell session.
I will visit the witchy shop and get a ritual together together. I have a book at home on New Moon Wishing in Astrology, so I will peruse that and see what I can share with you there.

Blessed Be.

"We Bake Cakes and Nothing's the Matter!"

I am starting to see the light at the end of July. It has been an incredibly difficult month with death, insomnia, heartbreak and taxes all due.
The most incredible part is that I survived surprisingly intact. I know I still have 7 days left but we are in a balsamic moon phase and I have let go of so much this month that no longer serves me that I feel the worst is over, I trust the worst is over. I feel that things are going to be better, I know they will be better.
My health and loved ones have been top of mind in July and I have been able to serve both in wonderful, life changing ways.
The biggest things this month for me has been to let go when things do not happen the way I would like them to. A quote from Rumi says it best, "Some things that don't happen keep disasters from happening."
I have had to trust in the Universe looking after me and making it better than I could have ever imagined. I look forward to seeing what great things will happen this next 7 days.
Interesting then that this month I have had the worst insomnia I have ever experienced. In the last 72 hours I have had 11 hours sleep. I feel like shit but happy in my haze, its almost like I have had an accelerated learning phase as I have thought about so much in the night kitchen.
I read that "Everything that happens in your life is moving your forward in the directions of your goals." Find the good in the bad, know that you will always be taken care of and Trust.

Trust and Fly.

Planning from Within

How can you sell anything if you do not believe its benefits or message deep within your soul?
Whether it is your product or service or someone's else's product and service then you will do so much better if you would bet the farm on it.
I have been thinking about this as I have to sell not only my company's services but also other companies products and services.
It is not enough to create a nice design and clever words, the intention that is within the creation is the key. I ask my staff, "Do you believe it?" I like it when the answer is no, "think, think" we say and look at the project again.

Its Laws of Attraction 101.

Creating the right clients to your business and in my case my clients business's is a matter of thinking about who they are before you start to work for them.
Who are you attracted to and who is attracted to you?
What is your love/interest/ passion?
Write down your perfect day with your perfect set of clients, imagine your diary/schedule filled. Imagine the amount of money in the bank that you need, be careful what you wish for though.
I asked for a certain client last year, I asked and I received but I was not specific enough and I then found the client became inactive as I did not specify the relationship as fruitful and abundant and busy. I just asked to be on their preferred supplier list. I got this and sat there for 12 months with no work! I went back in May and rewrote this with Domonique the Wonderful and I now have 3 major jobs with them in the studio, live and learn!

Signs

I have been reading about the signs that you supposedly receive when you are not living your life on Purpose, when you are making mistake after mistake and not paying heed to the forces around you trying to let you know that your metaphorical boat has sailed a little or a lot off course.
The signs apparently have their own weighted criteria, which I understand as I have written so many tenders over the last 6 months and these often have criteria's to which the document is balanced against. Perhaps spirituality and business are not so far apart as one would think.
The weighting is this:

* Light weight signs; frustration/desperation

• Middle weight signs; defining moments, inspiration and mistakes

* Heavy weight signs; epiphanies, illness/accidents

I tend to pay attention to the Light weight Signs fairly seriously before it gets out of control. Yes I get frustrated periodically and I have experienced desperation in the past but the more I have worked my arse of then let go of any expectations around the outcomes, the more I have seen things fall into place and the sense of things happening on purpose now becomes things happening with Purpose.

Middle weights Signs I like.
Always learning from mistakes. If we split the word you just see they are miss- takes. Try again until you get it right, just change something in the formula and you will get success.
I love the word inspiration. Its origin in etymology is around 5000 B.C coming from the sound speis or peis, an imitation of the sound of blowing or breathing out. Inspiration is literally breath from the Source. Amazing and humbling.
When inspiration strikes, listen.

Heavy weight Signs are more difficult to bear.
The Middle English word "epiphanie" comes via Old French from Late Latin "epiphania," based on Greek epiphaneia "manifestation, show." The Greek word comprises epi- "on, forth" + phan-, "to show." The root of phan- also appears in Greek phantasma "object manifested," phantasia "imagination" (the power to manifest an object).

What does this mean to me? To manifest is to have an epiphany. But you get what you focus on, believe me, I know this to be so true. If you focus on failure and stress and scarcity, you will receive. You will manifest this, you will have an epiphany and see that you are connected to everything and you have more power than you realised, you are part of it all and everything you do, say and think about is connected. You lift the veil of your individuality and become part of the Universal fabric of life. Way hippie I know but I love it!

