Forecast: bright and sunny with a occasional cloudy spots

I am over my tantrum. Still don't know how to solve anything but I am over worrying about it.
Things went from bad to worse, I cooked dinner and then when I went to eat it realised that there was a dodgy smell eminating from it. Threw it out. When I was trying to start a new meal, the Piscean Son tried to 'shoot' the Scorpio Daughter with a water pistol and poked her in the eye. She screamed. I went nuts and threw the gun in the bin and sent him to his room, he got a blood nose everywhere and then I cried and then Gandalf came home. Noone told me there would be days like this when I walked up the aisle in the big white dress!
I then let go, cooked eggs on toast and then watched my daggy Judi Dench show that I love.

Later that evening phonecall from Brave Lioness who knew things were shitful, she is part psychic/ part Spiritual Biz reader so she is in the know. I discussed with her the art of being open to saying yes. 'Yes' as a word is empowering and I am sure does something positive to your brain chemicals if a study was done by Science dorks. Allow yourself to say yes and watch the world open up!

Astro says that my Saturn is Trine with Chiron.
What does that mean? This influence gives you the opportunity to become more aware of such weaknesses within yourself. It is now particularly important that you try to accept these without immediately wanting to change them. On a more superficial level, this influence should make it easier for you to change course or break out of existing patterns in your life, even when faced with obstacles or resistance from others. This will in any case be a time of increasing psychological stability, in which you will feel more able to get in touch with your own aims and true values.

Good.

Scope for tommorrow looks promising though.
Start again. Start again. Start again.

Fear and Frustration in Las Vegas

Yes my title is crazy but it all fits.
Last night I had a dream I was married to a certain celebrity restaurant critic/ex chef who is funny on his TV show but not, I thought, my type. I was madly in love with him in my dream and we were in Las Vegas together then in Melbourne and we opened a cafe at Flinders Street Station. Ok, I can't even be bothered interpreting it, so weird, I was so terribly fond of him though. Gandalf thought it was funny and we discussed how much of a slut I am for anyone who makes me laugh, this chef/writer/person could laugh me into bed I tell ya! It is the single the most favourite quality in anyone, animal or human.

Then off to work where I am trusting my gut instinct at the moment that tells me that things are not right in the woodshed re: the systems and processes and general small print. Guess what? I was right!

I spent all day cleaning up this work and have come home with a headache behind my right eye. The right side of the brain is the intuitive side, so that makes sense. It is screaming at me to trust it and making my brain fry!
I hacve recently stopped smoking but tonight I want a cigarette! God dammit!

15

Some things to do around the number 15:

1] Walk around your house and find 15 things to give to the charity.

2] For 15 minutes listen to someone speak. Really listen, their fears, their dreams, them bragging about their kids. Do not multitask while listening, be present, be still, be there

3] Meditate for 15 minutes

4] Walk for 15 minutes

5] Have a break at work [you know you never do] for 15 minutes

6] Spend 15 minutes at the beginnning of the day preparing for your fabulous day, write your list

7] Spend 15 minutes cleaning your work space at the end of the day.

8] Spend 15 cleaning out your wallet and sorting your receipts

9] Spend 15 minutes sorting out your emails

10] Spend 15 minutes sorting out your home bills

11] Tidy your wardrobe

12] Cook a meal that takes only 15 minutes

14] Clean out your car

14] Clean out your handbag

15] Have sex. Twice. Ha!


Do one of these everyday and see if life becomes less complicated. Its not a test, only a suggestion.

“It is better to take many small steps in the right direction than to make a great leap forward only to stumble backward.”

Old Chinese Proverb

Money, Money, Money

Money. If money is an energy then think about the past week and any thoughts you have had about money, were the thoughts positive or negative?
I read this and I cast my mind back to the past week and any thoughts I had about money. I can't remember, I don't recall anything in particular that was negative but nor do I recall anything overwhelming positive either.
So here I am on a Wednesday afternoon with the Goddess Bookkeeper, staring at a balance sheet wondering where the money will come from to calm the storms that are threatening off shore.
"Wherever it is right now" answers the voice in my head with a bad Indian accent.
Makes me think some more, no I didn't think about money much since last Wednesday, what I should say is I didn't worry about money in the last week, but I also didn't do anything to attract it either.
So back to affirmation land for me.

I enthusiastically welcome unlimited abundance.
I enthusiastically welcome unlimited abundance.
I enthusiastically welcome unlimited abundance.
I enthusiastically welcome unlimited abundance.
I enthusiastically welcome unlimited abundance.
I enthusiastically welcome unlimited abundance.
I enthusiastically welcome unlimited abundance.
I enthusiastically welcome unlimited abundance.
I enthusiastically welcome unlimited abundance.

Banish the dark, welcome the light.

Full moon energy has driven me to bring out the tarot. I am still enthralled with my cards, they seem to connect and calm me whilst offering suggestions from the non local field to try new paths and spurring me onto the road less traveled.
It was a spot on reading and optimistic till the final card which was the Two of Batons, the dueling card, the card of self doubt. Trés relevant, as I lay awake last night and had the voice of self doubt lying next to me on the pillow, whispering sweet nothings into my shell pink ear! Shut the fuck up I told it, it got louder! Nice.

This seems to be a common theme for me, just when I get to a place where I am ready for lift off on a personal project the voice starts. So how do I mute it, how do I let it go?
I read that I should break my dream into short-term projects. Apparently if I am unwilling to turn my dreams into projects, I should check and see if this is a dream you want to keep a dream or one you want to turn into achievement.
Way to take the pressure down man!

What is crazy is that the experiences that were fuelling the self doubt are the reason I am where I am right now. I turned lemons into lemonade, yet I let the past define me when I listened to the voices. Wayne Dyer explains that we are the boat on the sea, we are not the wake behind the boat. We are not the wake. Do not let the past define you.

Final note: This is the message on Wayne Dyers mobile phone, no I am not lying, it really is:

You have reached Wayne Dyer and I want to feel good. If your message is designed to do anything other than make me feel good, you have reached the wrong number.




Trés funny! I may do this myself.
Resolution: I will not say anything to myself or anyone else that is not designed to make them and myself feel good!









P.S You are all fantastic, amazing, brilliant people, who change the world everyday.

A wonderful night for a moondance

A little insight required?

Here tis'!

A Full Moon occurs tonight. With the Moon full and bright in the sky, symbolic "illumination" occurs in our own lives. However, these new feelings and revelations are emotional ones, as there is a sense of emotions bursting forth into our consciousness. It's time to express ourselves, and to let things out of our systems. Of course, we might want to exercise some care while doing so, knowing that what is coming out of us is fresh, unrefined, and not particularly rational as yet. The Cancer Sun encourages us to value our home base and our roots, while Capricorn persuades us to consider our sense of duty and responsibility along public lines. Cancer represents our origins, and Capricorn represents our goals. Neglecting either end of the axis will surely backfire on us. Ideally, a balance should be found between the two energies, and this is what the Full Moon invites us to do. This Full Moon is about balancing our commitment to our career and families.

I make my kids howl at the full moon, to honor and celebrate it, they love it now, don't know when it will stop, but while they are young I think, let's be free and crazy.

Happy Full Moon to you all!

Emotional genomes

I tried a little excerise tonight, I was wary of it as it seemed so simple but....I don't know, there seems to be a little something in it. No, I will not try to color you experience, try it and see what you think.

The premise is this. Saying this script supposedly reprograms your DNA structure and clears you of your most negative emotional sludge. All you do is add in the given places what you are feeling and then what you want to feel.
It does mention God quite a bit, but in a Universal Jedi sense, I am not trying to sell any religion here at all.

So give it a whirl speak it out loud if possible.
Don't feel like a dick, just go with it and be open.



Spirit, please locate the origin of my feeling/thought of feeling negative about....[insert the feeling or belief you want to release here].....

Take each and every level, layer, area and aspect of my be-ing to this origin. Analyze and resolve it perfectly, with God's truth.

Come forward in time, healing every incident based upon the foundation of the first, according to God's will; until I'm at the present, filled with light and truth, God's peace and love, forgiveness of myself for my incorrect perceptions, forgiveness of every person, place, circumstance and event which contributed to this feeling/thought.

With total forgiveness and unconditional love I delete the old from my DNA, release it and let it go now! I feel [Insert the way you want to feel here].........................!!!!!!!!

I allow every physical, mental, emotional and spiritual problem, and inappropriate behaviour based on the old feelings to quickly dissappear.

Thank you, Spirit, for coming to my aid and heping me attain the full measure of my creation.
Thank you , thank you, thank you! I love you and praise God from whom all blessings flow.


Acknowledge the feeling and replace it. You don't need it anymore apparently. I did this with one of my recurring life issues and I did feel a little buzz, I admit. Write this out and carry it with you is a tip, then when you need an emotional DNA makeover then you have your laboratory at the ready!

Souls carried to heaven

I had a charming morning with The Contessa, we discussed everything from Scientology to financial planning over endless cups of tea and omelettes from The Conte: her Live in Chef and Lover, she really is livin' and lovin' Noble Lifestyle.