Accidents and illness I have had to think about.
As a mother of a child with a disability I have thought for 10 years what the higher purpose is for making her life so difficult sometimes. I have no answer other than I knew that she would have issues with the particular part of her body before she was born, I asked the Doctor in the ultrasound whether all was ok and he said yes, [she wasn't injured then] and so when her injury occurred at birth I realised that I KNEW, deep inside me, I knew. Did I create this by focusing on it? No, I hope not, the guilt is enough that I live with everyday that I should have done something, anything different, yet knowing deep inside that it is as it should be. It changes who you are as a parent, who you could have been as the injured. She is the Wounded Healer and I know she will do something amazing, her life, her experience is her Purpose.

My sister received so many warning signs that things were not right with her body and it wasn't till she needed spinal surgery, had gallstones, kidney polyps and liver abnormalities, until her body literally stopped working that she was able to get her cancer diagnosed. I asked her of she would have gone to the doctor earlier and she admitted that "no" she would not have gone. So how many signs did she need to receive before she allowed herself to get on Purpose and heal. She is now in Re-Mission- a lovely word, back on Mission and on Purpose all from heavyweights sign knocking her down and keeping her still till she got the help she needed.


See what you have to ask yourself is what kind of person are you? Are you the kind that sees signs, sees miracles? Or do you believe that people just get lucky? Or, look at the question this way: Is it possible that there are no coincidences?

Signs [2002]

Dissolution and Resolutions

Blessed and her Ram-Beau celebrated the culmination of her manifestation last night with a lovely soiree to announce their engagement to family and friends. A lovely evening had by all and a magical celebration of Big Love and testament to manifesting your future.

The Contessa spoke of my blog to many people at the party and I was asked by a several folk to help them with their own opportunities in creating their perfect future. I am not sure I am up to that yet, gotta walk my talk for a while more.

My blog was mentioned to someone who, when I explained that it was "spiritual" experiment in my business and my life, actually got up and walked away from my narrative.
I have thought about this throughout the day.

I have an inherent need to express myself to the world and this is made possible right now through this blog. It could be expressed through art, design, music, anything creative, there are no limits but to do this I needed to breakaway from the "tribe" mentality. The constraints of what is "right or wrong" by society to really experience my individuality and share my knowledge. Whilst I know the subject matter is not for everyone, I hope that it is seen with open eyes and hearts by those who know and love me and even those who don't.

I do not expect judgment or praise for this blog, it is just me on the page, all my flaws, heartbreak and occasional success, all I ever wanted to do was enrich my life and hopefully enrich the lives of others with some of my experiments and understandings.

Someone I admire and respect said when I started this blog to expect fear, ridicule and support. I have so far had a taste of all three from people I know and those I don't.
Noam Chomsky writes," Society’s nonconformists do not usually have an easy time of it, at least not while they’re alive. The way things work, society much prefers to honor its "living conformists" and "dead troublemakers."

I am not so self important to think that what I do is changing the world, but it certainly alters it for some in positive ways and that alone must count for something, I hope.
People are interesting and their behaviours can serve as gifts if you let them.
What I gained from the interaction with this person and subsequently thinking about it today, is the absolute understanding that what I do is my own North Star, my version of being creative and learning and that cannot be judged as it is my own experience.
It is, at best, my own attempt to be a better person than I used to be. Everyday this year I have written regardless of who reads it and I have asked for nothing. Nothing.
It is just me in-spirit, in-spired, living my life.

As Stephen King said: "Writing is magic, as much the water of life as any other creative art. The water is free. So drink. Drink and be filled up."

I am no longer thirsty. I am the well and within me is the infinite flow of creation and creativity.

Inspiration and respiration

Living on purpose. I am aware that most of my heartache lately has been that I have been entirely reactive and not living in Spirit. I have been living from what I think my ego needs, not what my spirit requires. So back to creating the intention, letting it go and feeding the soul not the ego.
All your 'problems' will be taken care of in creative ways that you could not even make up, life is stranger than fiction. Accept the amazing, the astonishing and awe-inspiring, anything is possible and everything matters.
Gandalf and I stayed up late last night and discussed the fact that Spirituality helps us but doesn't define us or make us better than anyone else and nor does it give us a reason, its just supports us, cheers and cradles us in stormy times. The narrative of our life so far should not define us either but we allow it to everytime we get caught up in habitual drama.
I think of importance of the Yoga breath, everytime we take a inhale we are starting again, every exhale is a choice: stay the same or change what is not working.
Just breathe.