I then saw Blessed Seraph and her Ram-Beau at the Design Festival in Melbourne, was swell to see them in their love bubble. Blessed is the living example of how you can process you karma quickly by doing things differently to how you have done it in the past and suddenly moving forward at a pace faster than you ever could have realised possible. Dear Blessed's grandmother passed away last week and now Blessed is coming down with a cold. She commented that we are spookily connected which got me thinking about friendships and the patterns in them.

Because I am a giant astro dork, I have a listed all my friends birthdays and times of birth [wherever possible] on my fave website which generate heaps of free charts, [I am tight as well as a dork.] So tonight I did a friendship chart with all my dear ones, here and departed, in hopes to understand any patterns that are occuring. They bought a tear to my eye. If I had read this a long time ago I could have saved myself a lot of heartache and worry at night.

Karma runs deep, it is in its most basic explanation, it is how we metabolise and interpret our past to affect our future. But how does karma work with astrology? There are certain relationships that have affected me deeply, in fact changed me, and the commonality is that we all have Sun in the 10th House. These are the relationships that affect your life purpose, those whom with you have a contract with in this lifetime. These are the ones who I have supposedly sat in the Hall of Ashtic Records with and we have worked out lives purpose together and how we will help each other to get to attain the goals together. We have an 'identity of purpose'. We have karma together that needs to be processed.

It is at once amazing and astounding.

One relationship in particular with Beloved who is no longer on here on earth, states that our relationship has a "dreamlike quality' about it, as if it were too beautiful to be true." because of Moon conjunct Venus. Also the placement of Venus in the 9th House "signifies love as an agent of consciousness expansion." Her death was the very thing that propelled me into looking deeper within myself and the universe around me. Now I see her only in my dreams a few times a year where we are of no particular age, we make each other laugh and she shows me a few more breadcrumbs on the trail to finding real meaning.

I understand more about my friends after tonight, I see the friendships that are for a reason, a season and a lifetime.
Each one is a gift and from the connection I grow.


At the moment I am looking into astrology, which seems indispensable for a proper understanding of mythology. There are strange and wondrous things in these lands of darkness. Please, don't worry about my wanderings in these infinitudes. I shall return laden with rich booty for our knowledge of the human psyche.

Carl Gustav Jung

Passion lurks amongst us

I have thought about passion over the weekend in relation to work.
I discussed with a Special One in my life, who is facing some temporary financial challenges at the moment, the idea that perhaps their passion could be used to actually make some money to help their situation somewhat. The idea of using their special gifts and passion with the purpose of helping their family is the theme of centuries of literature, I know somewhere the poet/artist archetype is smiling down upon them.
The greatest failure in life is inaction. Waiting for someone to hand it to you.
Do something, anything, differently and see what happens. Potentially nothing will ever be the same again, you are forever transformed and that, my friends is growth.

Science, Spirituality and the family tree.

Watching The Ghost In Your Genes.
According to a bunch of renegade scientists, genes have a memory. We aren't just what we eat and think, we are what our parents and grandparents eat and think and saw and even the air that they breathed. So our hereditary characteristics are in fact products of the way our ancestors lived their lives.
I can't blame it on Tom Cruise anymore, I need to go back into therapy to discuss but I will have to take the family tree with me.

The Getting of Wisdom

Being spiritual requires humility, real humility, the complete loss of of ego and the acknowledgement of the infinity of the universe and it being able to give all things if we allow ourselves to receive, be it love, money, laughter and great shoes!
The road to self actualization can start at any moment.
In fact, the exact minute you ask "Why am I here?"

I have been reading about Eastern and Western theories that the self actualized person actually shows the same traits whether it be Maslow's theory or Zen Buddhism that they follow.
These are people who understand the simplicity and wonder of nature, people who are independent of what people think of them and what others do and finally those who are not controlled by self limiting or grandiose thoughts.
Sounds easy huh?

Well I have first one down, there is nothing, nothing, that is as divine as nature, not art, not fashion. No material, man made object. As Frank Lloyd Wright said:" Study nature, love nature, stay close to nature. It will never fail you."

As for the others, I am working on them but old habits die hard.

So why do it? Why follow this path? What do we gain from it? Why complicate it with all this new age shit?

Well, it makes the time pass faster whilst on this trip. It raises your energy levels, makes you look at your relationships on a deeper level and demand and even receive more than you ever believed possible. Self actualization makes you question your beliefs, emotions and what drives you, it makes you take responsibility for how you interact and react with the world.
This all takes time, real quantative measurements of time. Spending more time contemplating though means less time for the many crises we are addicted to.
The Getting of Spiritual Wisdom is getting to know your life's purpose and then living with that purpose top of mind. Open your eyes. See the signs, the syncro moments that tell you you are on track, see the threads between those souls who you have travelled lifetimes with and be in the moment when you have de-ja-vous when you visit seemingly foreign places.

And after all that laugh, angels fly because they take themselves lightly!

dib, dib, dob, dob

Yesterday was Mastery, today I tackle Excellence.

"Excellence is never an accident. It is achieved in an organisation or institution only as a result of an unrelenting and vigorous insistence on the highest standards of performance."

I think my business is excellent. I am constantly banging on about being better, growing my staff's skills so they can be the best possible. Not better than anyone else, just better than they used to be for themselves.

"Excellence inspires; its electrifies. It potentialises every phrase of the organisation's life.......
Excellence is a state of mind put into action. It is a road map to success. When the climate of excellence exists, all things come easier."


Right then, off my soap box and off to be excellent.


P.S. Did I tell you how much I love my Goddess Bookkeeper?
She is amazing and I am honoured everyday that I get to spend with her!
She is excellence personified!

I love it!

In a letter to Sigmund Freud, Carl Jung wrote:

"My studies in astrology are fascinating...I have come to the firm conclusion that at the moment of birth an individual takes on the characteristic state of the Universe for that moment in time."


Blessed Be!

High Points

• The Goddess Bookkeeper has moved more of the crap in my office into the storeroom.

• Received a lovely comment from a Fish. Bless them made me all warm and fuzzy. Love a comment!

• Have finished writing a proposal and I am pretty happy with it. Not attached to the outcome, but enjoyed writing it, main point.

• Had a nice lunch with someone special.

• Had a dream about someone that I knew and instinctively knew it was a message for them. Told them and it spoke to them so deeply and with such gravity, I realised it was privilege to have the dream gift and I blessed the Universe for giving it to me.

• Have had a few laughs with the people I work with.

• Have organised a breakfast date with my favourite Contessa.

• Money is winging its way to me so I can honor my debts.

• Love is in my heart.

The five point palm-exploding heart technique

I read an interesting article about Mastery last night. "Mastery in one's career and consciouness requires that we consistantly produce results beyond and out of the ordinary."

One way to mastery is to surround yourself with people who are as vibrating as highly as possible, those who ask more of you than you think you can ever achieve. Those who believe in you.
My new phrase I have coined: If they ain't humming then they ain't coming!


Another step is to not have resentment to those Masters around you. "Develop compassion for yourself so you can be in the presence of masters and grow from the experience. Rather than comparing yourself and resenting people who have mastery, remian open and receptive, let the experinence be like the planting of the seed within you that, with nourishment, will into your own individual mastery."


And the final pearl is is, " You must be able to correct yourself without invaildating or condemming yourself. "


Me, Grasshopper likey, likey!


"It's the wood that should fear your hand, not the other way around. No wonder you can't do it, you acquiesce to defeat before you even begin. "
Pai Mei- Kill Bill 2

Batten down the hatches

I am reading about Mercury Retrograde which occurs from the 4th July till the 29th of July. Apparently we are well into the shadow period now with this Mercury Retrogarde in Cancer.
I experienced this today with an outage across Victoria with Broadband for 6 hours and now I ca't access my work server from home! Helpful, not!

So, what does this all mean?
Here is a list of what could potenially go to the shit and how you can prevent it.

• Stay indoors under the doona full dressed in case you need to escape at anytime.
• Technology going to whack out so backup, backup, backup!
• Those ol' family wounds will start to gush blood and gore again , so stay away from them [family] till the 29th, unless you want to say shit you will regret and get excommunicated forever and ever.
• Emotional insecurites pop up again. Do not look into an mirror whilst naked. Do not drink and dial/text old boyfriends. Try to be kind to yourself.

As it is is Mercury Retro in Cancer and Cancerians have to "learn emotional self-reliance", have a think about how you can take care of your emotional needs without draining others or relying on them to make you happy.

Where you have Cancer in your chart will be affected. If you know then go here to learn more.

Just My Luck

As a guilt ridden parent I allowed my daughter, who had to sit through 2 hours of medical procedures today, to take me to a movie of her choice and she wanted to cook the family dinner. Bless her, cooking for the family is still an adventure. Wish I still had the same mojo for this task. Sorry, I digress.
First things first, the movie. Just My Luck with Lindsay Lohan [her birthday yesterday, just found this out when I went to this link, nice syncro moment] and a supporting cast of who cares. I secretly love a preteen movie and this hit all the spots, great clothes, slapstick and a Top 40 soundtrack. The premise is that the luckiest girl in the world kisses the unluckiest boy in the galaxy and they they swap luck, her life turns to shit and his turns to gold, yaydayadayadaya.

As I watched, I wondered if the main character created her own drama after a random tarot reading foretold of her change in the Wheel of Fortune. Did she allow herself to doubt for a moment and then start to attract negative energy ? Her choice were pretty crap, no thought, none of the smarts and moxie she displayed when she was in her luck phase. She didn't get unlucky she got stupid and became a victim.
The Good Doctor in W.A told me of an experiment where people two groups of people were bought together, one considered them lucky and the other unlucky. They were told to go through a newspaper and count the amount of times a particular worked appeared in the dummy newspaper. The groups got started. I don't know the specific statistics but it ended up that the 'lucky' group found an ad quite early on in the paper that said something to the effect,
" Stop counting, the word you are looking for appears 21 times." So they stopped.
The unlucky group didn't see the ad and spent lots of time looking for the word and most of them got the number wrong of how many times it appeared. Those who had seen it thought it was a trick so they ignored it, making their search harder for themselves.
The moral of this story is to look for the signs and you will suddenly find yourself on track and on purpose. Pay attention and then trust your instincts.
All this from a Lindsay Lohan movie.

P.S
Dinner was excellent. Divine Scorp Daughter made tacos with the works, the her own dessert combo of vanilla ice-cream, strawberry topping and garnished with jubes. Classy huh?
It was actually nice in a primary school sort of a way.


P.P.S
Divine 5 yr old Piscean Son is becoming a little 'astrowunderkind'. I saw an interview with Winona Ryder on the E! channel during the taco extravaganza and I commented that she was looking a bit dodgy and sad and I wondered what sign she falls under. Small Fish Son made comment that she looked like a 'Scorpian'. There is no judgement from him attached to this statement but blow me down with a feather boa when I just now googled Winona and she is a Scorpio!
The little freak has the gift.

"Some magic's real."
Cole in The Sixth Sense

More on housekeeping

Just looking at my Moon journal and it states that the crescent moon in Leo we are experiencing is the moon of assertion, mobilizing and resources. Maybe I am in touch with the bio-rhythms of the moon and this is what has prompted me to clean up the study. The journal states that this moon encourages you to not take yourself too seriously and enjoy the process of making a comfortable, welcoming home environment that reflects my personal artistic nature.

Makes sense to me, I know a few people doing this, Blessed Seraph and her Ram-Beau playing house, me playing in my study, the moon affects us all unknowingly whilst we keep on blaming Tom Cruise.
Speaking of which, here is a trés intersting article on why Katie Holmes should run like the wind away from The Tiny One according to her chart. It's his birthday tomorrow. Syncro! Didn't know that till I went to the previous link. I know I am rambling, but......anyway, I could make all sorts of unqualified comments about why he is such a massive tool but I shall leave it to the astrologers to do that. Interesting insights on The Tiny One to be found here.

Scrrryyyyiiiiiing, over you!

I bought a dowsing pendulum for scrying. I know! I said I would try everything this year and I am committed.
I am not sure, I think its a bit like the ouija board, finger on the drinking glass theory, you think you aren't moving it but you are subconsciously affecting it with the slighest muscle movement.
I found a website that has a heap of scrying charts about fate, destiny, money and even what colours are best for me. Apprently a big no to Salmon Pink but a shout out to Reddish Brown for me. Does Salmon Pink look good on anyone? It's such an eighties colour! All Moonlighting and Golden Girls.
Hmm, the jury is out on scrying, but happy to hear from anyone who has had great success using this method, as I say, open to everything, attached to nothing.

Hanging in the 'Rat

Went to Ballarat for a variety of reasons and ended up not doing anything I had planned and found myself in an art gallery having some serious syncrodestiny moments. Too many to believe, it began to get tiring. I said to Gandalf that it was draining trying to understand what it all meant. Maybe sometimes a cigar is just a cigar I know, but these signs were out of control. So much of the art on the wall reflected so many things that we are discovering in our life or are important right now. I felt myself being dragged onto the past during the day also, so did Gandalf, while memories, music and other crap rose to the surface of our consciousness.
I have searched for reasons why, is it astro based? Or just us feeling melancholy for no good reason?
Can't find any good reason other than the temperature being eyeball freezing and it raining the whole time. Maybe we have a case of the SADS. Probably.

Day off tomorrow, I am going to clean up my bomb site study that is driving me nuts. Maybe thats why I am being a pain in the arse. I read that if you have one room in your house that is a shithole filled with crap then it is über bad feng shui. The messy room is stopping your flow and reflects a part of your chi that is being held hostage by your mess.
Clean up your mess piglets and let your chi start flowing !